Playful Kiss Youtube Episodes About The Newlyweds

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• One word YAHOO 야 후!!!!

• Great! I'm so happy!!! We'll see their married life! Though not too much of it that we were anticipated but still, this is better than nothing!

  Thank you veru much for this information, ockoala!!!!! You mady my day =)

  • Sorry for clerical mistakes =)

• thanksk ockoala!!! your the best!!! i love how you spoil us PKissers!!!!
  we owe you a lot!!!

  wow!! playful kiss you are making us so happy!!!!
  they are feeding the addiction of the PKissers!!!
  and we LOVE it!
  this is so exciting!!!

• woooohoooooooooo that's a rooooocking news , but will the video be subbed , I wish so , anyway , when will the channel telecast the episodes , I know it's in november but when exactly , the date I mean , soooo eagerly waiting :D

• i'm still bummed about the fact that it's only 16 episodes, cut or no-cut, with all the lovely post-marriage scenes that are never going to see the light. what a waste. just what a waste. sigh.
  anyways, this is good news... i also remember in the trailer on the youtube channel, lee tae sung said that we'll get lots of new things so i'm hoping...
  and OMG, you've surpassed 200K views!!! it was just only a day or two ago when you're were in the low 100K... 0_O
  congratulations?

• It's great that we will get to see their new life:) But I don't think they are doing this because they don't want to waste material; the introduction video at youtube channel was recorded before they aired any of the episodes. It can't possibly be about the cut.

• hmmm i was thinking, maybe they were holding the youtube thing as a second option from the beginning (if they would decide not to make 20 episodes on tv). If you watch the youtube trailers, HKJ JSM and the male Lee did a shout out about watching the special editions on youtube... Anyways, doesn't matter :)

  I'm just grateful they are not completely ending things after 16 eps :) 20 would have been nice, but i appreciate them feeding us with a little more on youtube :)

  • oh btw, i forgot to mention that the shout outs were done in highschool clothing (and old hairstyles) so it was at the beginning of PH shootings.

    and I also would like to add (can't get enough talking and stalking :S) that I also love PK because it has a very nice (/fast) pace and is no-nonsense (except for the first ep, which was probably edited by a monkey according to ockoala ;) )... misunderstandings and angst will be solved within one ep or maybe two (aired right after each other). That means you don't have to feel these angst the whole week waiting for the next revealing ep... this is quite different from (for example) Hong Kong drama's (but those dramas air 5 ep per week)... if that was the case with PK... I would have been a total nutcase by now!!

    • well said...
      honestly, i didn't hate ep 1 but the fantasy sequences, as lovely as they were, were totally dragging... i guess because of jung so min dancing background, they added the ballet scene, which was quite unnecessary in the grand scheme of things... and i've seen her dance and she's really good at it but still... not to mention the spirit of the forest scene... i got frustrated by the middle of it, not because of the scene but because i love itazura na kiss and was thinking of how many people PK just lost with that scene and would miss this drama.
      as for ockoala's monkey... kk. everytime it gets mentioned, i always laugh... haha.
      "can't get enough talking/stalking" that's my thoughts exactly... i feel like spamming now whenver i write a comment...

    • ahhh me too! I didn't hate ep1; it still made me curious and want to watch the more eps, but it was toooo dragging (despite its cuteness)! It was taking up a lot of wasted time instead of showing us more "real" life interaction and plot. When I rewatch the first ep (yes I am pathetic, along with the old eps I also rewatch Joongbo cuts in order to keep myself busy and not go crazy waiting for PK airtime), I skip the fantasies. That's why I agreed with ockoala about the monkey doing-the-odd-eps thing :)

    • wow... how many comments did i make today on this blog alone?? i might become a professional stalker if this continues... hani, you're grubbing on me.. kk
      and i must be more pathetic than you because i've watched ep 1 several times, with the fantasy sequences included... actually, they get less bad over time... i don't know if it's because they're actually not that bad or because i've braced myself in advance for them... (?)
      as for the monkey thing... it'll be my expression for any thing messed up... monkey editing, monkey directing, monkey acting... kkk

    • aaah i like how you make me less of a crazy stalker, or at least we're sharing the stalking thing, whether it's PK or this blog LOLZ

    • hehe. i guess that's y i love this blog... because with all Pkissers, you get to be "normal"
      with my friends, i'm called crazy.

    • Bwahaha, I've also been watching Joongbo cuts in between episodes! Getting my newlywed fix somehow. :P

      And on topic of episode 1, I am in the complete minority. After the first five minutes, I messaged my roomy to say, "I think I'm in love." But I love fantasy stuff. Some of my fave movies include: Princess Bride, Amelie and Penelope. And for TV shows, it reminded me of Pushing Diasies which was so beautiful I could cry.

      I agree it dragged a bit, but I felt the first episode introduced us to Oh Ha Ni, not so much the rest of the show. And I completely and utterly fell in love with her. Knowing what the story was about, I was hoping to just be able to deal with the character, instead I found myself rooting for her.

    • Somewhat off topic... but i LOVED Amelie also :D do you know Un Long Dimanche de Fiancailles? Same actress (Audrey tautou).... different movie but brilliantly funny also :)

    • I have not! Will have to check it out. Thanks!

    • i think i didn't express myself well... for me, personally, the fantasy sequences were lovely... true, i felt they dragged but in a way, i still liked them... perhaps because i was already influenced by my love for itazura na kiss so i was inclined (or doomed) to like anything related to it as well.. kk
      and OMG... what's with french movies these days... thoughtsramble who also recaps PK also made a review about amelie yesterday... i LOVE how people are talking about french movies since i'm french myself... kk
      i like amelie as well... and un long dimanche de fiancailles is a good movie as well... honestly, even though i'm french, i don't watch many french movies but i have favorites... amelie, of course, les choristes, manon des sources/jean de la florette, edith piaf, angelique, arsene lupin, etc.
      hehe.
      and yes.. i also like penelope (mainly because of james mcavoy...) and of course, princess bride is a classic.

    • OMO freaky!!! I've also watched les choristes, it's such a lovely movie :) hahaha I kind of stumbled on it in a store and I only bought the movie because it was cheap and had a craving for french movies (after amelie and un long dimanche)... it turned out to be a pleasant surprise, very cute.

      Edith Piaf has been on my 2-watch list for ages... maybe sometime after PK heh (can't stand to watch/ follow another story before PK has ended :P)

      I also want to emphasize that i don't hate the fantasies... it was just not doing much for me beside it being cute (and beautifully done -> forest scene)... it was... wel again too draggy :) ep 1 is definately not one my favourite, but i liked it anyway

      @V: you're french? 100%?

    • wow... hey buddy!! you like les choristes too? it got criticized by many critics because it was too hollywoodian... not french enough... i say whatever... it's lovely.

      Edith piaf is a serious, morose movie, but well executed...
      i totally understand about not wanting to do anything else beside PK while PK is airing...

      and yeah. about the fantasy sequences... the main thing for me was that they were redundant... but i don't hate them... plus, they gave us one extra kiss. haha.

      and yes and no about me being french... i was born in france, lived their 16-17 years of my life there and am french by nationality... ethnically, i'm not french though (only 1/8th french and it doesn't show at all)

    • buahahah oh ic :) i was wondering about how a French know so much about asian entertainment (kdrama, miyazaki, taiwan drama and lord knows what else) no offence intended to the French ;)!

      about choristes... i haven't read anything about it... it just crossed my path, i watched it and liked it :) honestly, if a movie moves you... it moves you, and i will love it just for that. period. just like PK, who cares about the ratings...

      ... we CRAVE it, we PRAISE it, we LOVE <3 it... period :D
      (just to go back to the main subject ;))

      ockoala thank you for your blog and sorry for using it as a chatbox :P, but i guess we just love this too much :)

    • buahahah my usage of smileys is out of order :P

    • adding yet again another comment: i really like the main actress in Edith Piaf (Marion Cotillard right? also in Inception and Un long dimanche?)!

      she's good and beautiful in a unique and French way!!

    • lol.. no offense taken. but you would be surprised how many fans there are in france.... it's mainly fans of j-culture (there's MANY of them) but there are quite a lot of kdramas fans as well... i was even surprised myself at the number of k-stuff french fans there was, considering that there are so little asians in france... like literally, i was one out of 7 asian in my 2400 students school.
      kk

      and lol.. i didn't see how the use of ur smileys were messed up. (?)

      but yes, THANK YOU ockoala for hosting this blog for us... i love db as well because there are so many interesting and diverse opinions out there but sometimes, it's refreshing to see be able to discuss PK with people who like PK as well... like DB is a place for me to discuss/think/debate about PK and ockoala is where i can set my spazzing nature free. it makes the angst of waiting for PK much more bearable and enjoyable.. hehe.

      yes... marion cotillard is not necessarily classically beautiful but she has a STRONG screen presence... i like her in inception as well although i like inception ITSELF more.. that movie was bloody brilliant. and i also like her french movies.
      i think most french actresses who succeed internationally deserve their success.. i also liked eva green... she was in casino royale among other movies (like a golden compass or kingdom of heaven). i loved her role as vesper.

    • Oh really? I know that the French also like manga (I bought the first five volumes of Dragonball there when I was on holiday in France, hehe I can manage to read manga-French ). I've also seen a lot of spanish comments on korean youtube clips :) heheh, what an international bunch are we!!

      about my smileys, maybe i shouldn't have used 'out of order', but i just used A LOT of them, my comment was all yellow dots. hahah don't see these smileys much in other comments (or maybe just a different kind) hehehe maybe this is due to me being from the old-style-smiley-generation ;) hehe

      I've watched Inception twice in the movietheatre, so i don't think i have to explain to you what i thought about the movie :D

      Wow, didn't know Eva Green is French. I didn't notice her much, but i do believe i also found her uniquely beautiful the first time i saw her!

    • lol.. this is insane how much i have to scroll up just to click the reply button. haha.
      yes... the french are starting to discover things other than japanese, although the japanese stuff are still the main domineering thing here.
      and don't even get me started about DgB... i won't lie, even though i'm a girl, i was addicted to that serie... i (well, my brother...) have all the mangas and everyday, i ran home from school just to watch the anime on TV... it was awesome... good times, good times.
      it's awesome you can handle french! i'm good with anyone who knows french... kk. i guess you're french level is like my spanish's... i took in in school in france and it's quite useful, especially with korean related stuff.. it's unbelievable how resourceful spanish/italian-speaking fans are... of course, most of their sources come from english sites but sometimes, you can find materials in spanish that you can't in english.

      oh. don't worry about your smileys.. i loved them.. it made the comment a lot more cheerful and colorful! ---> smiley :)

      i know right... i've watched inception twice as well... once at my hometown and then i went for summer studies and there was an imax theater there and i watch it there as well... although honestly, i couldn't see the difference. -_-"

      yep... eva green is french... i think she's also partial english... although i'm not too sure.. i know she studied in england though. i never thought eva green was beautiful until i saw her as vesper.. before the movie was out, there was those carpets photo of her and she looked terrible imo. but after that, i thought she was gorgeous

    • OMGosh! My second time was also in an iMax theatre 0_O, freaky again hahha. I didn't notice much difference either, except that, at the first theatre, there was something wrong with the sound (which bugged me a lot, since a ticket is not cheap...)... that was actually also one of the reasons why i decided to watch it a second time :) ghehehe (beside it being brilliant!) and watch it in iMax to maximise the watching experience ;)

      I've been pasting your comment in my commentbox(and deleting it after i finished my reply) in order to reply properly buahahah

      hahahah DB... I'm also a girl (or young woman now i should say :S) but I LOOOOVED/may still have some love left for DB also... it's a childhood thing i think.. I had to wait for my parents to rent the series @ a Cantonees rentalstore every week, they didn't air the series on tv in the Netherlands until I finished the whole thing in Cantonees ;) (and had other interest) hehe

      ahhh again good old times :) *swoon* heheh it's nice to share old-time-stories, c'est drôle, je trouve :D ok that's about all my French knowledge there ;) hehehe kidding

      About Eva Green (and Marion Cotillard, and JSM also), they may not be obvious beauties, but looking better one will find them very interesting and pleasant to look at :)

      oh forgot to mention about the "extra" kiss in the fantasy, buahahah that was more of a kissish thingy rather than a Kiss, hahaha it didn't make me giddy at that time (I think I might have even missed it the first instance).. hahaha it is a nice visual for stills though LOL:)

    • LOL, while writing my previous comment, I forgot that I was clocking time for my job... I also got distracted by ockoala's update :P

      PK what are you doing to meeeeee??!?

    • lol.. it's freaky awesome we both went to imax for inception. kk
      for me, i wanted to rewatch it right away after watching it the first time... like i watched it at the 3 something show and when i went out, i almost bought the ticket for the next show... in the end, i didn't because my parents would have been worried if i've gone too long.. -_-" so when i found out that where i studied for the summer, there was an imax showing inception, there was not way i would have missed it... the ending still kills me. i'm just going to ignore all conspiracy theories and assume that he's in real world.

      lol.. have you been doing that too? copying and pasting the comments... at first, i didn't do that but for the last one, i did. kk. this one as well.

      i'm a young woman too although i feel like a girl. haha. everytime i hear the term "young adult" i feel so weird. OMG... are you from the netherlands???!!! i've been to amsterdam and The Hague for Model United Nations and i LOVED it... LOVED LOVED it... the streets, the bycicles, etc. kk. and people were so nice as well and could speak decent english, which helped a lot. what surprised me was how many burger king and mcdonalds, and kfc there were... literally in every streets in the main area of the cities...

      lol.. you've even remembered to put the accent on drole... not bad at all.. i don't have a french keyboard right now so i have to type without accent...

      and yes... JSM is not an obvious beauty, although she is obviously cute. she's being compared to YEH and although i think YEH has strong screen presence, i think JSM is cuter and more adorable... anyways, not many actresses in dramas are "ugly" per se... not by my standards anyways... because if i call them ugly, i dont know what i am....

      lol.. the extra kiss didn't do much to me either but i'm still glad it was there... and i dont know if you've seen iswak but i thought that kiss (in itself) is better than the hospital one in iswak.. i mean, that wasn't even a kiss... it was like a chin-kiss. -_-"

      aw.. i hope you're not in trouble for clocking in late... sorry... don't get distracted!! work first... we can discuss later. kk

      PK what are you doing to meeeeee??!?

    • buahahahah you can be even more obsessive than me (concerning your inception story) hahah I like it :D
      The ending drove me totally nuts too!! Eventually i was also like 'screw it, i'll just believe that he's in the real world, end of story', that eased my mind (wacky ey ;) ). Thank god PK doesn't work with these kind of cliffhangers, I think I wouldn't have been able to function while waiting for new eps.

      Hahhaha you've been in Holland! I looked up MUN, cool you participated@!! You're the international type aren't you ^^
      I think people are inclined to like foreign countries... To me, Holland is just ordinary... I LOVED France, it looked so picturesque! I felt like walking in a cute story ;)
      Hahha about the fastfood franchises, that's only the case in big cities (holland is no america (or Hong Kong)) I don't mind it, it's a fast way to grab some food when you're hungry (while shopping ;)) (I can't function right when i'm hungry)

      What's YEH's full name? hahah i'm not that familiar with korean actors (yet). PK is actually my second drama I really followed (first was Oh! My lady... BOF I only watched few scenes, couldn't bare to watch the whole drama as I was too much into Meteor Garden (and Jerry Yan) back then :D)
      Ok, that's not true, when I was really, really young, I watched Wish upon a star with late lead actress Choi Jin Shil (but i watched it synced in manderin :P, wasn't aware of Korea and its entertainment circuit back then)

      Actually I think most Korean entertainers (be it singers, actors etc) are not ugly but rather pretty... if they were (ugly), they would probably either not be able to debut or undergo surgery... I was quite amazed by the prettiness in the korean scene... I thought Taiwanese entertainers were all about pretty, but it's nothing compared to the koreans! heheh, i'm not complaining :)

      Haven't seen ISWAK. I have had some glimpses on particular scenes due to PK (the first forced kiss after graduation, kiss in the rain..) but I didn't want to venture into ISWAK too much... I read horrid comments about the protagonist hahaha, and from what i've seen, Ariel Lin did came over as extremely annoying. Joe Cheng, on the other hand, made me dropped my jaws by his play (and i've just watched small cuts!!), KHJ has still so much to learn. Ah well, he's still young :)
      Maybe I'll look up this chin kiss heh... when did that one occured? (btw, after watching these cuts from ISWAK, I realised how pretty the cast of PK is and its superb styling, even the ajusshi's were OK to look at XD, not pretty but definately not ugly)

      Aah, another long comment.... hope people who subscribed to this threat aren't totally annoyed by this (/us :S). Otherwise: SSORY (to quote KHJ ;) )

    • lol... how come everytime i come back here, i see your reply?
      are we both stalkers of this blog or what? kk

      glad we agree on how to deal with the ending of inception. and as much as i loved it, i'm glad PK is as "simple" as it is... the last thing i need right now is a headache.

      yeah.. i'm definitely the international type... i love foreign countries, foreign languages, foreign drama, foreing music.. haha. and you look like the type to be curious about many things, like you looked up MUN, or you asked about YEH and all. haha.. me too.. i tend to google anything and everything and i stalk news blog all the time.
      is holland ordinary to you? to me, it was one of the most peaceful awesome places i've been to (and i've been to a LOT of countries). France still remains my fav place to live though, but not necessarily the fav place to travel to. Where have you been in france? my fav place would be the french riviera where i lived most of my life... i spent my childhood in paris though, and i love that city as well but i like the beaches more.. kk

      yeah... i don't mind fast food as well... just surprised there were so many in holland. i'm currently in the US and the junk food had led me to gain tons of weight (dear me, i need to stop EATING...)
      YEH= Yoon Eun Hye, who is almost universally acclaimed as the most popular/successful actress of her generation... She's in Goong (same production/director as PK), Coffee Prince (a total hit... in the same scale as BOF).
      OMG, is PK only your second Korean drama??? girl, you've got some catching up to do... korean dramas craze started way back in the 90s... there are SO many dramas out there for you to watch.... kk. OML wasn't the best drama ever but i still liked it. plus, i'm a suju fan so i watch anything any of the suju guys are in.
      oh, so you like MG right? i liked it too... although now, many people tend to bash it when comparing to the other versions. i like all versions although they all have their flaws... I would say Hana yori dango is the most solid of the 4 versions (well 5 if you count the dismal vietnamese one. but i'm not even going to consider it). i think the thing is that pple who have watched BOF first would not like MG, although those who watched MG first tend to like both versions. and yeah, I still remember Jerry Yan the hottie (like when he was trying all those shirts... damn, that was HOT). i watched all the dramas he's been in although honestly, he's not the best actor.
      wish upon the star... wow... that was way back in the days.. brings back memories. it's funny to compare how old kdramas hit such as winter sonata and modern ones are so different from each other.

      actually, i think all entertainers from all countries are really pretty, in their own way. japanese stars are dollish pretty. of course, korean stars are all good looking, and so are taiwanese stars. chinese stars and lakorn and thai stars are really good looking as well... i think the most european good looks are mostly from pinoy and indian stars... some of them are mind-bogglingly good looking... the quality of their dramas is another matter... it's pure cheese fest. it's total guilt indulgence.

      lol about ur comment on Joe... for me, it took me a while before i found him good looking... it wasn't love at first sight.. but now, it's irreversible love. kk. and yes, KHJ has much to learn, but the boy is learning... and I am surprised I would ever say this but he did a well darn good job as BSJ.
      the chin kiss is basically in the hospital, when eunjo was sick... the equivalent of the forest kiss in PK. and yes, PK is very very easy on the eyes.
      and another long comment from me... i think if I or you made shorter comments, our replies would be shorter also... kk
      sorry folks.

    • ok, i'll try to keep this short before getting some shut eye ;)

      about my (fast) replies: that's why I'm happy you're also an obsessive stalker like me! actually, I've decided not to respond immediately after a new ockoala posting (not be the first one anyway). I'll come off as a total loon without a life hahahah

      I also like foreign stuff alot! Right now, I'm in my power-to-the-asians-mode :P, would really like to learn Japanese and Korean... great languages!
      Heh, yeah i'm the curious type. Also don't want to stay stupido and ignorant, hence the looking up stuff :)

      :D wha, how nice Holland was like that for you. Maybe I should try to appreciate it more. I'll try to do that tomorrow while commuting by train ;) (hopefully I don't feel sleepdeprived by then)
      In France, i visited (Paris and) Euro Disney when i was a kid. With a bunch of friends, i went camping@hourtin and had daytrips to bordeaux twice a few years ago.
      Wha, that must be incredibly nice, growing up in paris and the french riviera. and after that venturing the US.. hahhaa maybe i'm romanticizing it, but it sounds like party in my ears :)
      heh, yeah i heard junk food in the US is no joke... with the double kingsize burgers. But Food is just wonderful, so unless you're getting really obese to the point it's jeopardizing your health... ENJOY =) ghehehe

      aah YEH... I did see her name fly by often. I can see why JSM's looks are compared to hers... Only JSM has a way fresher, cuter, and more approachable look (duh she's younger XP). Actually YEH is my age.

      Hahah my korean craze has focused mostly on the music scene (also watched several variety shows, but am trying to keep track of the music@allkpop mostly) Hihi, maybe after PK I'll try some old drama's. I ALSO WATCHED OML because of Siwon (before KHJ, it was all Siwon this and Siwon that for me, trying to find everything siwon/suju related... damn, i feel too old to be a fangirl, but really can't help it buahahah) OML was cute because of Siwon and the little girl i think. In overall, OML was (just) nice, but I thought Siwon's performance was quite good, dude is expressive in his acting :) Did you saw his last cf (for SK Telesys W S-100 ‘Reaction’ phone)? Hilarious!

