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Lost You Forever Chapter 13: The Peach Blossom Beauty, Blooming in Glory — 82 Comments

  1. Thank you so much, captain K. Love this story so much and love you too, koala unni. You rock!!

    Gosh, missing xiang liu so much.

    Also, as relatives, is it right for zhuan xu to have feelings for xiao yao because it’s apparent that he does. Just asking folks!!!

    Dying to know who your favouritw male lead is captain K. By any chance, is it … Jing? … Xiang Liu? Even i don’t know who my favourite is. So hard to choose!!!!!!

  2. My favo will always be Jing! I can never get over with how intimate their relationship is..when she first saved him, bathed him..without knowing who he really is…and how he just fell in love with her unknowing how she even looks like! That’s just unbeatable. I am so excited when xiao yao even bothered to look pretty for Jing. After a long exhausting ceremony. She still chose pretty over comfy..yeayy

    • yea, her behaviors and reactions towards Jing are very different to when she’s with XL or ZX. It’s like a crush, 1st love. She got embarrassed and shy, confused and touched by his actions, felt pain and jealousy despite her denying it. Idk, I like Xiangliu as a character but I just don’t feel it between him and Xiaoyao, he certainly has feeling for her now but Xiaoyao towards him? if she reacts just a little like with Jing then I’d have second thought, but nope. That’s why I’ll stay on my ship and pray that XY won’t change her affection along the way.

    • Without having read the book my bets are that Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao are the couple. Despite my personal penchant for the Zhuan Xu, I know that he and Xiao Yao can never be together. Here are the reasons:

      Jing
      Hints in the text. He is always watching, waiting, of longing looks, repression, missed opportunities. His cautiousness is at odds with Xiao Yao’s passionate nature. It may have worked if Jing got braver and more forthright increasingly but after his initial bout of bravado in confessing first, he dilly dallies and asks her to wait 15 years for him. He has too much on his hands and mind to let go of his responsibilities to live the carefree life with Xiao Yao, so He is destined to lose her in the future.

      Zhuan Xu
      My favorite but I have a bad feeling that they can’t be together. Zhuan Xu’s ambitiousness will lead to tragedy either for himself or for his love for Xiao Yao. Xiao Yao will not betray Ah Nian, her sister whom is carrying a torch for Zhuan Xu. Xiao Yao is the only person Zhuan Xu trusts and the only girl he loves despite all his politicizing but alas, he will not be the only person she loves most deeply. In reality they are not a good match because she is carefree and he is ambitious. Although she may be smart enough to help him succeed, she will feel unhappy.

      Xiang Liu
      My initial impression up to now is affected by his violent nature. However if his mask as a nine headed monster peels off, and we understand the real agonized Xiang Liu, I may like him more. Xiao Liu and Xiang Liu are the true soul mates. They implicitly miss each other and think of the other party even as they were enemies. Even when she was with Jing, Xiao Yao cannot let go of Xiang Liu in her mind. A couple like them would crash and burn in their passion, but there is no doubt that they are meant for each other.

      • I always thought that XY thinks of and likes to be around Xiang Liu because he gives her that carefree escape and happiness that she always want.

        XY cares for Zhuan Xu because they have a history together and he understand where she comes from. Plus, he is her only relative on her mother side so she would do anything for him to support and keep him safe.

        However, I always feel like both of them, Xiang Liu and Zhuan Xu, can’t put her first like Jing can. Jing, even though he have responsibilities with his family, he would choose her happiness over everything.

        Xiang Liu has his responsibility with Shong Neng army and Zhuan Xu has his political goal to claim Xuan Xuan again. I don’t think they can let their responsibilities go like Jing can. I’m not saying that they wouldn’t, but they couldn’t like Jing can since he only have his family to lose…which I think he should because that is one messed up family. Remember the state he was in in the first few chapters?? That family is seriously have some issues!

      • Nope I’m sticking with Xiao You and Jing to the end! Though considering Once Promised they could end up married to other people

      • I’m going to have to agree with jjayee! While I feel that XL and XY have crazy chemistry together, he is still helping the Shen Nong clan after all, and his duty to Gong Gong doesn’t seem to be easy to shirk off, and I doubt that XY would accept someone who doesn’t put her first and foremost, seeing how she treated SQ after he failed her that one time.