      Hm.. MG is really outdated by now... so I get the bashing. But to me... what they have accomplished back then is still quite epic. didn't the whole taiwan drama-/idol-craze started from MG on? Hahha you are sooo knowledged haha 5 versions of Hana yori dango.. OM MY LORD! there is too much... and there is toooooooooo much!!! (like these endless streams of "comments" ;))
      in terms of acting, Jerry Yan is like KHJ - in progress (he made heaps of progress though). I only started noticing him in Hot Shot... found MG after that (yes.. i'm quite slow in discovering asian entertainment), was hooked on Jerry from that time on and watched White Tower, following Starlit(?) and Down with love faithfully like PK (although I have to admit that PK is driving me to craziness to an extend Jerry's dramas were not able to, or maybe this is just fresh and i've forgotton about my Jerry Yan mania)
      winter sonata... putting that one on my list :) the lead is KHJ Sunbae right :) heh

      'some of them are mind-bogglingly good looking… the quality of their dramas is another matter…' -> LMAO!!!

      Ow about Joe, i was refering to his acting performance. It was sooo impressive what he could convey with his facial expression only! I didn't find him attractive before seeing him do his thing onscreen! Dude's got some skills!
      But i'm always rooting for KHJ, almost like he could do no wrong (if that's not *fangirl* screaming all over the place, i don't know what is *sigh*)
      The chin kiss sounds extremely disappointing! Like... if it has to be that way... just forget about it, leave it out! The after graduation kiss in PK was not that impressive, but it's still waaaay better than touching lips that lightly!! For a fantasy...: ok, for real-interaction: why? whyyyy even do it?? (sorry, i might come off too strong now hahhaa about a silly kiss hihi)

      ok scratch the - trying to keep this short... i guess that's not in me... pffff. I'm off to bed, (I have no clue what time it is@your side of the globe, but anyway:) nitenite! PK airtime is nearing with every minute passing ;) !!! *anticipation*

    • correction in my previous posting: Winter Sonata's lead was KHJ's Sunbae (Bae Yong Joon) right :)

    • lol.. this is hilarious.. despite our efforts to shorten the comments, did you notice they actually get longer each time?? haha
      and my turn to try to keep it short... let's see how i fare by the end of the comment.. kk

      lol... i know right... there are so many comments i'm DYING to reply to but i didn't just because i felt like i might come off like a total freak, as if what i'm doing is not already enough to label me as official stalker of this blog.

      Yeah, ive been trying to learn chinese, japanese, english, spanish and korean in that order ever since i was little (as in 6 or 7)... chinese is my top priority cuz i love jin yong to death and chinese sounds so awesome even though it's hard to self-learn, , japanese because well, dramas/mangas/music, english, well, just because, and spanish cuz i love the language, and korean... well, obviously. it's been hard trying to learn all those languages though, especially now that i'm starting to get old (well, not really but you know what i mean.)
      hehe.. yes, you should try to appreciate holland more... i miss the tramways there, and the clean peaceful streets and the nice winter clothes although it's pretty freezing here as well.
      i love disney in paris... ive been to it 4 times in my life and it never gets old... but that's maybe because i'm too chicken to try anything more scary than those disney rides.. and ive been to bordeaux once.. it's beautiful.
      as for my life, paris was not terribly fun, most likely because i was a kid. it's super fun if you're at least a teenager but i've been back to paris regularly so it's not like i miss it... but i LOVE the french riviera. that was paradise. as for the US... frankly, it's overrated. it's comfortable living here, don't get me wrong, but nothing heavenly. and can you believe i gained 50 pounds in 3 years? then, i lost 30 pounds with a diet (no carb, plenty of unsaturated fats) and exercise and trying to lose more right now. i'm not obese but slightly overweight while in france, i was in the lean department... AC + food = deadly.
      and if ur YEH's age.. then ur an unni! kk. actually, jung so min is also an unni to me.
      and dang.. you also stalk allkpop? i stalk there too... i was a kpop fan since the HOT days... then, i became a TRUE kpop stalker with DBSK... and now, i can pretty much say with total confidence that i will stick to suju for life. of course, i love all other groups as well and probably know about them as much as any of their fans but my loyalty remains with suju. aside from allkpop, i also follow kpoplive, dkpopnews, popseoul and other news sites as well. then i have the suju sites such as sujudaily, soompi thread, etc... and all that is daily checking.. (or hourly checking actually). yeah, i just confirmed myself as a no life college student. sad.
      i dont' have a bias in suju. i love all of them... but yeah... siwon is literally a saint.. a dorky one but a saint nevertheless. or a greek god if you look at looks alone. kk. and yeah, ive seen his phone's CF. LOL.
      and yes, MG was one of those dramas that ANYBODY who knew anything about twdrama had to watch. it was like on every single recommended list, and on top of them.
      and yeah 5 versions.. but it's funny how each one of them can hold on its own (well, except the vietnamese one)
      i've seen all of jerry's drama as well.. he did go a long way but i'm still waiting for more... because i know he has it in him, just that it hasn't manifested yet. (i've given up on his singing though altho i love all f4/JVKV songs)
      as for bae yong joon... he's way older than i am but i'm not gonna lie, i went CRAZY for him for a while... several months in fact. it's weird for me to crush over the same guy my mom finds handsome but i couldn't resist. kk. if you want to watch his dramas, then i would suggest Hotelier which is surprisingly good once you past the first part, and Winter Sonata. i can't decide which one is better. however, i warn you that they are all from the first hallyu wave, which means that they are more old-fashioned melo rather than the two trendies you've watched so far.
      and yes, joe's charm is something that you learn to love when you see him acting... a bit like rain in full house. i never thought he was handsome (rain's fans, don't kill me) but i gradually changed my mind while watching the drama.
      and lol at your passionate talk about the kisses... i've learned to accept that most (but definitely not all) of kdramas kisses to be LAME. it's like something that i brace myself for now so that i won't be disappointed. you know, like expecting a bad grade.
      and if you haven't noticed, i'm definitely CRAZY about PK.. although i think it still stands second in terms of level of obsession... the first one would be You're beautiful. i was UNCONTROLLABLE during that time. i literally threw everything away while watching it. NOT good. i think the reason i'm more "disciplined" for PK is that i've learned my lesson from YAB.
      and short comment? yeah.. like i actually had a chance of doing it.

    • Buahaha it's SUCH a joy to read your replies. In each and every one of them, I would find a common interest/ thought. But I have to focus on arbeit now (i'm at my job).... :( I'll reply around PK airing time :)
      (I just felt like letting you know first :). btw, i've noticed you took out all enters in your last comment, which is much needed since, indeed, our comments aren't getting any shorter XD)
      OK... WORK AJA AJA... (blegh, I need my daily dosis of PK :|)

    • lol... i'm seriously feeling like a stalker right now, with no life... seeing your reply... kk
      and focus on your job!! Hwaiting!! that's important. don't worry about replying...
      during PK airtime, i'm watching it live... kk. i'm currently on MBC right now. from the lenght of our replies, this comment section is starting to look like our private chatroom/ -_-"

    • V!! you're all over this place buahahahhahaha!! guess you just set your inner PK beast free hihi ;)
      I'm still sooo excited after watching ep15.. there's still soo much giddiness in my body.. but i'm trying to safe ranting about it after ockoala's recap ^^ waahh... but what an ep that was... don't know how they can achieve it but somehow, I think ep 16 is going to be even better after seeing the preview.
      OK back to your post:
      I feel guilty about this private chatroom, but i can not NOT reply! it's addicting!
      What?? wanting to learn all these languages at such a young age? You must be a prodigy! my parents forced me to go to Chinese school when i was going to Dutch elementary school. I hated it back then because it took much more effort than Dutch school where I only had to show up and play around :S what a contrast, European mentality vs Asian mentality! i didn't learn to appreciate the beauty of (this) language until i finished chinese school and have forgotten all about it... :( i'm regretting it now, but oh well... with all the obsession about kpop, j-culture and getting in touch with taiwan stuff once in a while did tune up my knowlegde a bit ;) What's you're native? Korean? Chinese? You got me curious :)
      I learned English while watching tv when I was a kid (tv is a great educating medium!) and took a Spanish course in college. Hahhah spanish sometimes sounds a but sticky/mushy/greasy, but in overall I like it! It's very useful. French and German courses were compulsory in Highschool. I'm thankful about that right now (French of course sounds like music). languages just brightens your horizon and is just such a miraculous thing.
      Buahah you find our streets clean?! in Amsterdam?? haha But i just visited Brussels not long ago... despite it being an almost fairytale-like... it was absurdly dirty :( *yikes*! So comparing that in my mind... Holland indeed is clean i guess :)
      hahah French riviera like paradise... sounds like being on holiday 24/7?? Feel this envy creeping up again ;) in a good way =)
      hmm.. I hear that a lot.. the US being overrated... but I do think it's a place you have te experience at least once in your life. The US is all over the tv's where ever you live... hahah hence the curiosity :)
      50 pounds, that's no joke! hahahah for someone who was lean.. that is quite an add on. But it got you exercising :) (don't know whether you already did, but i guess you're even more motivated now), so there IS always a bright side in life :) concerning food, i'm as asian as one can be: love it, can't live without it, sometimes i revolve my life around it ;). Fortunately all Dutch are HUGE compared to me... heh (still doesn't mean i can eat what i want, but there is less pressure when putting on weight i guess).
      JSM also an unnie huh, I envy you (what again? yes again), hahaha, it's great to be young :) (I said i'm a young woman earlier, but actually, considering my age, i'm entitled to be called a woman (fully), hehehe, but it's just... i don't feel like a full(grown) woman yet and besides, people think i'm a teenager when judging my appearance. When I was on holiday in Hong Kong last year, some of my family there thought i was 15...fif-freaking-teen!!! for god sakes... that was a bit out of order... makes me think i look gullible... but oh well, better 15 than 35 right hahahahahah)
      Ah I loved suju so much (for Siwon, but I came to love the group as a whole). (btw.. how do you manage college??? hhahaha, your hunger for information sounds like a fulltime job to me ;) ) Siwon is a fairytale prince coming to life (not just looks, but also the gentleness, his lovely expressions towards children, wealthy background and extreme faithfulness to god (the latter being something i really can't relate to, but it amazes me how important his faith is to him).
      But after WGM... KHJ is all i can see :S it clouded all feelings i had previously... scarry heheheh. SS501 really caught my eyes because of him (which i am thankful for)... in some way he also introduced kara into my life, I love Mister and Lupin!
      I saw bits of Vanness's drama autumn concerto.. I have to say.. it hurts a little how his acting is way more effortless compared to Jerry who really wants to do good... and his singing... *sigh* same thing... he's trying so hard. It's ok (not painful to hear anymore) but that is about it... *sigh* hahah ah well.. i don't have to feel sad for him, i'm pretty sure he's cashing in tons!
      hahaha this is sooo strange, but although I love jerry the most out of f4, zai zai's voice somehow is more soothing in my ears. I had a painful crush on siwon, but kangin's voice, which is comparable to his, is more pure. hahaha, I want and pretend to love Jerry's and Siwon's voice over their groupmates... but secretly I know better. hahahaha it's like trying to trick myself about it being otherwise, how crazy is that?? heheh Thankfully, although KHJ is not the most brilliant singer (written without sarcasm ;)), he does have a voice that can make me tear up only hearing it. Plus he has an impressive musical background for someone who's member of a "boyband"... (it may sound a bit denigratory, but i don't know how else to put it). Pfff this rant about hunks makes me a hopeless fangirl again.. *sigh* what to do with myself???
      Hhahaha after sharing thoughts with you... I found out I have soooo much catching up to do (dramawise) hahah ottoke?? heheh
      Hahahah I also found Rain not so attractive... I still don't because he hasn't (had a change to) move me (yet) hahah who knows, maybe i'll come across something that makes me change my mind. His dancing was somewhat impressive though... that surprised me, he doesn't look like a good dancer..
      Oh! I just remembered why i don't like rain... i saw an interview of him about his movie (ninja something?) premiering in the US... His english was soo bad i couldn't laugh anymore... it was just too painful.. i almost felt ashamed to be an asian... :( imagine that... hahah i don't see how he could ever make up for that one XD
      Ok, one thing about ep15... the honeymoon kissing was to DIE for. like candy to my eyes... i'm such a pervert hahahaa. KHJ (and JSM) just raised the bar up for Kdrama kissing :)

      OMO OMO, my my, believe it or not, but i was honestly believing this was going to be a short one.... how can i misjudge myself this badly??? I don't know...
      it took me like an hour to reply this (but to be completely fair, i was also doing some other stuff in between ;))

    • Ok me again... i just read your summary... buahhaha it was kind of chaotic but I cracked up several times!!!! BUAHAHHAHA!!
      It was funny to find "my" exact thoughts in your writings =D hehehe

    • lol.. and you expect me to make my reply short after this... lol. forget it. like you, i cannot NOT reply.. at some point, for sure, it will start to get exhausting but i'm not there yet... i don't know about you though... you're on your phone?? i'm as slow on my phone as my mom is on a computer keyboard, aka, VERY slow.
      and yes, i feel bad for putting my life on hold for PK but i can't help it. and yes, i'm saving the ramble for ockoala's recap as well, that's why i'm all over the place here because if i can't ramble, i have to do something... kk
      No, no prodigy.... just merely someone who wants more than she can chew. like i said, i'm still bad at all those languages i listed. and honestly, i hated spanish in high school and latin as well. I love learning languages but i hate when grades are a source of pressure for learning rather than the will to learn. however, once i came to the us and did not have to take spanish, i started to self-learn it and it's much more pleasant. and yeah, to my parent, i totally have a western mentality. they always complain that im not asian enough, and sometimes i wish I was a bit more asian as well... it would make my life easier because i would make all the wise decisions. but i would have missed so much as well. actually, french is one of the languages i'm fond of because i'm attached to it but which I feel is overrated. I thought it would sound awful if it wasn't someones used to it. and to answer your question, i'm vietnamese (with a little bit of french). so basically, french is my first language while vietnamese is my mother tongue. I'm most fluent in french, then vietnamese, then english/japanese since japanese is easier to learn.
      and yes, amsterdam and the hague are so clean compared to the old streets of france.. in the US, the streets are super clean as well but it looks much more clinical (well, except for old cities like Boston) so i like the nostalgic feelings of holland more.
      personally, i feel ungrateful if i think about all the pple who wants to live to the us. if i think about pple living in deep africa, i have nothing to complain about. I'm just saying that it's not my dream place (i don't count hawaii in it.. kk).
      and yeah, my life tends to revolve around food too. i LOVE eating. that's why i couldn't control myself at first but now, i have much more discipline regarding food than dramas, unfortunately.
      trust me, you're lucky pple are mistakening you for someone younger... how i wish when i am your age that pple would do the same with me. i have a SEVERE peter pan complex. i started being scared of growing up around 13-14. i know life would be much more enjoyable if i learnt to appreciate the charms of each age, but i can't help myself but feel bad. also, while i was working out at the gym, a guy thought that 1. i was married, 2. i was at least 26... ouch. for someone with a peter pan complex like myself, it hurt. (the fact that i was still a bit overweight probably contributed to that).
      glad you love suju as well. although from my experience, you move on from your first group so it's sad that you now like ss501 more... but they deserve it because they are just as amazing. on DB, i actually ranted and raved about them and tried to introduce them for a whole page of comments. kk.
      as for college.. honestly, i don't manage very well... i don't sleep much. however, i'm a repeated offender at cramming so i always almost end up being lucky with my grades... like i said, with yab, it almost got to a level i couldn't handle but with PK, i'm doing fine so far. however, once PK ends, i'm going on a hiatus from blogging because i need it.
      and yes... siwon is like almost universally the first lure into suju. for me, ive always kept track about suju and ss501 since their debuts, which was about the same time but at that time, i was more into dbsk... honestly, i didn't get what the big deal was with them and dbsk is, let's face it, much more impressive. but as they often appeared in dbsk's shows, i started to grow to love them, not because they are the best at what they do, but because they are so endearing, adorkable, and yet passionate about it as well.
      i love kara as well. actually, i can't think about a group that i don't like... there were nine muses, girl's day, and others which started off with the wrong foot but seeing their efforts, and true talent behind the horrid debut songs, and how they improved, I changed my mind.
      And yes, vanness definitely improved a whole lot in Autumn concerto. and i'm not sure who i love most among f4. i'm the indecisive type of girl when faced with that sort of things. as i said, i don't even have a bias in suju. like before suju, i always hesitated to choose a fav group. that's because if i choose one, i can't help but notice that there's others who have their own charms as well.
      honestly, i think all suju are decent singers when they put their mind into it. i've heard all the members sing well at least once, and honestly, they surprised me with it because let's face it, singing is not their selling point. however, i think it's a toss up between yesung's it has to be you and kyuhyun hope that dreams don't sleep/7 yrs of love. i think technically, yesung is more solid, but kyuhyun's voice is really soothing and melting.
      and yes, i totally get what you mean by pretending to like siwon's or jerry's voice. as i said, i don't have fav individuals but i can identify with my love for suju. even though they can dance well, their choreography is usally super unorganized and messy. however, that's ironically the reason i love them so much because they are such goofs on stage with their sloppy dancing. it's super fun to find their mistakes and jokes on stage. of course, i'm impressed when a group dances perfectly but sometimes, you don't love perfection although you admire it.
      and about music and idols, i suggest watching ryeowook, henry of suju m, seungho of mblaq and seohyun of snsd play piano. it will boggle your mind. henry's clips are harder to find since he's more known for violin but he's a BEAST at piano. i have to say seungho is the most impressive though. my fav musician ever might be want lee hom though. kk. he's not the most talented but oh well. he's super well-rounded.
      don't worry about catching up... take your time... i was just merely worried about you missing out on something potentially good that's not recent but it's okay if you miss it as well because there are so much more better dramas. those i pointed out are considered classics, but that doesn't mean that they are quality. honestly, i think that if i haven't watched them first, i'm not sure if i would have liked them even though back then, i was obsessed.
      i wonder if you've watched full house with rain? it's his most well-known and popular drama. it's not perfect but it has reasons for being successful. it's a bit in the trendy. some drama similar to it are My Girl, or Princess hours.
      and yes, rain can dance... he has started after all as an idol. kk.
      yeah... when rain won the MTV movie awards for badass actor, i screamed because i was excited that an asian won something, not particularly because it was rain. my roommate was curious as to why i was like that since he's virtually unknown in the us. so when he did his speech for MTV in english, i literrally cringed in embarrassment because that was definitely not the impression i wanted my roommate to have.
      and yes, i agree about the honeymoon kissing. i repeated it so many times... it was AWESOME. thank you pd-nim and thank you jung so min and leader. that should be able to shut up people who say idols can't/aren't allowed to/are afraid to kiss well. but if you want kdrama kissing, there's coffee prince kiss which i think is quite passionate. prosecutor princess kiss as well. time of wolf and dog kiss is also much more passionate. but then again, a kiss does't need to be super over the top to be PERFECT.
      and unlike you. i didn't believe my comment would be short. however, i want to scream OTTOKE!! this is not going well... i promise, seriously, my next comment will be short(er).
      sorry for making u read this rant.

    • lol. sorry for the chaotic summaries... at first, i was typing down notes so that i could write properly after but then, things got too exciting and i was too caught up that i was typing it live in the end... and glad we share the same thoughts about the ep... it's always pleasant to find someone who agrees with something you said.