        I agree that Jing has a lot of commitments as well, but one thing I found interesting was that I never found XY to be passionate at all. She’s always under this veneer of calm and control so she can cut people off easily. In fact, she appears even more cautious than Jing when attending to her feelings. So I won’t say that her cautious nature is at odds w Jing’s , more like w Jing’s cautiousness and burdens is he suitable to give XY what she rly wants?

        I ship jing and XY but ultimately the best fit for her right now i feel is ZX, because she seems to already treasure him so much based on the fact tt she seems to be willing to sacrifice herself without his promise to do the same for her?

  3. Thank you Cap K. I love you for this chapter. My Xiang Lu is finally back. I think the picture above truly represents how I imagined him to be. Ethereal, graceful and deadly. He is so adorable!!

    Zhuan Xu clearly has some manner of feelings for Xiao Yao. It seemed he started to get a little jealous that all the guys wanted to know how she looked. Plus, he felt somewhat angry at the ceremony. Ha! It’s because everybody saw how beautiful she was, you dufus! I loved Jing’s reaction and it conveyed a lot and yet it didn’t.

    I have a few questions though. When Xiang Lu came to see Xiao Yao and met Ah Nian on the way,did he already know that Xiao Yao was Xiao Lu and hence orchestrated the meeting? Or did he genuinely wanted to meet the new princess? If not then, at what point did he realise?

    I loved the part that she is afraid Xiang Lu will haunt her in her dreams and she genuinely misses him and gives him poison that she had prepared.

    I hope she doesn’t miss her meeting with Jing now as it may cause some misunderstanding between them in the future.

    This chapter and Xiang Lu made my day. I’m ravenous for more. Now off to read the chapter again. Love me some Xiang Lu.

    • I think Xiang Liu would have deduced it although it will be hard to guess wrong with the voodoo bug connecting them. Clues would be: (1) he is fairly certain Xiao Liu’s real form is a girl from being able to lure out the cute beast at their first meeting. (2) Xuan brought Xiao Liu to Gao Xing and Xiao Liu disappeared the same time as the Gao Xing Princess was declared found.

      Xiang Liu…. *sigh*…. He is already disadvantaged in being a general of a rebel army. Throw in the girl of his dreams telling him that his presence in her dreams would be a fate worse than death… I don’t think romance will be their outcome. Placing my money on Jing at t his moment. Having said so, I am amused he abandoned her in the middle of the sea. It is like payment for her not tuning in to his feelings.

      • I think that is how he deduced that Xiao Yao was Xiao Lu as the disappearance and appearance happened at the same time and plus when Xiang Lu came to ‘rescue’ Xiao Lu, he saw the whole party with her and she still said she was ok at the Court.

        Xiang Lu is really at a disadvantage here, but I’m sure the boy will play some other tricks on our heroine. I don’t know if anyone noticed but even if Xiao Yao was so afraid she will be eaten by sea creatures, she doesn’t get attacked? I think Xiang Lu was protecting her from the animals in the sea but wanted to teach her a lesson for deceiving him. Furthermore, they do have a tradition of throwing each other in the water.

        Even if she finds Jing’s company soothing and dresses up to see him, she likes him because he makes her comfortable. However it’s Xiang Lu she misses when she is lonely. Gah, so confusing!!!

        I think it’s apparent whose ship I really am.

    • “show up in a young girl’s dream” is a fancy way of saying she falls in love with him. She didn’t want to kiss him because she’s afraid she might fall in love with him.

  4. xiang liu’s finger retracted in that moment and xiao yao never knew how close she was to death”
    i dont get it, xiang liu said he can kill xuan yuan prince but not a gaoxing princess but what does that statement implies ” never knew she was close to death”
    i am conflicted with xiang liu’s feelings and intentions. he wants her to kiss him for air, he wants her to continue making poisons so he can see her every now and then but he wants to choke or slash her neck. hmmmm… i cannot really root for him but im soooo confused with xiao yao. her words doesnt match her actions. shd said she doesnt miss shi qi but was so excited to be in her best dress and look pretty to meet her. she said xiang liu is just a friend but save his image in her secret mirror.
    xiao yao yah, im so intrigue of u. ur d best heroine ever.

    • Hmm, from what I gathered I simply thought that XL was wary that XY had concocted more lies during their time together as Xiao Liu and Xiang Liu and given XY’s politically sensitive position as the Gao Xin Princess and blood ties with the Xuan Yuan kingdom – after all, he is on Shen Nong’s side (i.e fighting against Xuan Yuan) so perhaps he suspected that she had ulterior motives as Xiao liu and was going to kill her if she had lied about her intentions then and thus betrayed his trust?

      Just my two cents 🙂

      • This reply is coming so late but loved your thoughts on why XL wanted to kill XY. It’s quite apparent that trust is very important to XL. We can see how truly enraging & disappointing it was when he thought XY had ulterior motives. Especially since he genuinely cared about her. I noticed pl in the comments are soo fixated on XY being left to swim back that they’re missing out on what Tong Hua is trying to reveal to us in regards to their relat.

        XY clearly misses XL when he’s not around & when she’s sad, he’s the only person who can make her forget like that scene with her mom. Did XY think about Zhuan Xu or Jing in that moment to cheer herself up? No! Also, the mirror, that contains images of him. The one she took when they were playing at the bottom of the ocean. Tong Hua’s description of XL’s features that was seen in the mirror were so vivid! It makes it even more obvious that XY had feelings for XL. This wasn’t the first time she wanted to freeze a moment when she saw XL smiling. Despite dressing up to see Jing, look what she carried on her body? A satchel with poison that she especially made for XL! The way her heart ached to see him clearly upset. And finally, saying she’d rather risked death than to kiss him Bc she doesn’t want him to walk into her dreams. Saying this alrdy means she’s aware of her feelings for him & wants to prevent herself from falling too deep.

  5. Thank you, dear Koala! This is the first chapter I read the Chinese version first before English. It was so nice to fluidly go through the story in English and relive the pictures more clearly. I was only at Chinese chapter 7 yesterday and decided to skip to 13 as I was so anticipating 13. Still will catch up on the in between ones. Original version has beautiful prose that is much lost on me.

    Woo Hoo Xiang Liu is back! As usual so forceful, tense and eccentric, yet I feel it was poignant that this time he decided to let XY choose to kiss him instead of the previous time when he just matter of factly passed Xiao Liu air. He must be very disappointed that she refused till she fainted. In the end he did pass her air as he rushed her to the surface, however she was unconscious. He did not get the conscious kiss.

    I was puzzled why he got so mad at her to the point of almost slitting her throat about lying about her true form. Didn’t he already know she was a girl although he could not proven it? Was he frustrated at how big the lie was, that she was not just a unique girl from the a God race, but then most unique and awed one in terms of lineage and position?

    I wonder too if XY meant what she said about not wanting him in her dreams. Didn’t she miss him and even checked out his pics on her mirror..?!

    XY is unorthodox, yet worldly wise and savvy in managing Ah Nian. She chose to let her vent her frustrations sufficiently before dealing with her. Hope they can get along well in future.

    ZX is such a socialiser deftly hanging out with the in crowd. Jing, poor guy, is so conflicted in this chapter. He must look forward so much to seeing XY’s real face yet constrained by his baggage of fiancée. Talking about the fiancée, she is a suspicious one, wonder what her real intentions are.

    Great writing, I enjoy this so much. And happy to hang out here with other readers. I enjoy reading every comment.

    • Well she didn’t exactly say she didn’t want him to appear in her “dreams” :). She said it was a bad idea. But I think she has to be cautious because they are two different beings with different life paths (ones they couldn’t choose), a God and a demon so I think they both know where that road leads them.

  6. Thanks a ton ms. k for ur speedy updates…..I really find Xiang frustrating sometimes. I mean the way he is treating Xian Lou right from the beginning is just utterly cruel and for me it’s indigestible. As for jing, it’s time he should come back into the action. Ah Ning, the epitome of immature character with grayish tone, the one you get to see sometimes in cliched k-dramas, is the most annoying character at the date in this book……will keep refreshing ur blog (it’s added in my favorites) till I find a new chapter release 🙂

  7. oh god i want next chapter asap ……… i know u r working so hard to translate and i am so thankful……..but this novel is so addictive it …oh i wanna know will XY meet Jing? who’s gonna win her heart? uff all three guys are awesome ………. i am becomin despo for next chap…..ps thanks tons alot 🙂

  8. I dont understand the last part.

    Since Jing is waiting for Xiao Yao, he should have seen her walking or at least can sense her presence. If he can track Xiao Yao in the previous 2 incidents, why can’t he track XY this time around?