    • just because i've just talked kpop with you... it's quite probable you've already read this but if not, check this out... it's HILARIOUS..
      http://www.soompi.com/news/top-5-ridiculous-uses-of-english-in-kpop

      also, you don't have to reply to that looooong comment... i won't feel offended if you don't ^^

    • Here goes another hour… after my previous comment, I thought, I’ll keep it to that one today since it’s a long one… (I’m afraid this blog might crash because of the incredible length of our comments) BUT THEN you started saying stuff I wanted to reply to immediately… pfffff life is hard ;) hahahahah. Ah well… I’m staying up for ockoala’s recap anyways, and replying now will take away my worry about not forgetting what I wanted to tell you… . I’m ending up typing this in a word document, afraid that my long message might suddenly disappear online while typing it or something will crash… LOLZ hahah it’s better to do it in ms word first since it’s more spacious 
      Noooo I’m oldfashioned, I still have a dumb-phone (instead of a smartphone). But I’m getting obsessed about BSJ blue Samsung nori… how I wish they sell it here (I love the colour blue!) I’m on my laptop (as always, it’s running overtime, the pour thing!)
      I laughed seeing you’re girlypink avatar en v-nick everywhere I went in AKP. But this is a great playground isn’t it? Since I’m new at the (k)drama-scene, this is the first time I’ve encountered such passion from people all over the world over a drama. I’ve never really participated in such a “movement” before..hahah I feel almost emotional by the power of PK ;)… again WHAT’S PK DOING TO MEEEE??!?
      I. ALSO. TOOK. LATIN. LESSONS. IN. HIGHSCHOOL. What are the odds? But unlike you I did LOVE latin, maybe because I’m really good at it (back then). I do think I have a little talent for languages, I might not be the best, but I adapt well. Back in highschool, I was quite competitive, wanted the best grates (that went down the drain during college… sadly and strangely)
      I have three siblings (we’re with the four of us) and my younger brother teases me about my un-asian-ness :S hahahahha, just like you I have a western mentality. I also wished I was more asian, but unlike my older brother and sister, during highschool, I only had “white” friends… no Asians… And I think at that age, the people around you shape the you you will most likely remain the rest of your life, so that’s the reason why I’m “too” western in my family’s eyes. After highschool I was living in a dorm elsewhere… so I practiced even less Chinese to a point that it doesn’t come effortless for me to use Chinese now… ah too bad :P but I’ll live 
      Your English is as good as your Japanese????? WOW!! NICE-DESU ;) so you must know the meaning of my nick hehhee. All my friends think I’m crazy because they have no clue why I use this nick or what it means hehehehehe.
      I’m most fluent in Dutch, after that comes English. Chinese (Cantonese) is on the third place followed by mandarin maybe… the other languages are all on basic… to veeeery basic ;) level.
      buahahah not counting Hawaii huh… hahahaha. Aaaah, I also want to go to Hawaii once in my life.
      BTW, I would have NEVER guessed you’re Vietnamese, how did you “hide” that so well hahahah
      I ALSO hated aging from my 13th on….  why are we this similar??? How can it be?? Hahah scary! Or maybe it just appears so ;) Hmm I think I love the age of 19 the most. BUT I have to say, I love how I became more knowledgeable throughout the years! When I passed the age of truly understanding me for the person I am and accepting myself flaws and all (like PK ;))… that was such a revelation. When I was younger, I thought I knew it all, until I passed that stage of better understanding ghehehe, it’s a relief, puts yourself in perspective, accepting and truly loving you for the you you are (lot’s of yous ;))  hehhehe, oki, enough trying to act old and wise… ;) ghehehehe. Hmmm… your gym encounter was indeed ouch… but, I don’t know, doesn’t everybody look like an exhausted dog after gym? (or else you didn’t put enough effort in your work-out) hahhahah wasn’t it just a way to make a pass at you??
      Hmmm I’m not sure I like ss501 more. Suju hasn’t released anything to go crazy about this year (unlike last year) whereas I found out some very good new and old stuff of SS… But anyway… eventually… it’s not about SS…. It’s all about you-know-who (almost you-who-I’m-too-shy-to-name-this-often-in-a-fangirly-way…. I’m not exactly a tomboy… but I don’t like to come off too girly/mushy. I’m more a HwangBo type..)
      What’s your major? Hmm taking a leaf from blogging… are you sure you can?? Hehehehe And once PK ends… do you mean tomorrow or after the youtube thingies… if it’s the latter… hahhaha you’re going to stay in this circuit for a while hahahah ;)
      To me, it’s not only about being the best group, but the chemistry amongst the members and in what way they can move me  I missed the whole DBSK thing (I started my Korean obsession only last year) If I have to name a group I don’t like… well it’s maybe a cliché but that would be snsd… they just give me a bad feeling. I secretly like some of their stuff though… it’s kind of the same hate-relationship like I have with Britney spears… can’t stand the person, but can’t say that she only produces crap either…
      hmm maybe I’m not acknowledging SS501 as my fav group because I tend not to want to make a choice either. I tend to name a few favs because I just like diff groups for diff reasons. Haha just like you I guess. (However, within a group, I am able to point out my best love heheh)
      about their singing… in overall I was happily surprised about the high level of korea’s music industry. In terms of (live) singing and dancing.. they excel maybe even the US! So even if they are boyband boys, they do have talents and excel in one way or another. But then again.. that’s no surprise as they were trained that rigorously it’s almost freaky! Life in Asia is no picknick.. we should feel grateful to be able to grow up elsewhere (and be multi-culti)! I acknowledge the talents of yesung and kyuhyun! (but I’m just not their fangirl ;))
      actually I’ve seen some clippings of suju practicing a dance, they were sooo sync. Bad thing about performing in such a big group is that you can’t do really complex mind blowing stuff. Their choreography is entertaining, but they can’t showcase their true talent when performing with the whole group… And again I agree… I tend not to love perfection but sometimes maybe even despise it a little since it may come off as fake (I’m referring to perfection in appearance actually, perfection is not approachable to me, I think I’ve said it before somewhere here@AKP).
      I think I will be able to appreciate the classics for their charm. Hehe again it’s not all about the outer package… but rather the core, which either can or cannot touch my heart.
      haven’t watched full house… hhaha I don’t dare to venture into Rain.. hahah he just scared the shit out of me with his English (I wanted to say chinglish but he’s not Chinese hangulish maybe then?), making me want avoid him at all times heheh, maybe I’m missing out because of this!
      And I loved your rant! Hopefully you don’t mind mine. It’s almost 2 pages in ms word fontsize 11… DAYUM! HOLY COW DUNG! It’s almost doing a livechat with you buauhahahaha

    • I haven't read that article!!! that was HIlariOus! so they call it Engrish... quite suitable yes. I was wondering about the rap part in Kara's lupin... what the hell was she singing (but mostly why)? It must have felt slightly embarassing for Nicole to burp that out since her english is fluent... hahahha.
      @ allkpop, i recently read about how English has taken such a substantial position in kpop, with groups debuting with an English name and all songs would have an English title. hehe, i'm actually grateful, otherwise i wouldn't be able to track them down ;)

      Wow... i just checked... but your previous comment was OVER 2 ms word pages!! buahahah you've outdone me :D but as i said, I enjoy reading it I really had the strong urge to reply (immediately). the same sayings goes for you also, don't feel pressured to reply. I'm curious about your reaction but no offence will be taken if you decide to keep silence ^^

    • ok. Please don't blame me for replying right away.... If it helps you, I'll tell you that I won't reply to your next comment until tomorrow... our chat is getting out of hand... although this is probably unnecessary since you're probably dead asleep at this time. kk. I had the same thought that I wouldn't comment again until tomorrow but looks like I don't have that much resolution regarding this... and you're not helping me by being as enthusiastic... we're helpless.
      Hmm.. I seem to remember some kind of promise I made to make my next comment short? well, here goes the drain... I promise to TRY to make my comment as short as I can control... how's that revision? :)
      and lol... this is uncanny but I do EXACTLY the same about typing my comments onto word first... I actually don't do it for all comments because sometimes, I'm too lazy (like right now) to click my Word button. LOL. and you know about the comment crashing... well, it happened to me on AKP.. I was replying to J.J. in one of the post and my comment disappeared. so I retyped the entire thing and submitted it... only to find out that my other comment didn't disappear after all. -_-" upset would be an understatement.
      Lol... i also have a dumb-phone... frankly, i'm not even sure exactly what a smartphone is... although I really would like to upgrade my phone. I think it's a certified antique now. I'm quite resourceful with a computer but not so much with cell phones (my mom hates them. for her, a phone should be a phone, ONLY.) and OMG, i LOVE the blue nori as well... it love that color for the phone! (so pwettyy!) actually, my fav color tends to be black but like almost all things, i don't have a fav color. It depends on where it is... i like black hair, black eyes, black piano... for clothes, i tend to like to WEAR red and navy blue only. I also like to wear pink (the pretty elegant kind, not the flashy kind) sometimes but I almost never find an occasion to wear it. Like you, I'm a bit like Hwangbo. I have this facade of being tomboyish but I also have a part in me that's absolutely girly and likes pretty things. Actually, it's not a facade, it's more like an embarrassment and a kinda of fear to show a girly side since it's not what I'm usually molded for. or rather than disliking mushy things, it's more like i'm extremely uncomfortable and unfamiliar with them, that added with a bit of fear. In a way, I am as far as Hani in real life (at least outwardly)as you can find. I am more of a Haera type, minus the confidence and the bitchiness. and for my twitter, i got massive sapphire blue in honor of Suju (it's locked but you can check out the background at twitter.com/tranvananhelfcy). I don't ever use it. I only opened it to trend Kim Hee Chul recently. kk
      and yes.. ockoala is an awesome playground.. what an appropriate name! I feel embarrassed to be everywhere and replying to almost every comment... it seems like I have no social life but really, before PK arrived, I was normal (or as normal as a kpop drama fan can be). And sometimes, I wonder if the whole "movement" is making a drama better or not... Like ockoala said in the recap, I think it helps sway our hype. But I also love marathoning dramas as well.
      And I think I didn't express myself too well. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed taking latin as well. That's why I took it in the first place since it's optional at my school. And the teacher also loved me because I had good grades (sometimes, I wish they would look past that because frankly, i'm just a book worm, nothing to rave about... but then, it has its advantages as well. ^^). She convinced me to take it a third year and then, when I dropped it in the fourth year, she even wrote to my parents to convince me of otherwise. -_-" I felt bad but I thought I had enough of latin in my life and I would rather have spent the hours doing something else.
      And yes... I have this competitive side in me as well... usually I don't compete with others though.. I didn't care about the rank as much as wanting to do the best I can (and when I'm at it, I'm quite a perfectionist... which is a CURSE.). gradually, I learned that getting 100/100 (or 20/20 in france) wasn't that important as much as learning in itself. However, even now, sometimes, I can't help being concerned about grades. My brother, who is a NERD (but I love and respect him even though I also hate him. oh boy. nothing weirder than a sis/bro relationship), tells me that if you like and are passionate about what you learn, the grades automatically come after and that learning for the sakes of grades is not learning and you most likely would forget what you learned anyways. my problem is that the only real passion i have is for irrelevant stuff, like dramas and celebrities, or languages... also music classical or modern.
      and can you believe that.. my brother is younger than me. the guy is a SAINT. he does NOTHING wrong except having horrible social skills (even though he aces public speaking). You know, when i watched BSJ, it was like watching the exact replica of my brother, except for the being attracted to him part (lol that would be just weird) and the pretty clothes, and the interested in girls part. so that's why i don't criticize khj for his "blank" acting because my brother's expressions are the same.
      and me too.. in France, especially southern france, there's basically zilch asians. I was one out of 7 asians in my entire school of 2400 students. so all my friends were white, except for one chinese/cantonese best friend. but she's more white than all the whites combined... TT. she was the one that got me out of my "model student" shell.
      lol.. yes i know what your nickname means. although i'm not clear why? kk. and somehow, even though I really really want suju and other stars to be super popular internationally, sometimes, it feels good when you can only share about your interest on the net. it makes it feel more part of a family, as opposed to everybody loving, um, michael jackson (? i don't love him but that's the name that popped up when i was thinking of a (real) world star). somehow, it becomes too common to be special... i'm quite contradictory, i know.
      You know, for a while, I thought Dutch was german... and got so embarrassed for it... it took me a whole 5 minutes to figure out why my brain was messed up even though I already knew that dutch was not german. the reason is that german in vietnamese is "duc" which kinda sounds like dutch... and I got confused. that's the problem with so many languages. you're not good at any of them.
      lol.. i didn't particularly hide that i was vietnamese. i guess it's one of those asian countries you never think of... it's either chinese/korean/japanese.
      Omo.. i also love 19 the most. but it was also the saddest part when it ended, because i stopped being a "teenager." My favorite period of my life was late middle school early high school though. After that, it was just meh.
      And I'm still trying to accept who I am... aka that I can't be as perfect as my brother and meet my parents' expectations. The thing is I KNOW who I am and what I like but I'm too afraid to let my parents know that "me." Part of me seems resigned to compromise the "real me" for something less troublesome and potentially problematic.
      and yes... i also think the guy was trying to make a pass at me (although my practical knowledge of boys can pretty much be put in the negative) but it doesn't make me feel any better because the guy was way older than me (which isn't a problem, as proven by bae yong joon, when you're hot but he wasn't)... which means that he thought I must have been old to make a pass. -_-"
      Actually, I loved Suju's No Other this year. it was so fan-servicing... kk. and lol about you-know-who... reminds me of harry potter.. too bad they cannot be farther apart than that. kk
      you know, there's this game (well, more like an application) where it does an ideal world cup of 64 idols and each time, and it switches the pairing everytime and each time, I make a different choice... except that by the end, it's almost always hyun joong, kim hee chul or yesung who wins. all 4-D personalities. which is weird because they are not my "ideal-list type," nor do I find them particularly attractive (when compared to equally attractive people, aka all idols). I don't understand myself why instinctively, i make that choice. 0_O
      and then, when i choose with only one critiaria in mind (aka. face/body/personality), half way through, i always forget about the criteria and end up choosing "instinctively." makes me think i'll never get a boyfriend cuz i don't know what i want, and i reject anything i don't want... i even rejected a guy i "stalked" a bit when he made a move on me.
      my major... undecided, like everything else in my life. for me, insecurity is unattractive and I wish I can find my acceptable self soon.
      as for taking a leaf from blogging.. i already did that. I was too into japanese pop once and then stopped everything and my life went on. and just recently last year, with you're beautiful, I also got myself a needed rest and I found out that I wouldn't die if I stopped. but that's not the point, the problem is I can't stop for long before coming back... i guess that's the definition of addiction. it's quite scary. and i think i might keep blogging until the youtube thing ends... although i expect a bit more self-control between ep 16 until the premiere of the youtube thingy.
      and OMG, you NAILED it... what you said about chemistry...
      i couldn't exactly pinpoint why i liked suju even though there are groups better than them out there... thank you for telling me the answer!
      I actually like snsd (although not particularly more than any other group). I have this nature in me that the more i see something being bashed, the more I want to like it (but i have to already like it to start with). snsd is super popular but also super infamous. same for suju. they are super popular but it's also hard to argue for them because they are flawed. It's also one of the factor that makes me absolutely crazy about PK. the more people criticize it, the more firm my love for it. the lower the ratings, the more i am resolute to stick to my good opinion about it. I guess it's the rebel in me. since i can't rebel against society and my parents too much, that nature comes up here.
      and yes, i'm surprised about kr high level as well. i LOVE j-entertainment but i have to say that talent wise, they are far from korea. I still believe the US have a quite solid base in terms of talent although korea is starting to be a strong contender. for example, i liked brian joo's in my head better than jason derulo's.
      and yes, i'm extremely grateful for my multi-culture. I don't want to have that stiff asian attitude that ruins the fun in so many things but I also like that I am able to understand and appreciate that more old-fashioned side of Asia. I would have missed SO much if I wasn't asian... Pk for instance. kk.
      and yes, suju are actually quite good at dancing if you've seen their old clips. and even in their more recent clips of dance battles, they are awesome. however, because the more seniority and popularity you achieve, the more you're free to act as you wish, the more relaxed you can be, and the more things you can get away with without losing your fans's love, the more suju have been sloppy in their dances... i'm not saying they are not putting effort in their dance... but that it's a trade-off case. instead of putting a perfect performance, they choose (and can afford) to put an entertaining one.
      and i agree about perfection in appearance... usually, the perfect faces don't do much to me, even though objectively, they are gorgeous. of course, i'm still more attracted to someone who is good looking but once someone reach a certain level of attractiveness, i tend to focus more on that person's charms (whatever it entails). like in the ideal cup i was talking about. because every guy in that is attractive by regular standards, i no longer look at who is more attractive than who. it's no longer something i consider.
      and the equivalent of chinglish is konglish or engrish... engrish being more frequently used.
      and believe it or not, i actually wanted to make my comment shorter than yours. somehow, i don't think i succeeded. let's submit and see. kk. til tomorrow after PK.

    • omo... ive just seen your second comment after i submitted mine. and looking at the time, it must have meant that i spent more than an hour on the comment. I'm SO SO sorry for the long comment. like i said, you don't have to feel obliged to reply. i wonder til when we'll keep this up.. it's not like we can go on forever about it. plus, i don't have much staying power before i burn out but right now, i'm quite on top of things.. kk and wow... my comment was that long huh?

    • muwahaha... kyuhyun (btw, he's also among the finalist in my idol world cups, don't know how i forgot to mention him) of suju got casted as d'artagnan in 3 musketeers musical and apparently. last year's had a kiss scene in it... maybe i'm not a real fangirl after all because i'm laughing at all the comments crying out and praying it won't happen... it's funny, and scary at the same time... he can't stay single forever right?

    • LOL, I actually thought you would take some time to reply also (and maybe sleep in between), but lo and behold what I saw when I woke up :D hahahah I was happy about it hehe. Yes, I also wonder when this chatter will stop because, honestly this is hard to keep track forever…. I’ve never shared this amount of messages within such short period of time, either to “strangers” or to my own friends even… I mean… the last couple of comments were about 2 pages!!! My lil bro saw it and laughed sooo hard! We passed 1000 words effortlessly (whereas he was struggling so hard when he had to write a 1000words essay) but somehow, after reading your reply… there is no silence but rather ‘OH I HAVE TO SAY THIS, AND THIS AND THIS’ in my head…. Let’s just sit this one out and see when we’ll be out of things to talk about ;)
      LMAO about your “short” comment…. My friend, you have just reached three pages BUAHAHAHAH (EDIT: yours was 3+, this one of mine is also 3+) it’s like writing a freaking essay!
      I actually saw that double comment thingy hahahahah, (back at a time when I only read comments, instead of producing some of my own) that was hilarious. It must have been extremely frustrating! I’m also a perfectionist, if something went missing… I want the exact same replica…. Which makes this characteristic rather annoying then helpful or even a plus.
      Aaaah, I finally got the meaning about me being on my phone.. but no, I was on my laptop and I’m a fast type-er… but well…. As these messages reached the length of essays…. It’s not that surprising that it is taking up quite a lot of time hahahah =) But there is no stopping my fingers from jabbing the keyboard with much strength and velocity LOLZ
      I’m with your mom (hence the old-fashioned-ness), a phone should be a phone. If I want to make pictures, I’d rather do it with a camera. If I want to listen to music, I’ve got the greatest mp3 player there is (creative stone… with build in speaker… ) but BSJ’s phone has the perfect colour and looks sooo much fun!! Blue is my fav colour, if I see something in pretty blue, I would want it no matter how insignificant the object. But I tend not to buy clothing in blue… next to blue, I have many colours I like…it’s just like what you said… it depends on the where the colour is… but blue is my true love I guess ;) Pretty elegant pink? Old pink you mean? I hated girly Barbie pink at first (because I hated too obvious girly stuff) but old pink kind of grew on me…. It makes you look sweet without looking too ‘oh, I’m a girly’ ;) Hhhahha I think hwangbo is exactly that way, on the outside tough, and boyish, but inside, she does like (or even love) girly stuff… but just not inclined to show it. I’m also like that =)… again exactly like you said hhaha
      I can be gullible and little girl-ish like hani, but rationally I’m a total haera type (minus the overconfidence and bitchiness due to lack of superior looks ;), but she’s not that bitchy I think… just a bully and tease in a friendly way =)) OM MY your twitter has all the blue I like!@!! DAYUM, but it’s not sapphire blue I love the most, but the colour of the seas in your background pics… ~love~. Hahha I didn’t dare to take a twitter account… too afraid I’ll be the biggest stalker ever.. (I do have other social network accounts… but decided that I don’t want to track down what my friends are doing that way. I figured that If I really want to know.. I should just contact them the old fashioned way (instead of reading and then move on..), it’s not personal enough…). Heechul made quite an uproar didn’t he ;)
      No I understand what you meant concerning Latin… being obliged to do stuff takes away the fun…. Like your brother indicated a little. I love reading books, but hated doing that for school, because it was obligated (*rebel rebel*). Your teacher sounds pationate, that’s a nice thing isn’t it? Anyway, but to me… I like Latin as I solve it as a puzzle… just like how I solve math problems. It’s so nice since there is a tangible answer to it =) (that’s my share of BSJ there ;))
      Buahah my competitiveness is also more about getting the best out of myself rather than ranked number one. And it is completely true what your brother said… if you love it, you’ll learn better! I’ve got wonderful grades… but it’s not knowledge I can reproduce anymore.. I’ll have to dive into the stuff again=( I have a friend who was just doing so so in highschool, but after that, she took some time off and is now majoring in psychology… she’s a cum laude student right now… I bet all teachers back then would have never guessed that, but it’s just that… there is where her true passion lies. Hahha I also have a (lil) bro who is kind of nerdy… in terms of intelligence, he just gets stuff in an instant and able to apply it in real life without effort.. for me, I need to take a few steps first, but he just makes the jumps. But he’s a total slacker in terms of school and grades. But that just shows that a grade is but a grade, true intelligence lies within oneself. Hahah I love my little bro, I always say (since I’ve never found true love) that I’m my number one in this world, but he comes in second (although there is a great gap in between, but still second is good ;)). I can be quite dominant sometimes and stubborn a way only females can be… but he just has a way to put me in perspective (without him realizing hahaha which is a plus because we’re always in a battle who is the better one in whatever ;) and I never want to budge or loose, even if it’s a lost cause, talk about weird relationship ;)). LoL I think I suffer from a similar problem… I do have passion.. only not in a professional area, but totally unimportant stuff.. drama, celebrities, and music…. And language… it’s touches me when I read something which is formulated in a way it pinpoints something on the spot! I just love the imaginary or unattainable (I’m a bit abusive to myself maybe Buahahah) I guess I’m looking for greatness in strange things and search for stuff that can make my emotions spin.
      Your brother is a BSJ? Cool, I do think we need those kind of people in this world. But if he’s younger, I guess he still in a formation-phase. My lil bro was a total gamer, that was his sole purpose in live, to wake up and do some gaming, never went out and stuff until he was around 17, 18 maybe… a little late, but he developed, that’s what matters. He used to not wash often his hair or get haircuts, but now he’s totally into styling hair and have stylish clothes… he just needed to do stuff in his own pace (like BSJ also wanted). Ah, we love them anyway, flaws and all (be it lil brothers, BSJ, PK ;) keke)
      hahah yeah I figured why you’re unasian (your asian ratio school situation). And… BIG LOLZ about your whitest Chinese friend buahahhahahaha!
      my nick- Eat up!!! Because… well I love the sound of it ITADAKIMASU (like really shouting it out instead of just saying it) and I. LOVE. FOOD. (there another passion… which IS relevant ;))
      hmmm.. honestly, I want suju and others to do good, but I don’t want them to go internationally because fame on that level changes people or concepts… haa I don’t want them to be common “goods”… right now it has indeed a family feel, but also a little of underground… it’s a bit exclusive since none of my friends know them/kpop.
      buahahah, german in german is Deutch (and Duits in Dutch), so people here are REALLY confused about this Dutch word for the Netherlands… buahahhaha so adding your confusion only makes if even funnier!!
      hahha you came off really knowledge-d about the Korean and Chinese language, that’s why Vietnamese was the last guess I would make ;)
      Hahaha hmm.. maybe you have to look back later to see the charms of certain periods of life. I always tend to love the past over the present, but that makes me lose sight of what is good and great about now… that’s why I try to appreciate life in its full potential! (it’s hard and takes practice… I’m not there yet… ^^) hahah I don’t know, I just love the thought of being 19… don’t know whether I was significantly more happy at that age… hahaha but it’s a beautiful number to look at also ;) (~~*loooooney*~~)
      about your parents’ expectations… I hope you will find a way to find unbounded love exactly for who you are despite all the bugs, errors, and craziness! Try to meet your own expectations… that’s even more important I think. Parents are parents…. And asian parents… well… they’re really something else haha. But you know I’ve learned that you have to love yourself first before you can truly completely unconditionally love someone else and be truly happy in life… it’s a process without a finish line I think… it’s a matter in what stage you are. Just try to understand yourself… and patience my friend… patience… (which is soooo frustrating for a totally impatient person as myself LOLZ) but you’ll get there…. Always BELIEVE you’ll get there (this is not meant to be a pep talk, but it might fasten your progress in life if I explain it this way ;), to myself: ‘ok oldy, cut it out already!’) About the gymguy… hahaha just consider it as a nice flattering gesture, attention is a compliment however bad the execution… MAN… MEN can be soooo….. ….no words….)
      I liked Suju’s no other, but It wasn’t as mindblowing as their stuff from 2009 (it’s you made such an impact on me and sorry sorry was unlimitedly addicting, not price worthy but it never got out of my head anymore). Buahahah I actually wanted to say he-who-must-not-be-named but that would give an nasty impression, and I would never want to do that to i-know-who-but-you-also-know hahahah.
      hmm in love… appearances disappear… attraction doesn’t work rationally… maybe that’s why your outcome was quite off in the game… as it was not about their looks, probably 4D personality is best suited for you =) I never understood love fully but a friend of mine explained about physical attraction and how love can blind you from flaws the other might have, IT’S NOT JUST A SAYING, IT’S ACTUALLY TRUE. That explained to me why certain couples love each other and put up with each other heh. I’m just like you, I’d rather reject IMMEDIATELY than give the other person hope if there is no hope to give. But rejecting someone you stalked is just….Y DID YO DO THAT Buahahahhaha. Love takes courage… I have to find it somewhere still =( (said by this 26 year old fart :S). I read from one of BSJ diary entries: ‘there is a saying that if you love somebody you will have to give up at least half of yourself’. That is so true and scary at the same time!! But I’m taking live in my own flow, and I wouldn’t have it another way =)
      indecisiveness and insecurity is unattractive (even more so on men I think… a bit un-emancipated but oh well.. that’s just me sometimes) but HELLO MIND YOU, you’re still freaking young! Put effort, but let it come to you (oww I’m sorry, I’m doing it again, trying to be all wise and stuff, but I just want to ease your mind a bit, I know you’re not a wreck ;), but I just want you to know that it’s ok to stray a bit, make errors.. you’ll need them to grow as a person)
      Hahha I also tend to love the underdog, it makes it more special that you love them ;) but with females… I don’t know, maybe it’s jealousy somewhere down the line, but I tend to not being able to easily like female celebrities (except for PK’s.. that was easy to do;)) ah well. That does make it very special if I do like one (kara’s Nicole and of course our Hwang Buin, she ROCKS BIG TIME!) Hmm right now, I have to say that KPOP is all I see… I’ve stopped listening to western stuff for a while… it will come back eventually, but kpop (temporarily) blows me to pieces! I can’t find myself anymore hihi
      Imagine missing out on PK…. That would take away a significant part of me right now…PK has been such an impactful experience to me… maybe it seems exaggerated, but that is how I feel about it (now) hahaha your other explanation is exactly why I love to be multi-culti also =)
      Ah about suju’s sloppiness… that’s why I really don’t want kpop to become international… that will only makes it worse I think…
      about perfect appearances…. Yeah I agree, in the end it is about the interior, it sounds mushy but that is just exactly what it is… they don’t say it for nothing =) you will end up finding yourself looking for content on the inside rather than the exterior.
      LOL@kyunhyun not staying single forever. Hahha my idolization is different. I LOVE THEM TO PIECES and can (day)dream about meeting them and be in love (WHAT, DID I JUST SAY THAT??).. but in reality, I just want them to have the best in life, find true happiness, achieve what they want to achieve and find love worthy of theirs… if it can’t be me, I hope for the next best thing for them…BUAHAHHA KIDDING!
      Seriously I don’t know why… but I really believed THIS one should be shorter… *sigh* I’m good at fooling myself hahahahhaha
      Ahhh this is it for me for today I think =( I have to attend a dinner with friends. Really I’d rather do nothing the whole day and just keep track of PK, wait to see if you’re doing a reply on my craziness and watch the newest and (BIG BOHOO)last ep asap… but I think my friends will never forgive me for that…pssssssshhhhht… life…pffff, back to reality then! Can’t poor my social life down the drain for these intangibles… (I’ll swoon about PK later at midnight… really I still can’t believe PK is coming to an end… it gives me endless sadness SOB SOB) Gosh I also need some sleep… I woke up quite early despite having had a late night but it’s 1pm now and I’m still in my pj obsessing about PK and this blog and your comments… ~*SI~~~~ICK*~~