    • maybe he did track her and that willl be read in the next chapter when xiao yao reach the shore. im pretty sure she is exhausted and shi qi once again will carry her. swooonnn!

  9. Such a beautiful chapter. I missed Xiang liu. This is one of my most favorite among the chapters that is translated yet. Every leading men is in here.

  10. Omg thank you thank you for this chapter!!! It really made my day! 🙂 I have been waiting for another chapter and for my dear Xiang Liu to return and indeed he did not disappoint nor was the chapter short of perfection! Reading this in class I was smiling like a fool. How can I love you, Tong Hua, or Xiang Liu any more? Haha. Seriously though, thank you for your efforts!! 🙂 <3

    Moving onto the book..Here is what I think Xiang Liu meant when he asked why she lied and showed his claws or whatever. I think he does know she is at least a girl and a god (at the most since he did reference that her blood was special and if anyone knew she would be in trouble..can't remember his exact words) I think he was more upset then angry (or maybe both) when her identity was revealed. XL is into her no matter how ambiguous his words and actions may be but they know falling in love together is something that won't last for them, hence they keep saying "a fate worse than death." So to the point, I think XL is angry with her for being Xiao Yao not because he was "lied" to and wants her to just be Wen Xiao Liu; similar to how XY hated that Jing was no longer Shi Qi, but Tu Shan Jing. Hopefully my rambling made sense lol but Idk just my two cents 🙂 I could be wrong.

    I also looooove him holding her by the waist and pointing to his lips. Gaahhh!! This chapter is too cute for words! I believe XY unconsciously likes XL since she recorded their memories and watched it because she missed him. They have that "ai mei" going on lol I love that when she is with him she is free to be her true self. They have such a push and pull kind of relationship my heart don't know how to handle or prepare for what will happen.

    I get Ah Nian is hurt and jealous since she was always doted on since young, but what XL said to XY is true. I just hope she won't do anymore stupid stuff in the future.

    This chapter is by far my most favorite!! I can't wait for the next one. I hope XL won't go MIA again. Ms. Koala, again, I appreciate your hard work! Thank you! Have a wonderful day!

    • I catch that drift that she subconsciously feels for Xiang Liu too! I mean, really their interactions are wayy too intimate! It comes about quite natural even though shes ‘says’ she’s afraid of him, but I find their relationship quite honest. Team Xiang Liu fighting! <3

      • Yes, I agree!! When she’s not worrying about her being a girl and him being a guy, everything about them is so natural from their talks to not talking and just being together <3
        I also love where he stares into the darkness and she feels hurt looking at him becoming like that and the way she describes his body. It's as if she wants to be closer to him physically and emotionally (?) But he has this wall built around him. If you get close it seems like you'll get hurt.
        Lol maybe I'm reading too much into things, but their relationship isn't like hers and Jing's where it's clear as water and you don't have to read between the lines.
        But no matter the outcome I will board this ship still! <3

  11. I loved this chapter! I actually began reading the translations two days ago and I was completely hooked so I went ahead and finished the series in Chinese. But boy oh boy I’m on the Xiang Liu ship! He’s a fine piece of naughtyy demon 😉 I really love his interactions with Xiao Yao. I feel that Xiao Yao does feel at least a little something but is trying not to let him in, which is what I get from the “dream” talk. And my man Xiang Liu got a bit happy after hearing that!

  12. “Jing’s hand was on his knee, and it was tightly clenched into a fist as he sat there and never said a word.”

    ” Jing felt this awe inducing sight before him transformed into unease. It was like he wanted to grab onto something, but couldn’t grab onto anything.”

    Deja vu anyone?? My poor Jing, if you feel insecure that she is not good enough for you, you should try harder to prove you are worth it. Better not let her go to “someone better” like a certain someone we know in DMY. He totally deserves her!

    • I fear that at this rate, XY will not end up with anyone…

      Jing (Stability and Comfort)
      » Has a suspicious archer as a fiancee
      » Irresolute

      Xiang Liu (Freedom and Lack of Boredom)
      » Demon and his nature may prevent him from confessing directly (or in a traditional fashion)
      » Leader of Rebel Army

      Zhuan Xu (Shared Past and Understanding)
      » Too Ambitious
      » Too close as a cousin/brother for XY to notice or reciprocate

      • eventhough im on shi~qi /xiao yao ship, i think all three male leads are so complicated for her. In the end she might be the next Royal MOTHER! Guarding and taking care of Jade Mountain. such a heartache! huhuhu

  13. “Xiang Liu silently stared out at the pitch black sky, unclear what was on his mind, but his entire body was like the edge of the sharpest sword blade, so sharp that no one could get close.