    • 1pm...?? I meant 14:30... gezzz... ok... getting up to live a little again~!!

    • lol... i'll take my time replying then... just so you know.. i don't want you to be distracted from the real world.. my friends in france once threatened to leave me if I didn't leave my books alone... i was obsessed with this chinese wuxia series and was reading the books everywhere for 3 days, even in class, under the desk... well, they weren't that serious and it was more to make a point than anything but it got me rethinking my priorities... so now, even with my addiction, i'm trying to balance my social life as well. and what meant to be one sentence thing turned into a paragraph. END here.
      ill reply later to your comment.

    • LOL... I just went back I read the first comment that started this whole madness of essay comments and, it was so inane... who knew it would spark something this crazy? kk
      and you're right about me needing to sleep.. yesterday night, I actually slept for the first time in a long time for 4 hours straight, i almost missed watching PK live. and then, after PK ended and I cried my eyes out, I fell asleep (and missed a class but oh well) and just woke up not too long ago. I apologize for making you wait if you did wait. I also had to post my thank you post at ep 16 recap before coming back to here and chat with you in peace. kk
      Me too... I don't think I ever shared this amount of my inner thoughts with a stranger, but who feels not so stranger after all. Perhaps it is because I don't know you that it is much easier to talk about my likes, dislikes, and life. And yes, eventually, we'll run out either of things to say, or of energy to continue writing long comments when real world interferes (which is unfortunately inevitable). However, I'll enjoy the experience as long as it last because I don't know about you but this talking to someone I don't know about nothing and anything is giving me a lot more fun than I ever expected. And I will reiterate in every comment that if you don't respond, it will never upset me because either way, this experience was extremely enjoyable and a kind of catharsis. In a way, it's almost as if I would be relieved if you didn't answer.. kk. perhaps you know what I mean. Also because I feel selfish replying to you everytime.
      Your little bro sounds likeable. kk. and yes, I always manage to ramble effortlessly and yet, it is sometimes hard for me to start an essay (but once I start, I always go over the word limit and always have to cut my essay in half. Editing is my worst nightmare... because I can't cut anything off.)
      3 pages huh? we should be in some kind of writer club... haha. i'll really make it shorter i hope this time.
      and yes, I understand about wanting to get the exact replica... I tend to get attach to things and it's hard for me to let go. However, once I manage to let go, I almost never look back and be a dramaqueen about it. well, it's not so serious for a lost comment but like i said, i'm bad at editing because I don't want to omit anything i want to say so i end up retyping all my ideas.
      I'm also a decent typer... not especially fast but decent. and I sometimes enjoy those online typing games as well. kk.
      Lol. I'm a bit less old fashioned when it comes to technology, which honestly, I can't seem to live without but because despite having my own thoughts, I always catch myself thinking and subconsciously agreeing with things that my parents hammered about since I was young... (um, shout out to inception?? kk) so in a way, even though I appear to not mind the complexity of cellphones nowadays, I sometimes catch myself thinking, oh, this cellphone must be not so good because it contains so many functions and is confusing... are like conservative values my parents imbued me with... I gradually learned to get away from them and now, I am quite an open-minded person if I may say so myself.. However, sometimes, i catch myself having unwanted prejudice, even subconsciously about things and feel ashamed for those prejudice... Or sometimes, even though I now watch kissing scenes alone with enthusiasm, I find myself being shy and embarrassed and turning my head away when in the presence of someone else. I guess it is true sometimes that you inevitably are somewhat similar to your parents despite trying to get away from it.
      and OMG... i also have a creative mp3 player! but an old one unfortunately. like i said, my mom is not exactly cooperative where technology is concerned. yes, I mean old pink... it usually looks pretty and enhances the girly side without being tacky. I also love boat collar tops. it's girly but elegant. kk.
      And yes, I can be gullible as well. Honestly, I am not exactly street smart. My parents are so protective I kinda grew in a bubble despite my rebellious instinct against that. And yes, when I mentioned haera's bitchiness, I never thought of it as something to hate.. honestly, it rarely, if ever annoyed me. I kinda just laughed it of as good comedy.
      kk. glad you liked my twitter background.. I made the collage while waiting for PK episodes.. haha. At first, I was just googling for one picture and then, my indecisiveness kicked in and I took them all and did a collage in the end... and when I typed sapphire blue sea, i got an image of a beach and that reminded me so much of the french riviera I ended up googling images of that as well. kk. and about the sea, i love it too.. despite seeing it the majority of my life, i still think it's breathtakingly beautiful. And yes, the reason I don't have blogs such as facebook, besides the inactive twitter and LJ that I opened for convenience reasons, is because i KNOW for sure that I would get addicted. And honestly, I have my fare dose of cyber addiction as it is. I once chatted on live messenger, aim, and yahoo with my school friends and i got so addicted I uninstalled all the chat programs. Like I said, when I let go, I let go for good. Cyberspace has its advantage, namely, encouraging more open expressions but like you said, I thought that it would be as meaningful and enjoyable, and less time consuming if I contacted them the old fashioned way, or just saw them face to face.The exception to this rule would be dramas and pop culture.
      and yes, Heechul made an uproar. I didn't sleep for 4 days straight trending him.. kk. It didn't help that PK was going on so that I had more excuse to stay awake. Thankfully, 2 of those days were during the weekend.
      OMG.. i also love reading books (to the point where my parents forbid me to read. even now, if I have to read a book extracurricularly, I have to do it in secret even if it is a literary one) . Your teacher sounds pationate, that’s a nice thing isn’t it? And yes, I love solving problems sometimes as well. In fact, math class is one of the classes I enjoy the most even though I am not particularly gifted for it. I guess I like its non nonsense, one answer aspect. Despite giving headaches, in a way, it is much less complex than say, relationships and philosophy. Not that I don't enjoy subtleties (i love philosophy and well, analyzing dramas) but math brings a fresh air of ambiguousness.
      and this is so uncanny how many common points we share. I am sure we have lots of differences as well but still.. and yes, my grades appear impressive but because I know better, I know they are nothing to be impressed about. It's not that I have a weak memory... but I do tend to have a stronger short-term memory (hence the cramming). My long-term memory is probably above average but even so, only a small proportion of it is occupied by academic stuff. Like my mom said, most of it is corrupted by irrelevant things. My brother, because he loves learning, has an amazing long-term memory. even though he hates things like history or english, he still remembers all the facts we learned in history years ago while I forgot all of them once my exam is done. His secret, focus on what you're learning. For me, I only focus on remembering for the test. In elementary and early middle school, I was slightly more impressive than him... by 8th grade, when he stopped focusing on video games and started to focus his passion on important things, he totally overtook me to the point where I can now try my whole life and never be able to catch up to him. He always gives 130% focus on whatever he does, and only one thing at a time. so now, he's not only a beast at piano, a track runner, a genius, but also a good son who listens to his parents (who i admit, knows what's best even though I find it hard to heed to their words until it's too late). Me, I am a mere girl who doesn't know what she wants in life and enjoys the internet. Same as your friend, I always appeared to be the more brilliant one but diligence and perseverance trumps unwise intelligence any day. And those combined with intelligence make a killer combo.
      In a way, I am like your little brother. Getting good grades had never been hard for me so I tended to rely too much on that and getting a bad habit out of being a procrastinator and being lazy. In the end, I didn't gain anything from that aside from being an incurable slacker. and eventually, there will be a time when that is not enough. Intelligence used not wisely is almost useless and even harmful in the long run.
      And yes, I totally understand about the rivalry betwen you and your brother... I also have that with my brother although it's probably more one-sided from me, also from the pressure of being the oldest one. Like I said, the guy doesn't care about petty things. I am different in that I'm quite stubborn in a way. A lot of times, when we argue, I am in the wrong. Which makes it even more irritating when all he says is true. There had been times when we had physical fights (well, more like me clawing at air cause no matter how hard I try, he doesn't get hurt... he used to be so little and now, he's much taller. sigh. he will always remain my little brother anyways.) because I just see red when I know I'm wrong but still am irritated at him being right about everything.
      And yes, I share your passion about language... I am always amazed at how words are used. It especially touch me when I encounter a phrase which expresses exactly my thoughts. A lot of sentences can mean the same thing but it's fascinating how the way they are formulated can bring out different feelings and reactions (courteous, defensive, offensive, etc.).
      Actually, I think my brother had stopped being in formation phase since long ago. He never went through teenage rebellion. Now, he is both innocent and enjoying things like a child but also mature and wise way beyond many adults I met. It's like he got the best of both world. Sometimes, he's so unbelievably perfect it makes me mad for no reason. I guess the reason he turned out that way was because he's filial and everything my parents say, he keep it to heart and applies it. I also think it helped that he didn't have the pressure of being the eldest. I always had to take the blame for both of us and shoulder all expectations that at one point, I just cracked and rebelled while he never had to go through that. Also, my family tends to make it easier and be less demanding to guys versus girls. -_-. THAT, i HATE.
      And again. your brother sounds pretty much awesome. I sometimes wish mine would worry a bit more about style. He only wears whatever clothes we give him. -_-"
      love food too... especially good food. I like mousse cake, of course, junk food, swiss/belgian/dutch chocolate, italian ice cream, my mom's cooking (kk), and the list can be endless.
      I agree, totally relevant.
      And lol. glad we have the same attitude about kpop. I enjoy its exclusivity.
      lol about the whole Dutch business.
      And don't worry about being wise... I love listening to your advice. You have after all experienced more than I have. The best solution for me is listening to my parents but like they said with resignation, their words have less impact on me than strangers' have. So it's a win situation for me if said stranger is a wise person, and sharing my korean craze to boot. kk.
      And about love.. that's why I am afraid I'll never be able to love someone because if I can't love myself, I won't believe that I can be loved and might end up becoming an insecure partner. sigh. But despite still being a teenager in many ways, I found myself understanding many things I didn't really took to heart before. The execution and application of said epiphanies is still something I cant do so well but I have hope that I eventually will. Like you said, patience.
      And yes.. I put sorry sorry on repeat for so long and still didn't get sick of it... even now, it doesn't get old.... that song is oh so addicting.
      and i'm not sure 4d is best suited for me. the thing is what i'm attracted to feels like it will give me headache going out with such a person. it's the whole thing about who you love versus who loves you. You know, like hani being with seungjo versus joongu... In love you have to hurt but i'm afraid of that. In a way, I want both seungjo, the guy i fall for, combined with the secure feeling of knowing you're loved. and 4-d personalities are fun to be with but they can also be hard to understand... it's like i want both a doormat and someone who can be honest with me and be not afraid to tell me i'm wrong at the same time. of course i can't get that. someone once said that a woman wants too much, a guy who is serious and funny, secure but adventurous, hard to get but also loving... they are both qualities but it's hard for them to go together side by side.
      And yes, i agree about love can blind you. I have never loved but I really want to be able to love someone like i love my family. No matter how much I hate them (sometimes), or how much we quarrel, in the end, I would sacrifice everything for them. I guess my ideal case scenario is meeting someone for who can feel like that for me, and for whom I can feel like that as well, minus the platonic feelings that is. That's why i love PK so so so so so much. Because it kind of shows me that this is possible, even if only in a drama.
      And about me rejecting the guy... Well, for me, I am afraid to hurt and getting in a relationship where it most likely will end guarantees hurt, especially for an insecure person like me. I was satisfied with just pining for him. When it becomes a two-way relationship, it also loses its simplicity and becomes something complex i can't understand. and i like understanding.. kk. In a way, that's why I'm contented with just celebrities. it's simple to love them without worrying about whether or not they like me back. I think i need to grow up more to gather the courage to truly love. like ghandi said, a coward is incapable of love.
      i love nicole as well.. actually, what got me into Kara was nicole... I loved her in all her star golden bell corners and that's when I started to take an interest in her group as well.
      And yes, PK is such a wonderful experience... which makes it hard for me to regret not listening to my parents. I know my brother enjoys studying as much as I enjoy k-entertainment so I know that if I had listened to my parents, I would probably be as happy as I am now, minus all the headache but at the same time, I can't imagine missing out on such wonderful stuff... It's like you haven't really experience the good things in life if you didn't know how to love kdramas, and such.. Yeah I agree, in the
      and yes, my idolization is exactly like yours. I have fantasized about meeting and falling in love with them and all that romancy stuff but in the end, i love them more like a friend... in that aspect where I want what's the best for them and what makes them happy. I am contented they make me happy so they deserve their own happiness. Them marrying wouldn't lessen my love for them. Before, when I was a teenager and found out that a star I liked was married/had a girlfriend, i was immediately disillusioned and started to drift away from said star but as I grew up, I came to like celebrities for who they are, and not because of the possibility of having a love story with them.
      And I just realized that I've just spent 90% of this comment to talk about myself. Really, I'm not a self-centered person usually... I'm sorry for this. And I was about to spazz about PK next but I am getting a headache from typing so much. If we get a next time, I'll talk almost exclusively about OUR common passion for kpop and dramas.

    • word of advice that i can't take myself.. if you want to reply without making the comment long.... whenever you have the urge to reply to something or agreeing to something i said, just nod in front of your screen and take it as if you already replied. if you do that for most of the stuff, you won't have to comment on everything i say. and trust me, there's way too much content anyways for me to notice that you didn't address so and so topic. :)

    • Ah, I’ve finally bid my farewell and made my thank yous on the last recap! I haven’t even watched subbed ep 16 yet, but I really wanted to thank ockoala properly, then write you an essay then freely hunger for PK stuff some more… prioritize prioritize ey ;) I read yours also, hahah I got mentioned, HOW NICE :D
      I don’t read that often anymore, but if you put a good book in my hands, I won’t let go until I finished, however long the story may be (and after that, I’ll probably do a re-run, so the feelings last longer ghehe) but that means I finish a book maybe in a day or two.. I feel like I won’t be able to fully enjoy it by rushing… but otherwise, my curiosity will make me flip to the end prematurely… (bad baaaaad habit!)
      Going to the dinner was really nice but also much needed, it took my mind away from PK obsessing for a while and my real friends are, in the end, of course irreplaceable. But I have to admit that during the get-together, there were moments that my thoughts will drift away and remember something PK-ish… which brought an (to my company) unexplainable smile on my face.
      About these conversations… hahah I might save this somewhere on my laptop(along with ockoala’s recaps) as a fond memory :) besides, I have to check the dramas and stuff you referred to earlier heh.
      Girl… you need some more rest!! 4 hours.. that alone will kill me, let alone your true sleeping habits. Don’t think of it as sleeping, but as beauty naps, it’s only for the better ;) But maybe now the PKmania is ought to slow down, you’ll be able to give yourself more sleep-time :)
      hahah funny… I also wanted to say how we talk about nothing, but also everything at the same time. Don’t worry about your comment being all about you… I find it (/and you) fascinating: how a girl this different from me, can be sooo similar at the same time! About the relief of me not answering, and being selfish replying every time, I get it… it’s like we don’t want to pressure each other in answering:) feeling like the – go ma wo and mi an- Hang Buin and Shillang felt towards each other (oki that’s a bit exaggerated). But just so you know, it’s almost impossible for me not to answer. It might not always be essay worthy, but it’s not in my nature to leave things hanging especially when it’s interesting :) but I do too don’t want you to feel obligated to respond!!
      Hahah not to brag or something.. but my lil bro is great!!(don’t let him read this though hahah) Like I said, he’s my second most important person in life. I don’t know when it happened but he turned into a reliable fellow to me. There is six years of difference between the two of us, I’ve been always protective up to almost motherly towards him, but when he outgrew me (dude is huge)… haha I’m still protective ofcourse, but things I can’t do, I’ll have him to do it for me or support me.
      Haha, LOL me 2, once the writhing flow starts… there is no stopping. I’m good in using too many (redundant) words (there I go again :S) Deleting things makes me feel like taking parts of me away :( that made writing my thesis a true horror, I enjoyed the writing part but, haha I was terrible@editing :S. But you’re right again, it’s just a momentarily feeling, once it’s done you won’t miss it.
      hmm… I looked, along with your extra comments, you my friend have now reached about 4 ¼ pages ;) But this one won’t be much better I guess… hahah your advice is good, but I don’t think I can manage to do it. If I agree with something, I need to confirm with a sentence…. And sentences apparently turn into paragraphs here ;) where did I hear this phrase earlier… ghehe Online typing games hahaha, I used to do that too (you know yahoo’s wordracer... it’s a bit old, nvm :))
      Oh man, I definitely experience that parents’ inception-thingy you mentioned! Like my dad forbid me to re-cook water (that’s supposed to be bad for you, but I haven’t heard it elsewhere so I really doubt its genuineness). However, I feel like a rebel when I do re-cook, looking around for not getting caught. Whenever I have comparable moments, I hear their voices in my head… Despite me knowing better and doing the opposite at times, I do feel guilty *sigh*, guess I’ll have to carry that with me the rest of my life. But concerning the phones, I do think having access to internet will be a plus. Not so I can literally devote my life to the net (god I hope I won’t do that), but due to my curiosity, it will be nice to be able to look up stuff on the spot :)!
      and concerning watching kissing scenes.. I like to watch them while I’m alone so I can enjoy it fully! I feel too conscious when I enjoy it when having company!
      Creatives are the best, my previous one was also a creative and I still love that one, it was baby blue (of course, although that is by far not my favorite amongst the blues ;)) with a white back.. so pretty! (but he’s just too old and earned some rest ;)) and boat collars are the best also LOL! Somehow they make me feel (abit naked and) sexy hahaha
      Hmm… my gullible-ness comes from within I think not from protective environment… haha because I feel like my parents used to throw me in front of sharks hahaha, I guess I have to be thankful for them now as that made me more independent and a better adapter, but it felt dramatic back then! Hihii
      Men… you’re sooo lucky to grow up next to the sea… that really sounds like paradise. Of course, we also have a sea nearby (about half an hour by train I think?) but the northsea is grey, cold, and feels dirty :(
      Buahahah you are a true addict, all those chatprograms! I use one at a time. It started here with ICQ, but everybody switched to msn messenger, it’s still messenger but social networks is taking over its purpose more and more :S… Yesterday I was “forced” to install an update for messenger… *sigh* i haven’t been online-online much lately (I’m always offline-online) but this new update is baaaaad, makes me want to avoid it even more… CHANGES ME NO LIKE (how conservative ey?)
      Heechul… WHAT DID HE DO TO YOUUUUU??!? Hahahahha ;)
      Oh I just nodded on one of your comment (hahah sorry for mentioning this, but I’m a bit proud of it :P) I think philosophy is nice also… but I also like maths (and latin) for it to have an end… that’s the answer and that’s also just it, how you get there is a different matter, but the endresult should be the same. It’s so satisfying to put all puzzle pieces together!
      Our focus is definitely the same, remember for the test, forget it after getting a good grade. It’s such a waste… you’re brother sounds incredible! I’m convinced now about the comparison with BSJ. Totally robo! Whaaa… if your brother turns out to be handsome also…he must be a dreamguy for the girls out there (minus the total neglet of his looks buahaha) LMAO @ ‘He only wears whatever clothes we give him. -_-‘
      Did I say this before? But I think if one find true passion, one will excel no matter the level of intelligence! Even the worst slackers… I’ve seen it happen, honestly!
      Hhaha me and my bro haven’t had real physical fights ever, when we were young it was just me bullying him, and when he grew taller than me, he felt it was inappropriate to hit me (as I was already a “woman” and him hitting me would really… REALLY hurt!!) but we occasionally do some playful slapping and lot’s of verbal fighting (and like you, even if I know I’m dead wrong, I tend to still defend what I’ve said, never want to budge, never want to lose, especially not to him!!).
      Hmm, I have an older sister and brother, so I’ve never carried the burden of the eldest. I have experience however the injustice of a mother who’s extremely biased in her love for the eldest (SON!). But I guess I learned that that’s ok as long as I appreciate myself enough to compromise that (that and my lil bro is loyal to me (in battles @ home) and I’m kind of my dad’s favorite.. it’s nothing compared to my mom’s actions towards the eldest, but it makes everything ok Hahah this makes life at home sounds like a fighting arena ;)). But eventually, you have to make it better for you and cannot totally depend on others for this matter.
      My all time favorite must be Japanese food(SUSHI!!! WOOT WOOT), but I have to say, watching all these Korean variety shows makes me hunger for their food.. it looks soo yummy, I LOVE kimchi! You know what I loved to eat in France? Crêpes and Chichi’s! When I bought panini’s at the beach… I always bought a chichi along. One day I wanted cut out on the chichis (too much sugar) so the lady who recognized me said: ‘pas de chichi?’.. of course I turned out to buy one anyway… hhahhaa YUMYUM!
      Well.. you have seen more of this world than I did I think (didn’t you mention you visited korea once?)… I’ve been in most of Europe, but outside that.. I think it’s only HongKong and a little bit of China for me ;), but yeah.. as I have left more years behind me now… I’ve passed stages you have yet to encounter I guess :)
      Love is one of the most difficult thing, I manage it badly also I think… like I said… it takes so much courage it scares the crap out of you! Have faith in yourself and believe that you will truly love yourself first… I’m glad you do have the hope!
      Personally, I need a guy who loves me to pieces, be attentive to me(…not all the time, but rather at unexpected moments about unexpected things, making it even better), and listens (and execute) to what I say (that’s my dominant nature) but he must be able to firmly put me in my place when I cross the line (my manager told me I need a man who can keep me under control or else I will waltz all over him) … haha again a bit like what you want. I love it when somebody is knowledgeable about things I have little to no clue of, upgrading me on the way! (maybe that’s why I’m still single… who will ever comply to these criteria?? And even if there is such guy… why the hell would he want to be with me :P… I have a certain level of confidence… but my demands are a bit…well hahah demanding?) A good friend (male) of mine once said to me that I should stop living in my fantasies swooning over celebrities over real life people… as in, stop dreaming and start dating guys who make a pass at you… it’s not that I think I have a shot with any celebrity, but it’s easier to be totally head over heels about an unattainable guy (and be aware that it will never happen) rather than engage in real relationships and be vulnerable (and/or get hurt) and not knowing where this is getting you. But I guess my problem is that I tend NOT to fall in love in general, I haven’t been really in love for years now.. expect for spazzing over Jerry, Siwon, KHJ (and their predecessors) -_-
      You know what about family… you love them to pieces but you can hate them the at same time; the great thing about that is… you’re not afraid to love them, and you’re not afraid to show true anger… that is the highest level of comfort which is hard to show a lover… Having said this… and concerning you rejecting the one you actually stalked yourself… back in highschool, and I’m still doing it a bit…, I also liked to be in love with somebody silently, not letting anybody know… I didn’t even wanted to confess to the person himself even if we would have a chance to be together for a while.. I also though beforehand that this is doomed anyways. Now I don’t mind if anybody or even him know about my crush on him, I kept my highschool friendships alive and still hang with him, but it’s just that… I don’t open up until I have no feelings for him and I’m sure that I will never have any feelings for him again… what an abusive bunch are we! Ghandi is a wise man ;)
      About our idiols.. I think I rather have them find love because they will most likely be happier! If they are happy, they’ll be able to make other people happy (quoting oh ha ni’s grandmother, buahahahah)

      Oh, I forgot to mention earlier that I also like Boa… I don’t always like her songs, but she’s just greatness on a scary and lonely level! I also like Lee Hyori’s personality.. she’s amazingly nice for such a beautyqueen (I saw an ep of family outing with bigbang’s seungri (reasoned I watched back then) and KHJ (haven’t watch WGM yet back then) and hyori was so down to earth) BTW, do you know Alikstae’s youtube channel? He’s this Korean dude living in America who remixes Kpop into danceable greatness! I don’t necessarily like his latest works, but he has a long list of remixes that surpasses the original songs… (look up: ‘Boa Eat You Up vs RIO aliks electro remix’ in youtube, this was the first remix of Aliks I found and he got me hooked (on Kpop itself now I think of it…!!))
      And woehoeeee, mine is shorter than yours ;) haha aprobably because I did take your advice into consideration… thanks for that and this and everything really!!
      (hmm but I think I talked about myself a lot too… haha guess I’m sorry too! *sigh*)

    • Ok.. let's start this. first of all.. *clap clap clap* i applaud you for making it shorter... ^^
      I've said my thank yous on the last recap as well but still haven't had my say on the episode and drama itself. It's like delaying the comment would be delaying the end of this wonderful journey... I was also obsessed with Prosecutor Princess, almost as much as with PK and yet i watched the last two episodes around 2 month after it aired... -_-" and of course i would thank you. I think despite me being everywhere in this blog, the conversations i had with you single-handedly outdid all the other conversations combined. kk. btw, did you see the special BTS MBC released for PK. it's heartwarming how hard working KHJ is. and i'm glad in the message to his fans, he said he didn't care too much about ratings. the boy has grown wise. ^^ i don't know why i call him boy when he's clearly older. probably because other older netizens call him so. oh well.
      About reading, me too me too. If you put a book in my hand, unless it's a textbook or so high level it's a headache to read one sentence, i tend to read it in one go. i can't tell you how many times i had a sleepless night finishing a book or two in the night.
      and the habit of peaking at the ending.. unfortunately, i do it too... for almost every book...and sometimes i peak in the middle as well... it's like having a survey of the book before reading it. and sometimes for movies as well. i go on wikipedia and check if it's a happy ending or not, if so and so end up together, and then move back to the movie... i'm no spoiler phobe, that's for sure.
      I know about smiling to nothing. I did that in class and since i sit in the front row, the professor looked at me oddly. the next day, i moved to the back of the class. -_-"
      kk. so you're like that too huh? copying/pasting things we like and then store it on the laptop.. i do that a LOT. i've already copied the recaps. i haven't done it for our conversation yet, just because, well, it's not done. . ^^honestly, i didn't think you would reply this time because one, my comment was longer than ever (4.5?! i outdid myself-_-") and your thank you message sounded like a farewell to AKP.
      I promised myself to stop stalking akp after pk ended but i somehow found myself STILL stalking. sigh.
      and kk. don't apologize about talking about yourself, i love learning about you, your awesome brother and your thoughts. i also find it fascinating and also quite awesome how often our thoughts coincide but not always as well... i think our feelings are mutual in that we both like to chat, and yet, because it's way too time consuming (i mean during the hour we write our comment, so many other things could have been done), we feel bad for the other person. shillang buin alright. that's actually an accurate comparison. like how hwangbo said she's sorry but she's not sure why. she didn't want to stop WGM but at the same time, she wanted to set him free. and i understand why it's impossible not to reply. i feel the same way. that's y i said i felt selfish because somehow, i knew you felt the same. because when i read what you write, i WANT to reply back to say that i agree, or i think that, or you should see this, or how i liked what you said...
      i LOVE your relationship with your brother. although for me, i'm at the point now where i'm no longer afraid to praise my brother when he's here. i feel so proud of him i want to show off to the world how awesome he is because due to his character, most of people tend to majorly underestimate him. i'm always the one with the good first impression but over time, people then drift to him because my "good points" are just surface. it can't beat genuine awesomeness. and i think my brother is my most important person as well. I feel unfilial saying this because I love my parents to death as well and they've sacrificed so much for me but because i'm much closer to my brother than i am to my parents, and because he's so flawless, i tend to be super protective of him. Like you with your brother, i'm not sure when it happened but i came to rely on him while during childhood, he was the one sticking to me and i'm ashamed of it now but i snobbed him for a while as well. he wasn't cool and in middle school, every one except my brother thought cool was important. in the end, it's just meaningless. my brother used to be secluded during childhood-early teenage years at school and now, every one wants to be his friend. perhaps it's because i'm only one year older than him but i didn't feel protective of him until late teenage years. I loved him a lot during childhood and then, as i told you, i cracked and had my teenage rebellion. i wised up now and i'm SO protective of him it's crazy even though like your brother, he's bigger, wiser, and everything better than i am, except relationship wise. he still has difficulty understanding sometimes why some people are so extreme in being evil, lying, cheating and all that.
      lol. i dont know about yahoo wordracer. for online games, beside typing, i'm terrible at action games. i tend to like games that need organization like tetris, or thinking, like minesweeper, or sudoku, or typing games, or mind games or easy simple games like bust a move. i'm definitely not a quick reaction type person.
      I totally fail at racing games for example.
      I totally understand the feeling of hearing voices. for me, it's feeling that you're being watched. Also, my mom is quite superstitious in a way and since young, she told me plenty about her beliefs. Of course, being quite the rational person, I do not believe it but even so, i can't help subconsciously thinking about what she said. For example, even though i know most likely i'm praying to no one, sometimes, i catch myself praying to my ancestors for example and wishing they would help me do this and that. i never had a cell phone with internet. to me, it's like a foreign concept. subconsciously, i still believe that not a lot of people have internet phones even though i KNOW it's not true. i wished i did have one though.
      kk. i know right. i dont think myself as pretty but whenever i wear something feminine like a boat collar (which i rarely do), somehow, i FEEL more attractive. or when i change my hairstyle from a ponytail to letting lose, i suddenly begin to wonder if boys notice me and start having all sorts of thoughts in my head. and i HATE that. that's why i make myself unattractive on purpose (or more than i already am) so that i won't have to wonder, does he like me? does he not like me? because i feel that that's not even a question i can consider anymore. I like uncomplicated when boy/girl thing concerns myself.
      unlike you, my parents were so protective. not in the sense that they didn't let me do any thing. they let me learn many things... but that for example, the first month i went to kindergarten, my parents took relay everyday to stalk me at school, exactly like baek mama just because on the first day, i got bullied because i didn't speak french since i was only at home before and was not exposed to french. I think i'm both street smart and stupid. I easily am able to suspect what people are thinking and I tend to be able to get along well easily and quickly with other people, unlike my brother, but my tendency to want to please others sometimes lead to stupid things. As you can see, who pours out her life and feelings to a complete stranger on the net without much restraint? Now though, I have learned to do what i think is right and what i like first although sometimes, my tendency resurfaces before i know it.
      And yes, I tend to not like change as well. Perhaps that's why I don't feel as excited about the US as I could be, just because i have this feeling of staying "loyal" to france. kk.
      and yes, honestly, the girl who gets my brother is super lucky in that he has so much integrity i want to strangle him sometimes, and even though he rarely shows it, inside he is 100% reliable when taking care of the people he loves. but she's also unlucky because remember the conversations between haera and sj in the bar and later with the flower. well picture that, nonstop, about physics. *headache* because i love him, i listen to him but goodness. otherwise, he either sings with the guitar for HOURS, plays piano, or go out and play soccer. like i said, he focus on one thing at a time and gives 130%. for a woman who want full attention, that's not the right guy because even if he loves you, he doesn't shower you with flatteries and always strive to make you better. the way he treats me is quite like how seungjo treats hani. it's not the type of person people fall for but in the end, it's the most sincere partner you can get. and I'm SUPER protective against any girl. just thinking about the day he gets a girlfriend makes me squirm. because he knows so little about girls, and like all academic people, beside knowing who is objectively attractive, he's not interested in them, i feel like if he falls for someone, he will fall HARD. and i don't want that someone to be someone who'll make life hard for him and abuse of his kindness. sigh. i can't help it. kk. about his attractiveness, he has all the features necessary to be handsome (high bridge perfect nose, full lips, large double-lidded eyes, eyelashes that make me envy to death, tall, athletic) but he's far, FAR from attractive. (Think of taecyeon from 2pm. Now he looks great but when he was in boston, he looked like a nerd.) i guess with a makeover, he would be quite handsome but i don't want him to have one. even now, i heard that some girls teased him by fakely clinging on to him. grr. the poor boy ran as fast as he could.. kk. still a child.
      and when i said fights... my brother never attacks me. it's always me throwing blows and him either blocking them so that i can't move an inch, or receiving them as if they're nothing... which makes me even more mad than i already am. kk. but we're super close. he's always the one who gets me out of trouble and we always stick together against any outside conflicts. I guess we're making up big time for how I was distant with him before. But still even now, i'm always the one who takes the blame for every problem where my parents are concerned. the thing is if they didn't say anything, i would have taken the blame on myself anyway but the fact that they just accuse me unfairly makes me mad. but like how your brother is loyal, he's super loyal as well. Don't we have awesome brothers? :)
      I'm my dad's fav as well, but it's SO obvious my mother favours my brother. i'm sure she loves us equally but in daily situations, it's so blatant she has a favourite.
      OMG.. i LOVE panini...i always had them at school. and just recently, i went to this korean restaurant and ate korean food that i saw on drama. the hostess was SO amused at how excited i was. haha. and i talked to her so much about dramas. it's so funny how she knows less about korean entertainment than i do. haha. and yes i've traveled a lot but not enough. i love to travel around the world.
      Your ideal guy sounds like my father... kk. He always let's my mother have her ways on small things and always puts up with her temper (boy, her temper is AWFUL) but in the end, he always gets HIS way on important stuff. It's not that he's a doormat who doesn't know how do defend himself. He's just indulging my mom. He rarely speaks up but when he does, because he's super intelligent and thoughtful, my mom can't say anything back because he's always spot on, and he gets what he wants. I think it has to do with the fact that he's way older than her so he has more patience with her.

      And me too.. I extremely attracted to guys who are good at something, anything really but he has to be good and better than I am and yes, upgrade me as well. I still have this fantasy where the guy makes me work out until i become slim.. kk. I guess a Henry Higgins sort of guy. I have too much requirements and that's why I worry that I will never fall for someone. Not only that but it's that I am NOT going out with anyone until it's serious and I know he loves me for sure even though I'm attracted to the guy. The problem is that you learn to love someone you're attracted to by going out. and I prevent myself from fully unleashing my attraction until I know it's something safe to do... which will never happen. That's why i've never been in love before. Just attracted. And even if by any chance I find a guy who has all the criteria I want, and he asks me out, I would most likely reject him as well because I would question why he would like someone like me and doubt his sincerity. I guess most of the problems come from my own insecurity. And yes like you my demands are very very high. With my brother being good at everything, it's hard to impress me. And like I said, I like guys I can respect and be impressed with. But it's not to say that I want the guy to be like my brother. It's that I want him to have the skills and integrity like my brother + the cool factor + understanding girls + attentive + fun + adventurous + many other things... where in the world will i find someone like that??? In the end, I think I need to learn to choose which of those criteria REALLY matter. I also have a list of turn-offs but I need to sort out which ones are absolute no nos and which I might learn to accept. In the end, what I really want in a guy is for him to know me, ALL the darkest parts of me, and still accept me and loves me unconditionally. The problem is that I will never let anyone know my darkest parts (even my brother and bffs have no idea for some stuff) unless I know the guy will love me. it's a vicious cycle.
      For me, it's easier to fall for celebrities because I only focus on their good points and forgive their bad points because they won't affect me anyways. In real life, the good points are a must AND I focus on the all the bad points. With celebrities, I have no problem loving them to the fullest but in real life, I can control whether or not I will fall. I have yet to meet a guy where despite telling myself not to fall for him, I can't help it.
      and I agree with you about idols. after all, they are entertainers, not our personal boyfriends. And as much as I use the word "love" liberally, i don't think it's really love. Maybe a fondness, with attraction. I mean, you can't "love" dozens of guy at the same tell and call that love. unless you're on The Bachelor show.
      And omg, i like BoA as well. I don't like all of her songs (but many of them are really catchy) but she's really amazing. I knew her since she debuted and was sad when she kinda went on hiatus in the US. Her live performances always blow me away. And I also love hyori... she's so GORGEOUS on shows but then, she's also super down to earth and not coquette at all. She isn't afraid to compromise her appearance or keep her image. I have watched many of the family outing shows... it's hilarious and she's awesome in it. And yes, I have seen the episode you're talking about. kk. It's funny how KHJ says she's his ideal type and yet was so natural with her.
      And yes, i know Alikstae's youtube channel. love it. and i got introduced to him because of boa's song as well. ^^ because i love music, i have a collection of youtube users i follow because they are so talented in doing covers. also, do you know mmixes? they mix up kpop songs together and some of the remixes are not bad at all.
      And thank you for everything as well. As always, if you feel burdensome, don't reply... I will be fine. And my comment is long so I'm going back to cut some parts off. I couldn't do nodding part... -_-" And i've realized I've talked about myself and my brother a lot but I would love to hear you talk about YOU in your comment. I feel bad enough as it is... kk. :)

    • Whaaaaa... it's 3.49am here, but when i saw you're reply.... I HAD TO READ IT..... and while reading... man i can't stop laughing and nodding and laugh some more!!! I sooo want to reply but if i do now... i'll be total zombie at my parttime job tomorrow... so i guess owe you a reply!!! *sigh* unfortunatly tomorrow i have another social gathering with real life friends :( that'll mean i will devote my sunday on another essay to you :) my online chingu (that rhymes ghehehehe)

      enjoy your weekend!!

    • wah.... almost 4 am... go to sleep unni!! thank you for reading my reply even that late. kk. hope it was worth it. and I repeat, you do NOT OWE me ANTHING... just the fact that you read it and laughed and agreed is already very satisfying to me.. Have a great week end too. As much as I want to, I won't be waiting for your reply like a hawk so take your time... I don't want to pressure you!
      I hope you have a blast with your friends! ^^