    Xiao Yao didn’t know why – she was floating on the surface but she felt like she was sinking into the depths. ”

    Questions:
    1. Were they feeling the each other’s?
    2. Was XL sad because jealous that XY did not consider romantic feeling for him? Or like RNA said that XL saw Chi You resemblance in her that made him sad?

    • my cent on the first question, yes i guess so they were feeling each other, thanks to the lovers bug. but then when xiao yao was feeling the pain of air how come xiang liu can still smile and point to his lips. shouldnt he be in pain too like it was his last breath, he must have a high tolerance for pain or as he implicitly says it doesnt really make a difference sincd he has nine lives and nine heads. oooojjh scary demon, i can never board this ship, cant imagine his true form.

  14. Oooooh, Xiang Liu is back!!!
    I love that bastard. That’s my ship.
    And I find his encounter with Xiao Yao very very smexy…
    Just why, why is she refusing to let him in her dreams??? ;–)

    But seriously, I think they are both aware of their attraction and Xiao Yao is trying to resist… perhaps fearing that their passion would ruin them (not mentioning the probably improper relationship of the high profile emperor’s daughter and a daemon). Plus she gave that 15yrs promise.

  15. So as usual, I always read the chapter twice partly because it’s distract me from waiting for the next chapter, but also I always pick up something I haven’t before. Anyone picked up some possible love interest b/w Jing’s twin, Hou, and Yi Yang, Jing’s fiancé?? It sounds like Hou is jealous of Jing because of Yi Yang the way he “gulped” down his wine haha. This is interesting if it does happens!

    • Yes, I got that vibe that those two might be into each other when she mentioned how nice it would be to settle in that lovely place with one’s other half, followed by Hou’s reaction. Might be she’s clinging to Jing for some ulterior political motive, and it might even be in cahoots with Hou!

  16. Xiang Liu, Xiang Liu, what to do with you? Why do I love you this much? I think I just have a thing for white haired demons. I was equally in love with Sesshomaru in Inuyasha, then in love with Tomoe in Kamisama Hajimashita. There is just something so darn attractive about a soft hearted white haired demon.

    Anyways, here is my little two cents about Xiao Yao’s scene with Xiang Liu. I think Xiang Liu figured out Xiao Yao’s identity before he came to visit her. I also believed that he was LIVID with her. Moreover, I think because he liked her so much, that this does feel more of a betrayal than anything, along with his naturally suspicious character, he was furious. Maybe, he was furious with himself for getting fooled and trapping in his feelings. So when he said, “you are a very good liar” I think he was mocking himself too.

    Then, there is the political aspect of it. He has the granddaughter of the Yellow Emperor at hand. He also knows that Xiao Yao is very loyal to Zhuan Xu based on the way she tried to save him. I am not sure if he knows of Zhuan Xu’s ambition, but the fact is just by natural birthright, they are on opposing teams. When he decided not to kill Xiao Yao (probably because she adorably told the truth), he became conflicted about their fates, his feelings, and her position. It’s great angst really.

    What is really cute to me was the fact how his mood totally lifted when Xiao Yao said the pills were especially made for him. To Xiang Liu, that’s practically a love gift.It is a confession that she has been thinking about him. I think that is why he ask her to keep sending him poisons. He is just happy that Xiao Yao has him on her mind. When he said he forgive her for lying, that came with such acceptance, Xiao Yao will probably never know. I think it also came with resignation, when Xiang Liu decided not to kill Xiao Yao, he decided to accept Xiao Yao regardless of their positions. We all have to remember that Xiang Liu is a demon. Demons are passionate by nature.

    This is why I love this scene so much. It is the things that are unsaid. When Xiao Yao said that he was not suitable to walk into a young girl’s dream, it showed the rational side of her. She will not let her passion subdue her like her parents (mostly mother). But for Xiang Liu, her words were also a reminder, she is also a dream that he shouldn’t allow himself to dream. When he laughed, I actually hurt. I might be reading too much into it.

    Sigh, just to say, I’m not on a ship yet. Or better yet, I am on all three ship! I just want to highlight how beautiful this scene was for me.