    • Reading your reply is like having very sweet candy, totally worth to read at 4 am! Ah, v you’re so humble (your comments about me not owing you stuff and all you need to know is that I read it and enjoyed it), how asian of you (see, you do have some asian-ness in you after all, puh to the not-asian-enough-stuff ;))
      These chatters between us starts to become REAL essays for me now, not only am I doing the draft in word…. I also need to make notes every now and then when reading your comments or when during real life a reply comes up in my mind… hahhaha but I’m still loving this too much!
      my farewell did sound like a permanent farewell to all PK related stuff didn’t it? I was a bit “worried” before posting that you’ll take it as a goodbye for this chatter too ;) ah well, doesn’t matter now. But I was actually trying to bid my farewell to PK the drama only… to have closure… but I guess it’s not working as I still crave all related stuff.. and every now and then, I’ll daydream about PK in real life. I’m so grateful they’re doing the youtube thingy. Until then, I guess I’ll just have to do a couple of reruns of the series (actually the last couple of episodes… it feels like I rushed while watching it, so I’m going to have a good sit in order to fully appreciate the eps!)
      Like you I’ve also been dreading goodbye and procrastinate instead (hence not watching subbed ep 16 immediately…) I just don’t want PK along with my feelings for PK to die on my so soon!! I feel like I really need to savour these feelings a little longer…
      Ah, the BTS were great! He indeed worked so hard but had so much fun as I did spot his real (goofy) laughter! He was doing many random stuff in between shootings! I saw him doing weird high kicks (while swinging a 360) and trying to scare JSM when wearing this weird blanket thingy(or something like that).
      His message was indeed heartfelt. He showed maturity in it. I LOL-ed at his ‘erm… countless rumours, news of disapproval… turn a deaf ear’ hehe, that being the opposite from his ‘open ear’ to HB keke. And the ‘I’ll defend everyone in year 2011 will return handsomely’ … WOW, how that evokes happiness to his fans, like returning their love for him! About his performance in PK, I only saw KHJ in BSJ when he’s displaying insecurity or when he spaces out a little… BSJ usually is so focused. Or that time when he was worried about HaNi when she had a hangover… so cute how he changed his usual severe expressions. He’s still not to be compared to Joe Cheng… but his BSJ is really good and refreshing in his own way! I really adjusted my judgment of his performance after rethinking! (as I mentioned in the other posting (recap 16)… GOSH the conversations are really crossing each other now hahhaha). KHJ in real life is so different, so sweet, quirky, shy and often embarrassed. He has these sweet, silly, funny movements; you can really recognize him through his twitches. He is such a little boy compared to this mature BSJ character. I think you call him a boy also because most of the time he is such a little boy at heart. Though he does show an unexpected level of wisdom every now and then. Also his dominant behavior in SS501 as a leader is to swoon hours for ;) BTW in WGM, I really liked the moments he shows how he understands his Buin without having to share words, like when his prediction was totally spot on about how Buin would say ‘I love you’ in order to stay as a couple. He was the kid groom and in many things he was childlike, but that makes his mature attentiveness only nicer! (aah sorry for ranting about him this often, but he’s just greatness! I really feel like saluting him XD)
      you look for the end of movies too?? Hahaha that’s too much hehe, I only do that with books.. most of the time because I have suspicions plotwise and want to confirm (I like to be right all the time :)) I don’t have spoiler phobe either, when somebody tell me about the plot of a good movie he/she saw, I usually ask about the ending also, can’t stand not to know! But my reading habits were so bad, when I had final exam for English (last year of highschool… so the grade really REALLY counted for something!) I read, I don’t remember which one, Harry Potter until 6am…. While the exam was at twelve o’clock.. -_- how bad is that… I mean, who does that?? luckily you can’t really study for English… (which probably was the reason why I could read the book instead of cramming for an exam)
      You sit on the front row? Hahaha, then there, I just saw a certain level of dedication. If you’re not interested, you wouldn’t be sitting in the front right? I rarely sat in the front.. mostly because a lot of classes were REALLY boring (like only telling exactly what was written in the book) and I can snooze without getting caught -_-
      v, you’re such a busy bee!! How can you keep track of everything? I don’t know whether I’ve mentioned this before, but your hunger for k-entertainment (and other asian-entertainment) sounds like a fulltime job. Hahha I bet you’re handling it quite professionally (as can be seen from the way you’re able to respond to everyone, everything, and everywhere! I have to salute you!! (¤^o^¤)/) following only PK takes up my whole day… haha I haven’t been to allkpop the last couple of days.
      Hm about my brother, it’s not that I’m afraid to let him know I’m proud of him, I’m sure he does know, but saying it out loud in his presence might make him cocky about that towards me. I tend not to let myself be the “underdog” between me and him (or anybody actually)… does that makes sence? But that’s how we behave in this household, never let the other know about his/her superiority or else he/she will waltz right over you. Like I said, sometimes it feels like a constant battle hahah, only not in a bad way ^^
      Aaaaah, the story about your brother sounds a tat sad, it’s so heartfelt, thank you for sharing that! It’s lovely how fondly you speak of him. Hmm, I have to say with my brother, although I’ve always been motherly, I didn’t ALWAYS wanted to play with him either. (when I was a small kid to my teen years.) We did do A LOT of stuff together but there are these small memories in which I let him down (or I noticed some sadness in his face) because I wanted to do my own stuff or with my own friends instead of with him. I guess I feel really guilty about it.. that’s why these memories stick. I remember when we were little (he was about 3 years old, I was 9 I think?)I went on a holiday with a friend and her parents. When I stepped into their car, my little brother was crying in my mother’s arms as he didn’t wanted me to leave! So cute! My sister told me that she was jealous back then when he always said he wanted to play with me so much (rather than with her). Aish, it still hurts when remembering it… although I shouldn’t be because in the end we did play together almost all the time… Also when I went to college, I lived elsewhere and would only go to my parents’ place during the weekend. But my first year of college was also his first your of middle school. I so wanted to experience that with him, guiding, helping, teaching him the best way I can. Of course he turned out fine without my help and that didn’t change our relationship badly… it’s just a feeling of regret and missing out I guess. When we were both kids, I used to teach him a lot of advanced stuff for his age (math mostly, but I also teached him different songs I learned at school and he’ll sing along whether he really felt like it or not heh). I really enjoyed that as he was such a good student! I was so proud of him being so much smarter than his peers. But back to your brother, it’s sad to hear that he was secluded when he was younger, good to hear that he’s quite popular now ;) and he sounds cutely gullible as he doesn’t understand the bad and sad things about human. Thankfully he has you to protect him from the world’s evils.
      Wordracer is not really racing, but it’s to find words in a pile of given letters attached to each other. I’m really bad at racing games :S don’t have the coordination. OMG I laughed sooo hard (@4am!!) when you mentioned tetris, minesweeper, Sudoku…. I’ve had bad moments of addiction of these games (mostly I play it as procrastination, but also because these are “mindless” games… I can do that and think about/do other stuff in between (except for Sudoku maybe, cause time is an important factor, i like to finish as fast as i can). I’m quite the multitasker concerning that. I hate doing one stuff at a time cause I’ll get bored and feel like i should be doing more stuff. Like when watching tv, I watch several programs at a time switching between channels AND I have to have something in my hand to fiddle with (or whatever).
      I never had internet on my cells either… but now with all the blackberry’s and iphones flying around… can’t say that internet isn’t a benefit on a cell.
      Hmmm.. when I really dress up and do all the make-up poeha, I do feel pretty (yesterday, before all the liquor and stuff I felt reaaally pretty) and confident. But doing all that really is mostly for myself not so much for other people. Hhhaah v, don’t be so abusive, appearing pretty probably will make you feel better about yourself too. Don’t be afraid to be praised/liked/loved. You don’t HAVE to reciprocate but it’s always a nice compliment for yourself right?
      Aaah, your parents are so funny, hahah I imaged them being like baek mom! And that must have made quite an impact the first day at school :(
      I think I do quite an ok job in reading people too. I tend to observe them and make a judgment about what type of person he or she is and whether what they are saying is really true to the person him-/herself. And yes, I’m also a people pleaser… always ready to compromise.. actually most of the time, I don’t mind, don’t have a strong opinion about something; I’ll be happy to accommodate. Hahaha yes I also feel that I’ve left my restraints behind in our talking… although I have to say we’re not telling each other mind blowing secretive stuff ;) but I have been wondering whether there are other people (crazy enough) to read these comments of ours… but, even if there are people doing that, chances are small that they’ll throw in a comment since this is getting so personal for just the two of us :) sharing my life story on a blog.. I never thought I would do that. But all my friends (real life) I’ve told about you think it is pretty awesome to find someone to share a life story with the way we did. When this comes to an end, I’ll really miss you as a conversational partner but will keep this as one of my special stories in life :) (you just entered my lifestory ;))
      I totally understand why you weren’t excited about the US while leaving France behind. You just left your life and childhood there. I think leaving a childhood house already is dramatic, imagine the country itself! Do you think you will ever go back to live there again?
      Your brother really sounds like a BSJ, taking care for the people he loves! That’s what I loved about BSJ! And LMAO@ his conversation topics and obsessions. And I think he’s totally fall-in-love worthy… a man who can sing and play guitar and piano (and good at sports?), it doesn’t get more attractive than that ;) Besides in the end, it might be even more interesting when the guy is a bit aloof (I’m convinced now that that can be a good trade too due to PK XD hihi) About him falling hard… letting him fall is also away to love him.. I mean, people really need to feel how it is when it’s bad and then strive to have the better in the future. Some things can only be learned after you make mistakes. (pff I shouldn’t be the one saying this considering my own history XP) hahaha you’re brother sounds adorable ghehehe getting scared by girls hihihi. And yes, we have the world’s best brothers :)
      I’m feeling bad for you for getting falsely accused.. ( I.HATE.INJUSTICE.) I’m sure it’s nothing serious but, once in a while, do try to protect yourself though.
      I’m planning to go to a Korean restaurant soon, because honestly, all these Korean foods are making me mad for it!
      Ah I also really want to see the world and have cravings about traveling. But I’m not proactive about it… if it doesn’t come into my path, it’s not likely that I’ll really pursue it myself.. but the future still lies ahead, so who knows!~!
      haha, my father is also SUPER patient with my mother (who I would never choose to live with if I had the choice, woman is madness!!) and their age difference is 10(!!) years.
      buahahah dreaming about a guy who makes you work out, that confirms you are a bit abusive to yourself. hahaha, but yes in the end we really want somebody who will get the best out of ourselves. That’s why we love BSJ-OHN couple that much I guess!
      You know what you can do the next time somebody, you also like, asks you out? Just go out with a light heart and indulge a little without making it serious for yourself. It’s never a bad thing to have some fun with nice company right (just make sure your message to that guy is right and clear). I like to meet new people and hang with different kind of people doing different kind of stuff, it broadens your knowledge and horizon. My friends are nothing alike! And I like that! (some even totally don’t get along with each other!!)
      hahaha I totally get why most guys are not interesting compared to your brother. But actually love is also a chemical thing… so maybe in the end… all these demands of ours, we can flush them through the toilet and fall completely for a guy who’s nothing like our lists! Hmm about your darkest parts… in general there are stuff I enjoy being the only one to know (it’s quite a lot of stuff actually). I need that kind of exclusivity.. however apologetic towards my friends. but i choose to be open about stuff i'm open about and closed about stuff i don't want to be open about ;)
      BUAHAHAHA @ ur The Bachelor Show kekek. Ah I’m actually glad you finally caved with KHJ… I feel less apologetic and crazy when spazzing about him to you ;) it was so funny to see the reactions of others about your announcement^^ Love has many gradations, I like to use the word love… I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ (ok crazy, cut it out already!)
      Ah yes, the US isn’t doing any good to our K-tainers… they should really stop sending them there… they’re so lost! It's such a waste of time while they could be doing some more greatness in Korea instead! The only good thing about Boa meets the US is creation of ‘Eat you up’ and ‘Energetic’… those songs and accompanying performances blew me away! But about Boa, it so sad that she looks sooo worn out, compared to Lee Hyori, you’ll never say that Hyori is the older one (and the difference is what? 7/8 years?!?) For her career… somewhere on the line she lost her youth and freshness.
      I loved how Hyori was poking KHJ in family outing with ‘why didn’t you make a pass on me’ and ‘let’s re-act the kiss scene I did with TOP’ and KHJ was be like *shocked*What????!? He’s so innocent at times. I saw on a show (don’t remember the name.. something like YYMS or something?), Brian was talking about how he sold his sperm when he was young to “earn” money, telling it cryptic-ly… KHJ was like: What are you selling I don’t understand (as the only one who didn’t understand)? Brian than lets him read if from a card… KHJ giggles shyly and said: why on earth you sell such thing! Sooo adorable… oh crap… am I talking about him AGAIN??
      hahah of course you know Alikstae! He’s kind of epic (and looks so cool, hahah, the girls were all giddy when he posted a vlog). Mmixes are awesome if executed well!

      from the bottom of my heart, I loved reading about you and your brother, you both are awesome!
      Me: I loved writing back! You: No pressure! I’ll end this with more of the usual: Go ma wo & Mi an ne, chingu!

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      Kk.. what you said about reading is like having very sweet candy applies to me as well. kk. I don't know if it's because you started your post with such a compliment but like I said, the smile it gave me stuck throughout the reading and still lingered after... i blame you for any wrinkles i might get. :) kk. It's funny how compliments always work to some degree at cheering you up even though i also hate receiving them most of the times. I also usually hate flattery, although I've been guilty to have used it before and even still now on some occasions (never on the net though). Even if it's not flattery but a genuine compliment, it makes me really uneasy because I find myself actually being happy about it and then hate myself for believing that the compliment might be true (albeit sincere). The thing is that it's not that I am always insecure, sometimes, I get caught thinking highly about me. You know, I am quite confused with myself. I feel like i'm both insecure and arrogant at the same time and I don't know if it's that I'm arrogant and subconsciously acting like i'm insecure, or insecure and trying to boost myself up by having arrogant thoughts. It's like at times, I catch myself having condescending thoughts and then I have to tell myself "who are you to have such thoughts when you're even worse?" Or I think, "oh, you're really not bad at this at all" and then realize that it's really nothing. Or because I have good grades and can do some things decently, I think somewhere inside me, I kinda believe that I am somewhat intelligent but then I think again, and I realize i'm not at all...and then I think, "well, you're not stupid..." and then, realize that I AM stupid, or should I say really unwise and immature. but then, i think i'm not THAT immature either.. -_-" yeah, I spend most of my daydreams thinking those thoughts and giving myself one heck of a headache and end up with no concrete conclusion. and OMG, i just wrote a whole rant based on one sentence you wrote... :( this is not good if I do that for every comment you make.. kk
      ok, starting from now on, I'll be brief(er). *nodding strategy mode on* :) And about the humble thing, well, like above, sometimes I believe I am humble, sometimes that I'm just realistic. I hate when non-asian say that I'm being falsely-modest when I truly believe i suck, but then sometimes, I realize that deep inside me, I do somewhat believe what they said as well. *gah. hits head on desk* And yes, I believe I am too asian to be completely western, but too westernized to be asian as well. so in the end, my parents are not satisfied and society don't always see eye to eye with me but at the end of the day, i won't change that part of me for anything. I think it allows me to have a broader perspective that allows me to enjoy many more things.
      kk. haha. i also find myself thinking from time to time "oh, i just got reminded of this.. i should tell itadakimasu about it later on." :)
      And yes, I still find myself thinking about PK and doing reruns as well, and enjoying them although I wonder until when it will last. you know, sometimes, if you drag something good for too long, it loses it's charm.. hmm. ok, that doesn't make much sense because I don't want to let go of a good thing but somehow, i feel like there's some truth in it...
      lol. yeah, if you watch fancams, you'll often see leader either do a spin-kick (btw, did you see athena's trailer with siwonnie?kk), dance, or goof around.
      Yes, the moments when he spaced out a bit or was worried was when I saw KHJ. as an actor, Joe cheng is much more solid than KHJ but as the role of Naoki, I don't think I can favor Zhi shu or BSJ. I loved both and can't decide whom I love more. Zhi shu has more of the quiet brooding mysterious bad boy charm but BSJ compensates it by being more sweet and more approachable. It's a toss up. And yes, KHJ has those twitches that are so cute, especially that blinking twitching thing he does with his eyes when he's uncomfortable. And yes, I so agree with you. that he is still a boy at heart (most idols are for some reason, even the "old" ones) with unexpected level of wisdom thrown in. and yes, I LOVE how he's attitude changes when the ss501 members are with him. it's especially highlighted during WGM because you can contrast it with how he is with hwangbo. with ss501 members, he becomes much more confident and resolute. *swoon* :)
      and yes, I love how well he understands buin even though he has trouble expressing himself to her in person. Like buin said, he is very detailed and notices every little thing even though he doesn't show it.. and i totally LOLed when he said that if buin said "i'm sorry" he would walk out of the studio.. it ALMOST made me want for that to happen just to see how upset he is that WGM ended. kk. And don't be sorry about ranting about him... I'm actually glad you directed our conversation to something more relevant like PK and KHJ... kk and I can talk and talk and talk about PK and WGM, and KHJ all day so fire it away, I'll respond as enthusiastically.
      haha.. me too! i like to be right about my predictions.. kk. i can't tell you how many times I feel satisfied thinking, "i totally saw that coming..:)" especially when it's not something obvious. those are the moments when i felt "intelligent" which i mentioned previously. silly me.
      lol. you're talking to the queen of procrastination right here... hi sis! if i told you all the crazy stories... which, you know what, i will do... you might either enjoy them or think i'm crazy. haha.
      It started way in middle school but it became really a bad habit in the last year of high school. story 1: we had an english project that lasted 3 months and counted for 25% of our semester grade. EVERYDAY except for exam essay writing days, we would go to the library to do research for our paper and the teacher would give us a small homework grade when we presented her with what she requested (aka. 3 articles we're going to use for quoting, a detailed plan of the paper, an intro and a conclusion...) and me, all i did during that time was just chill and do NOTHING, just flipping through those critical essays book without seriously choosing one... and i kept presenting random stuff and making up things and writing irrelevant paragraphs which i didn't intend to use in the end since in our final project, we had the right to modify and change our minds.. at the back of my mind I had this fuzzy clump of ideas that were so disorganized and just left it to stew. a bit like how i write replies to you.. sometimes, an idea about my paper would pop up and I would be like, hm, ill include taht somewhere. after 3 months, the day before the essay started to be submitted, that was when i ran to the library after school and zoomed through all the articles to choose 3, then went home, did my homework, and then started writing my paper without plans or nothing straight from the beginning till the end. and then only after that did i create my plan and "first drafts" to be submitted with the paper according to what i just wrote. which was the reverse process of what I had to do... I finished it at around 5am.. I find that I work most effectively (but not efficiently) when being rushed... this is another time when i think, wow, i got away with it and felt a bit good about myself before thinking that i'm really stupid if I think about it. that I could have used the 3 months to do something and then not have to get an all-nighter in the end and that i had just wasted countless hours of my life during those 3 months. also, when we have to write essays on books, i write them first before readin all the book, of if any of the book and THEN, after i submit my essay will i start reading the book. i don't know why i am like that but i don't feel like reading a book because i have to. -_-" another time when i'm stupid is the in the US, there's those test you take to go into college called AP on different subjects and are comprehensive of the whole year's material. the teachers would urge you to prepare at least a month in advance but since most of the time, they struggle to teach us all the material in class by the date of the exam, we have to review on our own. and i kept thinking, i'll do that tomorrow, i'll do that tomorrow, now i'll just read/watch dramas/play piano/swim/whatever and before i knew it, the day of the exam came right up my nose. again, i spent the night before the history exam rereading the whole history book of more than 1000 pages... i ended up at page 700 so before i decided i should just sleep for an hour before the exam. then for the math exam, i did the same, all i did to review because i was out of time was to read the few formula pages the prof gave us and that was it. then, we have the SATs which are another kind of college exams and i had biology and math for the same day...since i didn't take biology for about 3 years, i decided i should read the study guide for biology first and read it the whole night. i had 2 hours left and decided to sleep instead. i ended up having less than 15 minutes to study another formula sheet for math just in front of the classroom. YES, I AM CRAZY and hate myself for such lack of self-control. My first year of college was the same, except You're Beautiful aired and that drained me...I have now learned to imitate my brothers' system of dealing with school work. I still am an uncurable procrastinator but much better than before. He was always the one reviewed a month in advance, never had to do any all-nighter, who finished his homework even before he got home, and then studied extra things at home so that once, he did summer research and a post-graduate student thought he was a graduate student. See what i mean about never being to catch up to him? while all my head is filled with things like entertainment, his is filled with knowledge of more impressive and useful things.
      And yes, the front row thing is the advice my brother gave me. he never sits in the front row because he likes to do his homework in class but in my case, since I don't do that, he told me that the best way for me to concentrate in class so that i won't have to end up self-learning afterwards at home is to sit in the front row where i can't do anything else. otherwise, i just end up in lalaland.
      lol.. now i bet you won't ever say that i'm handling things professionally... i'm the most unprofessional crammer and procrastinator you can find (ok, maybe not, i've seen worse). I think that the problem is that MOST of the times, i get away with it... that's why i can't seem to learn my lesson irreversibly. but when i don't get away with it, it kicks my butt and that hurts.
      and yes, i'm still diligently following allkpop. the thing i found is that it's such a pain to catch up if you miss only one day that i'm following it daily. but when i think about it, i won't die if i stop right now. I'm sure i won't even look back but at the same time, i don't want to miss things that are awesome either.
      lol. for me, my brother is too mature to waltz right over me. plus before, he kinda worshipped me before. now, he got a bit more disillusioned and is kinda taking parent's role in teaching me and putting me into place.. haha. he's still a kid in a lot of things though.
      OMO... you're story about the car accident is SO touching and it's really freaky but I had a similar story.. like i told you, my mother has one hell of a temper and is really impulsive.. (and i think i got that from her as well. it's like my brother got the best of my father's and mother's characteristics and i took the worst of them.). she's also super generous and kind and self-sacrificial, just so you know. so when i was really little, i angered her at something when we were at the gaz station and she took off leaving me there. and my brother was in the car with her and cried so badly for her to go back and get me. honestly, it was like when i was 4 or so (and my bro 3) so I don't remember any of it, it's just my father who told me this story. But i do remember the image of the car getting away and seeing my brother cry. it's when i remember those moments that i feel that we truly are close. I really loved him back then and then it stopped. like you, it still hurts thinking about all the time I made my brother sad because of how immature i was and felt like i was missing out so much during those years so now, i'm overcompensating it... I really envy how mature you acted with your brother... and i also taught him songs as well!! kk. my brother only knew about classical music so i started teaching him pop songs. that's when he started to self learn guitar and we would frequently sing together and he would accompany with the guitar or piano (kk, he makes his own arrangements. like you with your brother, Im SO proud! :) but at the same time, i can't help but feel regret at what I could have done if i was more diligent since we had the same exact education). now, he knows more than me at both classical music and american pop culture. like i said, he always focus at one thing at a time and that allows him to learn about it really deeply. for me, i get distracted by too many things and ends up being good at nothing.
      and LOL... i also play those games for procrastination excuses... they are part of the blame for delaying me. and yes, you nailed it by calling them "mindless games". and haha about sudoku timing.. my competitiveness really gets up during those times.. especially for minesweeper, i alwasy try to break the record i did just before... and then, i looked at the number of games i did (more than a 3000), and caculated how much time that meant of me wasting my life away. I ended up reseting the whole score system so that i wouldn't touch it anymore. I'm good at cutting things off, but terrible at doing it at the right moment. i'm always doing it too late.
      and lol.. seems like you're exactly like me, multitasking...like i told you, i'm always the distracted kind. even when i watch dramas, i pop up a game here, surf the web, do a bit of my homework there... and then, end up rewinding a bit because i missed some stuff... or even have to rewatch the whole thing sometimes because i want to appreciate it to the fullest. and SAME for the TV channel thing.. when i used to watch tv, i switch channels so much it got my parents (who weren't even watching) complaining about getting a headache.
      kk, i found another difference. I always say that I hate make-up (which i really do, it feels uncomfortable) but some part of me also enjoy having make-up. when i was in choir, for the show, my friends would litterally plead me to get some make-up on before i would consent but deep inside, somehow, i secretly WANTED to have make-up. and then out of anger for even feeling pretty, even though i was DYING to see my reflection on the mirror, i forced myself to not look and then, when the show ended, i immediately wiped the whole thing off even though i feel some regrets doing that. Sometimes, i have no idea how my brain works.
      But yes, I think you are right and that i should learn to cherish and appreciate whatever good thing I possess. it's not like i'm ALL bad is it? (starts doubting again. grr...)
      and lol. i'm a people pleaser as well. I use to not being able to say no to anything, and I HATE saying no and seeing people disappointed. plus, i dislike conflict so I tend to avoid it whenever i can. Even now, I almost never say no because most of the time, even though i have a preference, it's not so important and i'm indifferent if somethings else happens instead. but now, i've learned that if something makes me feel uncomfortable, i should be able to say no. It's like i'm two extremes. I usually not straighforward in my way of speaking (although that doesn't reflect on cyberspace for some reason) but when I am straighforward, I'm surprisingly really blunt and not afraid to give a piece of my mind (without being rude. rudeness utterly irks me as well).
      and yes, we're not telling each other mind blowing stuff even though they are quite detailed and personal. In a way, writing essays to you is a way for me to learn and understand more about myself. And reading yours makes me feel both understood whenever we agree and adds to my thoughts when you give an additional insight I haven't really delved into. lol. it would REALLY surprise me if someone was reading our post, even more so than when haera popped up during the omiai. kk. you've also talked about me to your friends? lol. i also mentioned you since they saw me write literally a paper to you when they knew i didn't have one to write for school. And they also think that it's pretty awesome that I found someone to share different life stories + interest with (btw, since i basically FAIL at it, how about you take the initiative to talk more about dramas/idols/and things next time IF there is a next time...). And yes, I'll miss you too and I don't think I will forget our exchange. but like i said, it'll have to end one day, perhaps tomorrow. i guess this is a case that if you drag it for too long, it might be not as good... right?
      And yes, I intend to spend the rest of my adult life in France if I can make it.
      and lol. my brother is not a bit aloof. he is basically awkward with everyone unless we're talking about something that interest him. but yes, PK made me seriously wonder if there is not some girl out there who might crush on him.. although at the school he is going, there are many guys are are quite like him as well. they are all dorks and nerds.
      I LOLed at your "pfft I shouldn’t be the one saying this considering my own history XP" at least you have a history.. i don't have one at all. well, aside from insignificant things that still haunts me in my sleep for years. I seriously need to find something else that would wipe away those memories.. TT
      OMO... i HATE injustice as well.. the thing is most of the time, i gave them reason for thinking wrongly of me, and even most of the times they are spot on (parents are really more aware than we think..) but when I AM injustly accused, i totally react like a dramaqueen even though i deserved it and i feel so injust it literally chokes me.
      And yes, same here. I really like traveling but am not so proactive about it. I used to travel a lot in the past but my parents have passed the age to travel and they would never let me travel alone..
      haha. same here. i would never choose to live with my mom. she has a heart of gold BUT she's really hard to live with from day to day. and their age difference is nearly 19 years. kk. that's why i tend to like older guys a bit. even KHJ is limit the age difference I want.
      And yes, I'm considering maybe going out with a light attitude. for me, I have this tendency to think that unless I am to marry the guy, i don't want to waste my heart and time pining about him. But then, I look at all those girls who gets several relationships and of course, they get heartbroken sometimes but they also get to experience things that I envy.
      And yes, my friends are NOTHING alike as well.. i have lots of friends from all sort of groups since i'm a kind of get along well with everybody kind of girl but my close friends consist of two girls and we are totally different. The chinese girl i talked to you about... she's the polar opposite of me in almost every way and my other friend, she's the kind of girl i would hate if she wasn't my best friend.
      And yes, in the end, i want to meet a guy who would make me not care about anything else. it's like the same for my career. i want to find a major i really want to do that I would not hesitate to pursue. and yes, like you, i have things i would not disclose to anyone. btw, i think even some things i told you i didn't as explicitely talked about with my bff for some reason even though i don't know you... -_-" Or there are things when I am not afraid to admit to without wanting to be detailed about it. Like i say that i am not nice but I don't think I'm capable of disclosing why exactly i think that.
      and oh, don't feel apologetic when you spazz about ANYBODY. be it KHJ or siwon or anybody else... I LOVE kpop/jpop/etc in general so spazz ahead.. it's actually better than me talking about myself. ok, .LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ.I.LOVE.KHJ <3<3<3<3<3<3<3
      there. now you dont have to feel apologetic anymore. :)
      And yes, i agree that ktainers shouldnt be too obsessed about going to the us. I believe that it will naturally come one day, especially with the popularity it's getting and deserving. I was SO impressed when I saw the MV for I eat you up (the korean version, not the US version).. I LOVED it.
      And I was so proud when I saw the MVs of BoA playing at the gym place I go to.
      And yes, I agree... BoA looks so old now... honestly, it's almost like she's not pretty anymore sometimes when I look at her. I go back to the old MVs and I think, wow, she has changed, which is natural but for her, it really looks like she had gone through so much.
      And yes, I LOVE how Hyori was acting with KHJ. and yes, you were right, well, except for the YYMS (LOL. i do that too with acronyms sometimes). it was on YSMM (yashimmanman) when Brian talked about his experience.. it was ADORABLE when he didn't get it at all and Brian had to whisper in his ears... the face he had after that was PRICELESS. i remember seeing the same face sometimes in WGM. it's like a deer caught in the headlights. i think it's also in the same show where he talked about how he had to work at a chicken restaurant because he wanted to buy a guitar and his father broke his.. which reminds me of the new Xman (ep 3 i think?) where he said that all the women wanted him to sing happy birthday to them and bring the pepper when he was a server... LOL
      and I'm sorry this comment turned out the way it did with dark moments and things. I bet it seems less like sweets now.. I promise if there's a next time, I'll be a lot more cheerful than this. I have this tendency to overthink things and ruminate about questions on life and things but I can also be happy-go-lucky as well. see: :) :D :) :D
      and as always, unni and chingoo, mianhae, and gomawo (hahaha. I almost typed saranghae. kk :))