    • Your analysis of that scene is SPOT ON. Perfect perfect reading between the lines between Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao. I try not to comment too much because I think readers should try to form their own interpretations and my offering too much analysis could be leading (esp since I have the luxury of reading the entire book). But your read of this scene was exactly my read when I first read chapter 13 (without reading more). He was FURIOUS with her for the lying, not because he didn’t know she was lying from the beginning when they met, but because the extent of her lies was so devastating for them. If she told him that she was the Gao Xing Princess, he would have never let himself fall for her. Not in a million billion years. Not for his sake, but for her sake. Jing says exactly what he means to Xiao Yao, Xiang Liu doesn’t because he can’t afford to, so his interactions with Xiao Yao are always so much more than meets the eye.

      • I don’t buy the fact he can’t afford to, he has a mouth and isn’t he a risk-taker 9-headed demon?

      • I agree that he could have if he wanted too. Xiang liu is like a watered down version of Qiyou. I loved Qiyou to death and his infinite passion and devil may care attitude. Maybe I’m reading LYF right after OP but it made me more appreciative of QiYou and his all out passionate love for Ah Heng. Which is why I know why I could never board this ship.

        But I also agree that Xiao Yao feels more for him than just a friend…it’s just her pragmatic nature taking lead. It is not just with XiangLiu …Jing is also on the receiving end of this.

    • Beautiful analysis, thanks for illuminating the info between Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao as I was a bit confused by the backstory, the political alliances. Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao’s interactions are multi layered and full of depth.
      Not to forget they are irrevocably and intrinsically linked by the pair of bugs : )

    • Might I also add to your analysis, (and pardon me as I can’t quote word for word since I am writing this based on mere memories at my workplace XDD) Xiang Liu was also probably mad that Xiao Yao may have lied about the part which she understands loneliness. One reason Xiang liu feels they are both connected because she had said those touching words of years of torture and having to depend on her own and not trusting others. She has pointed out Xiang Liu’s own situation, and it made him feel like she could really understand his own pain. So he is mad because there is a chance she was just patronizing/mocking him. He retracted his claws when he is sure that she was true to her heart that time and was so cute while at that.

  17. Atm, I think it’s going to be either XL or Jing. Between ZX and her is more like siblings, even ZX may feel otherwise. While it’s quiet obvious she’s having a crush on Jing, her behavior when he asks her out is typical and telling. But, her not meeting him but XL instead is like a sign to me. Like XY might have feeling for Jing first but they’re not meant to be, because of circumstances and whatnot, then along the way she realizes she likes someone else. This happens all the time in dramas. Plus there’s that 15yrs promise, I’d like to think that XY couldn’t kiss XL cause she thought of Jing and their promise, that she’d wait for him by not letting another man in her heart. But damn again it’s obvious that something is gonna happen during those 15yrs and that Jing won’t make it to return to be Shiqi argh As much as I love Jing, if he continues the way he is(not that I don’t like it, he’s perfect to me), XY would slip through his fingers without him being able to do anything 🙁 But. But before it happens I’ll just continue to keep hoping.
    Again, thank Koala for translating <3

  18. Chapter 13 is a dense chapter and I can say that there are lines spoken in this chapter by characters that actually foreshadow the ending. This chapter is part of the first volume, and Tong Hua hadn’t yet released volume 2 and 3 of the novel. I’m pretty certain in hindsight she had her entire novel mapped out in advance because reading this chapter after reading the entire novel is like an “ah ha!” lightbulb moment of really seeing how Tong Hua wanted to present Xiao Yao’s relationship with all three male leads, and how it was all going to end eventually.

    • Hi Koala, hope I’m not spoiling anything, if I do, just delete it bah! When I read this chapter, I was so sure she was going to pair so-and-so (you know who) because the chemistry was really rocketing to the heavens. I can’t believe she just did a major U turn like that. -.-

      • She loves all three men, I never think it’s weird that she literally will be loving them throughout the novel. I don’t see it as a U-turn when she goes from spending time with one to spending time with another and on and on.

      • I already read all 3 books and I must say XY never takes U-turn. All 3 have special places in her heart. But she is truly loyal when she makes up her mind. That’s who she is. She will not leave the person she loves unless that person leaves her first..because the past experiences she had when her mom and everyone she loves “abandon” her and she had to suffer through the loneliness.. so its not a u-turn.