    • Buahahah it is long! thank you for your warning. But somehow.. when I reached the end I was like… oww i’ve reached the end… ALREADY >__< I like how he upgrades you now (like my lil bro also do with me sometimes, not only on academic level, but he keeps me younger (than I appear to be) and boyish(ly blunt), which I also like… too girly me no like ;))
      BUAHAHAH@LALALAND... I’ve been there a lot during classes I guess ;)
      Ah… the updates on Allkpop are killing, but true, if you let it go… it makes no difference.
      Aah so cute your story at the gas station… your little brother loves you to death!!
      About my mother and my need for justice… when I was still a kid (6 years… 7 maybe?) she falsely accused me of something… I was so angry I told her: ‘I’m going to run away’. We had a chinese take away and I just went back through the backdoor and hide behind the large sacks of rice and stuff.. whaaa I scared them all soo much with that. My dad took the car and drove to the highway or something and everybody kept looking for me… WHILE PASSING ME SEVERAL TIMES. I thought to myself: ARE THEY STUPID OR SOMETHING how come they can’t find me while I look at them searching for me. So after a while… I was fed up with hiding and put my head on top of a sack. I remember I had to apologize to my mother but that’s it… hahaha I scared the crap out of them ;) BTw, earlier I told you it’s bad to leave your childhood behind.. that’s because the take away (and our home above the take away) was taken away from us due to a fire.. I don’t feel sad about it on the outside.. or I’m not even that conscious about it… but deep down.. it sometimes feels like regret and hurts a little. We picked up our lives well and everything is more than fine now… but I still miss it.. the feelings, the history. We were lucky as we could retrieve all our belongings without damage… but it’s just… however I disliked working there at times.. I cherish the sweet moments now more!
      Don’t envy my past with my brother.. it’s different for you, there is only 1 year difference… I’m 6!! Years older than my bro!
      Whenever I feel guilty I go to him and hang in his room (while he’s doing some gaming, and is half ignoring me and half putting up with me. But I feel like he like me being around because he never told me to leave ;)) once, when I was away for two weeks or more, when I returned to my parents’ place, I just took the car and cruised with him around the neighborhood. I’m sure he missed me too because he seemed to be enjoying the ride (and the stop at mcdonalds) too.
      With Sudoku I’m totally competitive… I HAVE TO WIN whatever I play ;)
      My parents hate me flipping channels also, luckily, now my laptop is all I need now and rarely watch tv.
      hmmm word of advice… try to indulge in light hearted “dates” and enjoy having make up on… just to humor yourself… try it ;) I’m not the type who always wear makeup… sometimes.. I like feeling plain, simple maybe even a bit unattractive without makeup… but that just makes you feel even better if you do wear some ;)
      I am also extreme in my habits… most of the time I’m too humble and pleasing, other times I’ll be as blunt I can be.. NO IS NO!!@ ;)… again it depends on my mood (explained earlier)
      Ah I’m relieved to hear that you like me giving additional insight.. cause I feel like I’m repeating you a lot and adding a lot ;)
      I don’t think anybody is reading this too… but I can’t help wondering ;) about your friends, hehe funny! I actually send my friends an explanatory e-mail about me a bit. Why I don’t tell them everything they ask for. Just so they know and that I still love them no matter my behavior. You made me realize that… opening up to you this much.. why can’t I explain myself to them (without having to disclose the stuff I don’t want to disclose)coz I have also been telling you stuff I’ve not mentioned to them explicitly. I think they appreciate it and understand it and love me back for/despite it. So online chingu… GO MA WO again… you made me upgrade myself a bit ;). Hehe, if they would read these… they will understand me sooo much more… but I don’t want to give away the exclusivity…pfffff hihi weird ey. Heheh talking about dramas/idols etc… hehehe here and there, there will be something about it… but I think maybe we also unconsciously separated that in the new thread…. Will try to attend that also (just to get everything off my chest… not because I feel like I owe you, don’t worry).
      My parents let me travel alone… because… I simply demanded the freedom. I went to turkey@ my 19th I think?? With a friend.. of course it’s not that far but I did have a good fight with my mother about it. I made me feel so bad… but choosing for myself was important for me. So at right circumstances, I’ll always choose for myself.
      19 years of difference… THAT’S A LOT!!
      thank you for showing me a higher level of craziness for KHJ ;) heheheheh with the I.LOVE.KHJs ;)
      I think ktainers should stick with the K, because… honestly it’s awesome and I think foreigners can learn to appreciate that without knowing what the hack they’re singing ;)
      Boa in the same gym?? REALLY?? How cool is that!!
      I would totally stalk the chicken restaurant if KHJ was still working there… just to get some candy for the eyes ;)
      Again no worries I love your comment, however long or dark… cause it did bring me joy to read it (not happy happy joy for your sad stuff… but wel… joy.. you know ;)) you don’t have to promise me happiness… all I ask is for you to be you in here :)
      saranghae… hahahaha Korean tend to use that world mindlessly hahaha (or Asians does… or everybody does…), so that wouldn’t have scared me if you did say that ;)
      ok… if you do decide to reply… please don’t feel pressured with time and stuff (1 sentence!!!)

      An nyeong and a little bit of saranghae ;)

    • aww.. so sorry... something went wrong when posting earlier... i repost it... please read the reply below instead of the one above this one :(

    • Buahahah it is long! thank you for your warning. But somehow.. when I reached the end I was like… oww i’ve reached the end… ALREADY >__< I like how he upgrades you now (like my lil bro also do with me sometimes, not only on academic level, but he keeps me younger (than I appear to be) and boyish(ly blunt), which I also like… too girly me no like ;))
      BUAHAHAH@LALALAND... I’ve been there a lot during classes I guess ;)
      Ah… the updates on Allkpop are killing, but true, if you let it go… it makes no difference.
      Aah so cute your story at the gas station… your little brother loves you to death!!
      About my mother and my need for justice… when I was still a kid (6 years… 7 maybe?) she falsely accused me of something… I was so angry I told her: ‘I’m going to run away’. We had a chinese take away and I just went back through the backdoor and hide behind the large sacks of rice and stuff.. whaaa I scared them all soo much with that. My dad took the car and drove to the highway or something and everybody kept looking for me… WHILE PASSING ME SEVERAL TIMES. I thought to myself: ARE THEY STUPID OR SOMETHING how come they can’t find me while I look at them searching for me. So after a while… I was fed up with hiding and put my head on top of a sack. I remember I had to apologize to my mother but that’s it… no real punishment hahaha I scared the crap out of them ;) BTw, earlier I told you it’s bad to leave your childhood behind.. that’s because the take away (and our home above the take away) was taken away from us due to a fire.. I don’t feel sad about it on the outside.. or I’m not even that conscious about it… but deep down.. it sometimes feels like regret and hurts a little. We picked up our lives well and everything is more than fine now… but I still miss it.. the feelings, the history. We were lucky as we could retrieve all our belongings without damage… but it’s just… however I disliked working there at times.. I cherish the sweet moments more! It did bring the family together every Sunday to work.
      Don’t envy my past with my brother.. it’s different for you, there is only 1 year difference… I’m 6!! Years older than my bro!
      Whenever I feel guilty I go to him and hang in his room (while he’s doing some gaming, and is half ignoring me and half putting up with me. But I feel like he like me being around because he never told me to leave ;)) once, when I was away for two weeks or more, when I returned to my parents’ place, I just took the car and cruised with him around the neighborhood. I’m sure he missed me too because he seemed to be enjoying the ride (and the stop at mcdonalds) too.
      With Sudoku I’m totally competitive… I HAVE TO WIN whatever I play ;)
      My parents hate me flipping channels also, luckily, now my laptop is all I need now and rarely watch tv.
      hmmm word of advice… try to indulge in light hearted “dates” and enjoy having make up on… just to humor yourself… try it ;) I’m not the type who always wear makeup… sometimes.. I like feeling plain, simple maybe even a bit unattractive without makeup…(coz when people appreciate you then, they really appreciate you for you and not your make up) but that just makes you feel even better and really attractive if you do wear some ;)
      I am also extreme in my habits… most of the time I’m too humble and pleasing, other times I’ll be as blunt I can be.. NO IS NO!!@ ;)… again it depends on my mood (explained earlier)
      Ah I’m relieved to hear that you like me giving additional insight.. cause I feel like I’m repeating you a lot and adding a lot ;)
      I don’t think anybody is reading this too… but I can’t help wondering ;) about your friends, hehe funny! I actually send my friends an explanatory e-mail about me a bit. Why I don’t tell them everything they ask for. Just so they know and that I still love them no matter my behavior. You made me realize that… opening up to you this much.. why can’t I explain myself to them (without having to disclose the stuff I don’t want to disclose)coz I have also been telling you stuff I’ve not mentioned to them explicitly. I think they appreciate it and understand it and love me back for/despite it. So online chingu… GO MA WO again… you made me upgrade myself a bit ;). Hehe, if they would read these… they will understand me sooo much more… but I don’t want to give away the exclusivity…pfffff hihi weird ey. Heheh talking about dramas/idols etc… hehehe here and there, there will be something about it… but I think maybe we also unconsciously separated that in the new thread…. Will try to attend that also (just to get everything off my chest… not because I feel like I owe you, don’t worry).
      My parents let me travel alone… because… I simply demanded the freedom. I went to turkey@ my 19th I think?? With a friend.. of course it’s not that far but I did have a good fight with my mother about it. I made me feel so bad… but choosing for myself was important for me. So at right circumstances, I’ll always choose for myself.
      19 years of difference… THAT’S A LOT!!
      thank you for showing me a higher level of craziness for KHJ ;) heheheheh with the I.LOVE.KHJs ;)
      I think ktainers should stick with the K, because… honestly it’s awesome and I think foreigners can learn to appreciate that without knowing what the hack they’re singing ;)
      Boa in the same gym?? REALLY?? How cool is that!!
      I would totally stalk the chicken restaurant if KHJ was still working there… just to get some candy for the eyes ;)
      Again no worries I love your comment, however long or dark… cause it did bring me joy to read it (not happy happy joy for your sad stuff… but wel… joy.. you know ;)) you don’t have to promise me happiness… all I ask is for you to be you in here :)
      saranghae… hahahaha Korean tend to use that world mindlessly hahaha (or Asians does… or everybody does…), so that wouldn’t have scared me if you did say that ;)
      ok… if you do decide to reply… please don’t feel pressured with time and stuff (1 sentence!!!)

      An nyeong and a little bity of saranghae ;)
      (edit: again, sorry for the double postings)

    • crap crap crap... i comments get cropped... whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! aaargh... i try again... sorry sorry!!

    • Buahahah it is long! thank you for your warning. But somehow.. when I reached the end I was like… oww i’ve reached the end… ALREADY >_<

    • Sorry for replying almost immediately… but coming up are things that will occupy my time completely, so I wanted to do this first… so I guess it’s the other way around now… first the thing I find important (big stuff) and later the stuff that is actually important, but I find, maybe now, slightly less important (small stuff)… sanity where have I left you :(
      Each time I think that this is probably ending now as how is there possibly more to say… I will receive an ever longer reply from you with new, more, excited stuff and I’ll have new and more stuff I want to tell you. Yes, this is going to end somehow, but I’m still waiting for that moment (FOR ME!!) to come. Or for you to come ;)
      About complimenting your post… I don’t think you can deny my sincerity… or else… why the hack would I reply with equal amounts (in which I sometimes did pour my heart out!!) :) but I believe you do believe my sincerity and take it in with your heart ^^ But this time… I’m also going to try to switch on the nod mode.
      About compliments and flatteries… I like receiving some and can glow about it later still, but at the time… I rarely show appreciation of receiving some to the extent that I put the other down in one way or the other… like ‘wow, you’re such a smooth talker’ and stuff… very blunt of me I know. But I hate the REAL mushy flattering… they are almost never genuine and I like to feel like I can see through those. Which leads us to me being humble and arrogant at the same time too. I actually hear that from “semi” strangers… ‘you’re so sweet but arrogant too…’ I guess that might be actually genuine ;) having condescending thoughts is very human I think. It doesn’t matter whether in reality you are better or not. Just try to keep it down a bit or to yourself if it gets out of hand hahahahha. I mean… look at me… who am I to dislike snsd for whatever reason…?? They won’t miss it anyway and the only one I’m annoying is actually myself..(and the person I spazz about it) but I love to spout about it anyways sometimes ;) I think you are intelligent… intelligence shouldn’t always be measured in iq and eq… sometimes it’s just something from within. You’re BSJ brother clearly is unreachably intelligent BUT you have intelligence that excels his elsewhere.. like being less naive about the bad trades of human beings. Like OHN vs BSJ I guess (pk mention!!) I think all these feelings really relies on how you feel at the moment. If I’m in “high-times” of my life… I feel like I really CAN take the world. If I’m down… all those feelings will go down the drain and I don’t understand where that came from. But that’s it with life… within every life phase you enter, your moods and level of happiness fluctuates like in math graphs… up and down…. High high up, than waaaay down again. Again, not trying to lecture you, just want to share how I see and figured this and what works for me :)
      Hear hear for being too and not too asian!!! (¤^o^¤)/
      I totally get the dragging and that losing its charm. I think it’s due to losing the feeling of extreme love. You cherish it, but don’t feel the crazy urges you had before anymore because those feelings are muted… so yes, it did make sense to me what you said about it ;)
      Yah, I did see siwon’s trailer. Lately, I’v seen a compilation of moments between him and his OML daughter… that made me swoon for him again… all of a sudden the muted idolization for him rushed into my body. Actually, the first time I liked him… I didn’t even know who he was or suju… I saw a cut from starking with the kid who sang hey jude. First I was of course watching it for the kid, but he appeared in several shots and his beautiful genuine smile and happiness seeing the kid made him soooooooooo attractive. It took me a while to find him back (as I did not know who these bunch of Korean guys were, I couldn’t tell their faces apart from each other (except shindong XP), and also he looked slightly different (it was during their it’s you song)) But well.. what happened after you already know. This makes me want to talk about jerry too (to even things out ;)).. I first saw hotshot and looked up more drama of the characters within hotshot.. so I saw white tower first (or rather scanned through the episodes) then found meteor garden. But it wasn’t until meteor garden (after a few eps) that his attractiveness really came out through this rude pineapple haired boy (I LOVED HIS HAIR IN PINEAPPLE STYLE)!!
      Most idols are boyish.. maybe because they didn’t have the normal pace of growing up, it wasn’t a natural process for them… hence the still boyish behavior every now and then (altered with mature behavior) But maybe also because being cute is still “in” in Asia. My brother and I were mimicking the cute poses idols take (yesterday)… WE FELT RIDICULOUS… WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT???
      KHJ had A LOT OF twitches… they’re truly adorable!!Ah.. the way he roars at his dongsaengs…. Prrrrrrr hehehe. The ep with the blind dates with the wondergirls… he was so impatient with the other two.. he really wanted to show who’s the boss and this is his household with his wife. Like he wanted to be alone with her hahah while they invited them hahaha, but when the WGirls came, and he was totally into matchmaking!! Ok more about KHJ… have you read tommy’s piece on ssangchu heaven. Of course, I did figured that out myself, I totally share his opinion, but reading this piece from a guy… gave me more peace… ahhaha maybe I should thank him properly, but by now, it think messages for him are already overflowing!
      More about PK: I told my brother that you told me JSM is good at dancing… he said (as he caught one of my PK reruns of the first ep with me) that that explains why OHN’s high kick was that awesome and stable. Most girls do really mushy girly kicks, hers was powerful… we both liked it then. But that is actually one of the reasons I find him intelligent… making jumps while I need to take small steps first :)
      Ah, yeah, our arrogance mislead us feeling intelligent for predicting a plot.. hahahhaha gosh!!
      you’re ability to procrastinate is amazing!!! I LOL-ed hard ;) but I might add that I’m still a close second… I always pulled all-nighters when due date is nearing (never missed one :() my minesweep stats: 4981 games >_< I like how he upgrades you now (like my lil bro also do with me sometimes, not only on academic level, but he keeps me younger (than I appear to be) and boyish(ly blunt), which I also like… too girly me no like ;))
      BUAHAHAH@LALALAND... I’ve been there a lot during classes I guess ;)
      Ah… the updates on Allkpop are killing, but true, if you let it go… it makes no difference.
      Aah so cute your story at the gas station… your little brother loves you to death!!
      About my mother and my need for justice… when I was still a kid (6 years… 7 maybe?) she falsely accused me of something… I was so angry I told her: ‘I’m going to run away’. We had a chinese take away and I just went back through the backdoor and hide behind the large sacks of rice and stuff.. whaaa I scared them all soo much with that. My dad took the car and drove to the highway or something and everybody kept looking for me… WHILE PASSING ME SEVERAL TIMES. I thought to myself: ARE THEY STUPID OR SOMETHING how come they can’t find me while I look at them searching for me. So after a while… I was fed up with hiding and put my head on top of a sack. I remember I had to apologize to my mother but that’s it… no real punishment hahaha I scared the crap out of them ;) BTw, earlier I told you it’s bad to leave your childhood behind.. that’s because the take away (and our home above the take away) was taken away from us due to a fire.. I don’t feel sad about it on the outside.. or I’m not even that conscious about it… but deep down.. it sometimes feels like regret and hurts a little. We picked up our lives well and everything is more than fine now… but I still miss it.. the feelings, the history. We were lucky as we could retrieve all our belongings without damage… but it’s just… however I disliked working there at times.. I cherish the sweet moments more! It did bring the family together every Sunday to work.
      Don’t envy my past with my brother.. it’s different for you, there is only 1 year difference… I’m 6!! Years older than my bro!
      Whenever I feel guilty I go to him and hang in his room (while he’s doing some gaming, and is half ignoring me and half putting up with me. But I feel like he like me being around because he never told me to leave ;)) once, when I was away for two weeks or more, when I returned to my parents’ place, I just took the car and cruised with him around the neighborhood. I’m sure he missed me too because he seemed to be enjoying the ride (and the stop at mcdonalds) too.
      With Sudoku I’m totally competitive… I HAVE TO WIN whatever I play ;)
      My parents hate me flipping channels also, luckily, now my laptop is all I need now and rarely watch tv.
      hmmm word of advice… try to indulge in light hearted “dates” and enjoy having make up on… just to humor yourself… try it ;) I’m not the type who always wear makeup… sometimes.. I like feeling plain, simple maybe even a bit unattractive without makeup…(coz when people appreciate you then, they really appreciate you for you and not your make up) but that just makes you feel even better and really attractive if you do wear some ;)
      I am also extreme in my habits… most of the time I’m too humble and pleasing, other times I’ll be as blunt I can be.. NO IS NO!!@ ;)… again it depends on my mood (explained earlier)
      Ah I’m relieved to hear that you like me giving additional insight.. cause I feel like I’m repeating you a lot and adding a lot ;)
      I don’t think anybody is reading this too… but I can’t help wondering ;) about your friends, hehe funny! I actually send my friends an explanatory e-mail about me a bit. Why I don’t tell them everything they ask for. Just so they know and that I still love them no matter my behavior. You made me realize that… opening up to you this much.. why can’t I explain myself to them (without having to disclose the stuff I don’t want to disclose)coz I have also been telling you stuff I’ve not mentioned to them explicitly. I think they appreciate it and understand it and love me back for/despite it. So online chingu… GO MA WO again… you made me upgrade myself a bit ;). Hehe, if they would read these… they will understand me sooo much more… but I don’t want to give away the exclusivity…pfffff hihi weird ey. Heheh talking about dramas/idols etc… hehehe here and there, there will be something about it… but I think maybe we also unconsciously separated that in the new thread…. Will try to attend that also (just to get everything off my chest… not because I feel like I owe you, don’t worry).
      My parents let me travel alone… because… I simply demanded the freedom. I went to turkey@ my 19th I think?? With a friend.. of course it’s not that far but I did have a good fight with my mother about it. I made me feel so bad… but choosing for myself was important for me. So at right circumstances, I’ll always choose for myself.
      19 years of difference… THAT’S A LOT!!
      thank you for showing me a higher level of craziness for KHJ ;) heheheheh with the I.LOVE.KHJs ;)
      I think ktainers should stick with the K, because… honestly it’s awesome and I think foreigners can learn to appreciate that without knowing what the hack they’re singing ;)
      Boa in the same gym?? REALLY?? How cool is that!!
      I would totally stalk the chicken restaurant if KHJ was still working there… just to get some candy for the eyes ;)
      Again no worries I love your comment, however long or dark… cause it did bring me joy to read it (not happy happy joy for your sad stuff… but wel… joy.. you know ;)) you don’t have to promise me happiness… all I ask is for you to be you in here :)
      saranghae… hahahaha Korean tend to use that world mindlessly hahaha (or Asians does… or everybody does…), so that wouldn’t have scared me if you did say that ;)
      ok… if you do decide to reply… please don’t feel pressured with time and stuff (1 sentence!!!)

      An nyeong and a little bity of saranghae ;)
      (edit: sorry for the double postings)

    • Buahahah it is long! thank you for your warning. But somehow.. when I reached the end I was like… oww i’ve reached the end… ALREADY :S Sorry for replying almost immediately… but coming up are things that will occupy my time completely, so I wanted to do this first… so I guess it’s the other way around now… first the thing I find important (big stuff) and later the stuff that is actually important, but I find, maybe now, slightly less important (small stuff)… sanity where have I left you :(
      Each time I think that this is probably ending now as how is there possibly more to say… I will receive an ever longer reply from you with new, more, excited stuff and I’ll have new and more stuff I want to tell you. Yes, this is going to end somehow, but I’m still waiting for that moment (FOR ME!!) to come. Or for you to come ;)
      About complimenting your post… I don’t think you can deny my sincerity… or else… why the hack would I reply with equal amounts (in which I sometimes did pour my heart out!!) :) but I believe you do believe my sincerity and take it in with your heart ^^ But this time… I’m also going to try to switch on the nod mode.
      About compliments and flatteries… I like receiving some and can glow about it later still, but at the time… I rarely show appreciation of receiving some to the extent that I put the other down in one way or the other… like ‘wow, you’re such a smooth talker’ and stuff… very blunt of me I know. But I hate the REAL mushy flattering… they are almost never genuine and I like to feel like I can see through those. Which leads us to me being humble and arrogant at the same time too. I actually hear that from “semi” strangers… ‘you’re so sweet but arrogant too…’ I guess that might be actually genuine ;) having condescending thoughts is very human I think. It doesn’t matter whether in reality you are better or not. Just try to keep it down a bit or to yourself if it gets out of hand hahahahha. I mean… look at me… who am I to dislike snsd for whatever reason…?? They won’t miss it anyway and the only one I’m annoying is actually myself..(and the person I spazz about it) but I love to spout about it anyways sometimes ;) I think you are intelligent… intelligence shouldn’t always be measured in iq and eq… sometimes it’s just something from within. You’re BSJ brother clearly is unreachably intelligent BUT you have intelligence that excels his elsewhere.. like being less naive about the bad trades of human beings. Like OHN vs BSJ I guess (pk mention!!) I think all these feelings really relies on how you feel at the moment. If I’m in “high-times” of my life… I feel like I really CAN take the world. If I’m down… all those feelings will go down the drain and I don’t understand where that came from. But that’s it with life… within every life phase you enter, your moods and level of happiness fluctuates like in math graphs… up and down…. High high up, than waaaay down again. Again, not trying to lecture you, just want to share how I see and figured this and what works for me :)
      Hear hear for being too and not too asian!!! (¤^o^¤)/
      I totally get the dragging and that losing its charm. I think it’s due to losing the feeling of extreme love. You cherish it, but don’t feel the crazy urges you had before anymore because those feelings are muted… so yes, it did make sense to me what you said about it ;)
      Yah, I did see siwon’s trailer. Lately, I’v seen a compilation of moments between him and his OML daughter… that made me swoon for him again… all of a sudden the muted idolization for him rushed into my body. Actually, the first time I liked him… I didn’t even know who he was or suju… I saw a cut from starking with the kid who sang hey jude. First I was of course watching it for the kid, but he appeared in several shots and his beautiful genuine smile and happiness seeing the kid made him soooooooooo attractive. It took me a while to find him back (as I did not know who these bunch of Korean guys were, I couldn’t tell their faces apart from each other (except shindong XP), and also he looked slightly different (it was during their it’s you song)) But well.. what happened after you already know. This makes me want to talk about jerry too (to even things out ;)).. I first saw hotshot and looked up more drama of the characters within hotshot.. so I saw white tower first (or rather scanned through the episodes) then found meteor garden. But it wasn’t until meteor garden (after a few eps) that his attractiveness really came out through this rude pineapple haired boy (I LOVED HIS HAIR IN PINEAPPLE STYLE)!!
      Most idols are boyish.. maybe because they didn’t have the normal pace of growing up, it wasn’t a natural process for them… hence the still boyish behavior every now and then (altered with mature behavior) But maybe also because being cute is still “in” in Asia. My brother and I were mimicking the cute poses idols take (yesterday)… WE FELT RIDICULOUS… WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT???
      KHJ had A LOT OF twitches… they’re truly adorable!!Ah.. the way he roars at his dongsaengs…. Prrrrrrr hehehe. The ep with the blind dates with the wondergirls… he was so impatient with the other two.. he really wanted to show who’s the boss and this is his household with his wife. Like he wanted to be alone with her hahah while they invited them hahaha, but when the WGirls came, and he was totally into matchmaking!! Ok more about KHJ… have you read tommy’s piece on ssangchu heaven. Of course, I did figured that out myself, I totally share his opinion, but reading this piece from a guy… gave me more peace… ahhaha maybe I should thank him properly, but by now, it think messages for him are already overflowing!
      More about PK: I told my brother that you told me JSM is good at dancing… he said (as he caught one of my PK reruns of the first ep with me) that that explains why OHN’s high kick was that awesome and stable. Most girls do really mushy girly kicks, hers was powerful… we both liked it then. But that is actually one of the reasons I find him intelligent… making jumps while I need to take small steps first :)
      Ah, yeah, our arrogance mislead us feeling intelligent for predicting a plot.. hahahhaha gosh!!
      you’re ability to procrastinate is amazing!!! I LOL-ed hard ;) but I might add that I’m still a close second… I always pulled all-nighters when due date is nearing (never missed one :() my minesweep stats: 4981 games :S(I’ve stopped thankfully) it seems time is the best motivator for me… :S But you’re studying habits are really really off hahahahahaha!! (having said that… again.. mine are not that better when cramming for an exam :(… what’s wrong with us… AGAIN! We’re two weird chicks I tell you!!) Luckily for me, most of the time, studying old exams were enough for me to pass… (without looking into the material seriously). The BSJ at your home is really really disciplined!! I don’t think we have it in us due to our characters and distractions… and, however generalizing, we are female… which is a such different species on so many levels XP I like how he upgrades you now (like my lil bro also do with me sometimes, not only on academic level, but he keeps me younger (than I appear to be) and boyish(ly blunt), which I also like… too girly me no like ;))
      BUAHAHAH@LALALAND... I’ve been there a lot during classes I guess ;)
      Ah… the updates on Allkpop are killing, but true, if you let it go… it makes no difference.
      Aah so cute your story at the gas station… your little brother loves you to death!!
      About my mother and my need for justice… when I was still a kid (6 years… 7 maybe?) she falsely accused me of something… I was so angry I told her: ‘I’m going to run away’. We had a chinese take away and I just went back through the backdoor and hide behind the large sacks of rice and stuff.. whaaa I scared them all soo much with that. My dad took the car and drove to the highway or something and everybody kept looking for me… WHILE PASSING ME SEVERAL TIMES. I thought to myself: ARE THEY STUPID OR SOMETHING how come they can’t find me while I look at them searching for me. So after a while… I was fed up with hiding and put my head on top of a sack. I remember I had to apologize to my mother but that’s it… no real punishment hahaha I scared the crap out of them ;) BTw, earlier I told you it’s bad to leave your childhood behind.. that’s because the take away (and our home above the take away) was taken away from us due to a fire.. I don’t feel sad about it on the outside.. or I’m not even that conscious about it… but deep down.. it sometimes feels like regret and hurts a little. We picked up our lives well and everything is more than fine now… but I still miss it.. the feelings, the history. We were lucky as we could retrieve all our belongings without damage… but it’s just… however I disliked working there at times.. I cherish the sweet moments more! It did bring the family together every Sunday to work.
      Don’t envy my past with my brother.. it’s different for you, there is only 1 year difference… I’m 6!! Years older than my bro!
      Whenever I feel guilty I go to him and hang in his room (while he’s doing some gaming, and is half ignoring me and half putting up with me. But I feel like he like me being around because he never told me to leave ;)) once, when I was away for two weeks or more, when I returned to my parents’ place, I just took the car and cruised with him around the neighborhood. I’m sure he missed me too because he seemed to be enjoying the ride (and the stop at mcdonalds) too.
      With Sudoku I’m totally competitive… I HAVE TO WIN whatever I play ;)
      My parents hate me flipping channels also, luckily, now my laptop is all I need now and rarely watch tv.
      hmmm word of advice… try to indulge in light hearted “dates” and enjoy having make up on… just to humor yourself… try it ;) I’m not the type who always wear makeup… sometimes.. I like feeling plain, simple maybe even a bit unattractive without makeup…(coz when people appreciate you then, they really appreciate you for you and not your make up) but that just makes you feel even better and really attractive if you do wear some ;)
      I am also extreme in my habits… most of the time I’m too humble and pleasing, other times I’ll be as blunt I can be.. NO IS NO!!@ ;)… again it depends on my mood (explained earlier)
      Ah I’m relieved to hear that you like me giving additional insight.. cause I feel like I’m repeating you a lot and adding a lot ;)
      I don’t think anybody is reading this too… but I can’t help wondering ;) about your friends, hehe funny! I actually send my friends an explanatory e-mail about me a bit. Why I don’t tell them everything they ask for. Just so they know and that I still love them no matter my behavior. You made me realize that… opening up to you this much.. why can’t I explain myself to them (without having to disclose the stuff I don’t want to disclose)coz I have also been telling you stuff I’ve not mentioned to them explicitly. I think they appreciate it and understand it and love me back for/despite it. So online chingu… GO MA WO again… you made me upgrade myself a bit ;). Hehe, if they would read these… they will understand me sooo much more… but I don’t want to give away the exclusivity…pfffff hihi weird ey. Heheh talking about dramas/idols etc… hehehe here and there, there will be something about it… but I think maybe we also unconsciously separated that in the new thread…. Will try to attend that also (just to get everything off my chest… not because I feel like I owe you, don’t worry).
      My parents let me travel alone… because… I simply demanded the freedom. I went to turkey@ my 19th I think?? With a friend.. of course it’s not that far but I did have a good fight with my mother about it. I made me feel so bad… but choosing for myself was important for me. So at right circumstances, I’ll always choose for myself.
      19 years of difference… THAT’S A LOT!!
      thank you for showing me a higher level of craziness for KHJ ;) heheheheh with the I.LOVE.KHJs ;)
      I think ktainers should stick with the K, because… honestly it’s awesome and I think foreigners can learn to appreciate that without knowing what the hack they’re singing ;)
      Boa in the same gym?? REALLY?? How cool is that!!
      I would totally stalk the chicken restaurant if KHJ was still working there… just to get some candy for the eyes ;)
      Again no worries I love your comment, however long or dark… cause it did bring me joy to read it (not happy happy joy for your sad stuff… but wel… joy.. you know ;)) you don’t have to promise me happiness… all I ask is for you to be you in here :)
      saranghae… hahahaha Korean tend to use that world mindlessly hahaha (or Asians does… or everybody does…), so that wouldn’t have scared me if you did say that ;)
      ok… if you do decide to reply… please don’t feel pressured with time and stuff (1 sentence!!!)

      An nyeong and a little bity of saranghae ;)
      (edit: sorry for the double postings)

    • EDIT: I feel truly bad and sorry for doing this again… but here goes…
      (oh by the by, halfway through typing my letter I thought… I CAN’T POST THIS THERE!!! It’s too much and feels like bad blogging courtesy… sooo I figured to paste my message here… if you can’t or don’t remember this location and don’t get to see this… in a way that would be better as I really REALLY don’t want to “burden” you with my rant but again… >< but i simply can’t reply nothing @_@ )

      ok, trying to keep this concise so gonna put nodding to max. use!!! (cuz once again i don't want to fire up the chatterbox stuff but don't want to not answer either -__-)^^ your ramble earlier was 1+ word page long…yeah I guess some things never change! But let’s just hope that I’m gonna prove otherwise with this reply ;) And your message was not that incoherent, so I’m hoping that you’ll understand mine as I’m gonna use the same trick.
      Don’t worry about the chatroom and what happened to it. Whatever happens (or doesn’t happen) in the chatroom stays in the chatroom ;)
      I’m not sure whether I’m the MGIAG person… but haven’t watch MGIAG. After PK.. it took me quite a while to pick up another drama (except for rerunning PK and WGM -__- heh, KHJ made me kind of nuts and he’s doing it again :P) I did watch small bits of the first ep of MGIAG but PK was too overwhelming still, so didn’t continue nor finish hehe. But after a while, I did started on Secret Garden and Dream High, and was quite hooked on those!! Not as much as the PK wave but good enough for me not rerunning PK over and over ;)
      Hehe yeah I missed you soooo very much too. This might sound crazy but there were times that I would think about our convos and the fun I had chatting crazily away. And sometimes I would wonder whether you’d still be swamped, refraining yourself from this all… If only you could make a living of it, ey ;) Haha I really cherish that period of talking about everything and nothing, and yes though I’m waaayyyy older than you and actually don’t know you at all, I too feel like you’re a chingu I know for long. Haven’t found a conversational partner like you neither, to which I was soooo freaking honest and open… ONLINE!!1 But through the PK experience and this playground, I did meet other awesome peeps, and we chat away in fb. We still mention you once in a while heheh you’ve actually became a notion… like when one of us would be too busy and MIA, we call it “pulling a V”… so the others know the seriousness of how busy the person is and not able to join discussions x) so in a way… you were still all over the place ;) That reminds me, when I went back to old PK posts… you were really everywhere xD I knew that of course, but forgotten the extend of your presence (and the void after you took a leave of absence ;) you were sooo missed by pkissers!!!)
      ok i'm halfway on my reply and forget about being concise T-T ... i really thought i could but it's not gonna happen… mi an…. truly MI AN!!! :(
      I have to say my fangirling for KHJ didn’t fade… I would say it went the other way… it’s scary how this Namja is able to captivate me… :S hahahahha it still makes me roll my eyes. And yeah, first thing I thought when hearing about Extravagant challenge is you!! Siwon still has a special place in my heart (somewhere tucked away x)). ahhhh it does sound like you rereading skipbeat for after hearing about the drama. I’m not actively reading manga’s no more, but I had a good period of manga addiction. Read skipbeat too and streamed the anime hahha I LOVED it! I actually got my lil bro to watch hahah he marathoned it ^^ But I watched the trailer posted by KK above…. And… it might turn out to be good stuff!!! Siwon is good and a serious as an actor, he can really turn off siwon-mode and the trailer looks good… and surprisingly the mixing of mandarin and Korean doesn’t feel off….so yeah I’m gonna anticipate this one also^^
      Oh crap, I think I just lured you to the chatroom :( (just read your sentence about not tempting you to get here…) sheeeesh MI AN MI AN MI AN!!!!! Ok, sigh… let’s just hope you didn’t come here..
      pfff but gonna finish this….
      I haven’t save a thing yet, cuz... I don’t know… not because it’s too private or personal since we already shared it anyways, but… I don’t know… I have a post-it with the title of this message still pasted on my mirror so I could find this post easily (but that has to do with my reluctance of throwing stuff away I don’t “need” anymore)… and the word doc in which I type these essays is still on my desktop. I used to rewrite the doc with the latest letter as I was having troubles with losing posts or posts getting cropped… like what happened above -___-“… so yeah hahah I haven’t closed this chapter yet I guess…
      heheh and I just realized I said exactly the same thing you asked for down at the anniversary post telling you to ignore my messages
      sigh.. I really hope you did!!!!!! Cuz I really forgot about you asking me not to tempt you to get here T-T couldn’t delete that message anymore so…. Aishhhhhh
      so… truly TRULY MI AN!!!!!! Don’t reply!!

      Be Good, Be Happy chingu!!!! :)

    • Argh, i forgot your question about life and love..
      Life is still wonderful (at times ;)) and love is still as weird as ever x) heh i tried not to ask any questions... But ugh doing it anyways... How about u? How was life and the other L after PK?

    • Reply on your reply on other post@_@ (here we go agan xP)

      Yeah I already posted it up here >< it’s against my nature not to post if I already wrote and told you it’ll be there -____- ishhhhhh
      Hmm I was thinking about a way to do this more privately too (not that I’m wary about putting it out there… since it’s already out (t)here for long kekeke) but this is harder to keep track of and kinda off topic on sooo many levels ^^ hehe I also thought that it would not be the same anymore x) (craaaazy) so was hesitant to suggest plus that might give you more pressure… :S ugh hahah dilemma dilemma!
      I could create a temp e-mailaccount and message you? Only if you feel for it??

    • or you do the wordpress thing....

      hahaha and SORRY FOR OVERPOSTING!!!

    • reply of chatroom in the skip beat post. :)
      Moving time. ^^

    • Hey there.

      It's been a long time. years in fact.
      It's just that I saw the khj articles, and I thought of you. I don't know if you are still subscribed to this post, or even if you still want to talk. But my new year's resolution is to keep in touch more with people I like rather than just think about them. So here I am, trying to fulfill the resolution, though how long that resolve will last, who knows? Ha.
      If by some miracle you somehow see this message, I will look out for a reply for a few days, and if there's a reply, i'll give you an email address. ^^
      Also... I can't find the skip beat thread at all, or don't remember if this thread is the correct one for the chat room. Ooops. In fact, I remember very little, just that I liked u, hence the resolution fulfillment thingy. Anyway, take care.

• ok... this is COMPLETELY out of topic but i didn't know where to put this TT
  anyways, ockoala, i wonder if you've watched huan ying ai guang lin (i don't know the english title... i assume it's something like welcome love or something like that...) with joe cheng in it and intend to write anything about it... i've just watched it and was suprisingly pleased... but some said they were disappointed.
  was just curious about your opinion.

  • nevermind.. i just googled it (duh me) and it's called that loves come in english...
    and sorry for being out of topic... i guess unconsciously, your opinion became something integral of my drama viewing experience. -_-"

  • Where can I watch that drama?

    • um... do you want to watch it raw? or with subs... if you want to watch it raw, i watch it on tudou... just type in the title.. 欢迎爱光临 and it'll come up..
      as for the subs, i don't know... i think viikii might have subbed it since joe cheng is quite popular... search for that love comes

    • yep... i just verified... viikii has it subbed as well.

    • oh... i also have to warned you... it disappointed some people...
      and i have to admit... it's flawed. i like it nevertheless though.

• Thanks!!!! Looking forward to this!

• omg this news just made my day!!!! I have a horrible week ahead of me, but this somewhat makes up for it! thanks so much!