      • oh no! That doesn’t bode well for my ship. If chapter 13 will foreshadow the ending then I can sort of speculate what will happen next. Jing will keep waiting and Xiang Liu will never admit his feelings and Zhuan Xu will let Xiao Yao chose whomever she wants so she will end up with him.
        Oh please let me be wrong. I finally anchored my ship. Xiang Liu is just awesome in this chapter.
        I’m loving this book so much and waiting impatiently eagerly for the next chapter. I don’t know how I’ll manage to wait for the next few months and what I’ll do if my ship sinks.

        Go Team Xiang Liu!

  19. I’m usually a silent reader but I just wanted to let you know that you’re the best. Thank you so much for taking the time out to do this for us and I’m happy to be in this amazing experience, to read everyone’s comments, to anticipate every chapter, to do a little dance whenever a new chapter’s been posted. THANK YOU!<3

  20. Xiang is back with a lot of pent-up emotions. You red-hot beast. Zhuan the politician and matchmaker. And Shi the consummate love. Is he still waiting for her by the cliffs or wherever they agreed to meet?

    Thanks for the chapter!

  21. I’m going to be stupid right now and will believe that Xiang Liu find out Xiao Liu as Xiao Yao because of her exquisite dress being too damn tight!

  22. Yeah, Xiang Liu is back!
    And XY missed hinm, too. She said doesn’t dwell in the past, yet she recorded him twice in the mirrow (and not Jing) means a lot. Maybe she doesn’t know that she feels more for him.
    Thank you for this chapter Ms Koala!

  23. Hello,
    I love reading about this story. Is there any way to purchase the story in English? I’m not to familiar with the background of the author, and I see that you are recapping the book, but I would love to read this myself (in english that is), please help. Thank You!

    • i did an e~book with koalas translation of yung zhung ge, back then i didnt have a smart mobile and only has a nook. i was crazy with those novels. and wants to reread them every now and then. i also scour all bookstores and amazon but they dont have english translations on all of tonghua’s novels. I copied every chapter in word file and use caliber to convert it to epub file. it works and i didnt share to anyone else coz im afraid it might illegal or some infringement rights violation. i only did it for my own read. if u desperately one to have a book or e~book in that respect then u can do the same. jiao~yo!

      • correction: if u desperately want to have one…

        coz i’m afraid it might be illegal….

  24. Thank you for translating! You really are the best!! 🙂

    I have sunk so deep into this story I can’t hardly think of anything else at all. I really love Jing so much and was so sad when his meeting with Xao Yao was interrupted, however his scene with Xiang Liu was just something else. All alone in the dark ocean surrounded by blackness. I can’t get it out of my head. He is so volatile and unpredictable and yet somehow so fascinating and weirdly romantic. I can’t even bear it and am just praying for a happy ending that makes me feel good……. I am so nervous though and already feel torn!!
    Keep up the hard work Mrs Koala!! We all appreciate it so much 🙂

  25. Aaawww! Jing didn’t get to see her! *pouts* Why can’t my 2 lovebirds catch a break, sigh. Now he’ll think she didn’t want to see him breaking his heart.

    I honestly don’t get Xiang Liu, what was he trying to prove? I can never get behind this ship as its very dysfunctional. Why put her through that? Why put her through the pain of almost drowning and loosing consciousness! Just for a kiss, what kind of idiotic thinking is this? I get that they are gods and demons and are capable of withstanding incredible pain but this isn’t normal, its very disturbing and dysfunctional. I don’t find anything sexy about it.

    If Jing and Xiao Yao ship sinks, and she doesn’t end up with Zhuan Xu, I would prefer she ends up with anyone else (even Ru So) than with Xiang Liu.

    • You really do dislike Xiang Liu. LOL.
      I know you find it dysfunctional but don’t you think Xiao Yao is a bit kooky too? She makes poisons for Xiang Liu and gives it to him to cheer him up? She keeps threatening him left and right and in fact eggs him on for more abuse.

      The almost drowning Xiao Yao can be intepreted in many way. Firstly he wanted to see how she will react to the danger. Secondly, he wanted to see if she will act like the same old Xiao Lu he knew who would not hesitate to ‘kiss’ him. Thirdly, he was livid with her for lying to him, so of course he wanted to torment her a little which obviously is what you find disturbing.

      • Those are not valid reasons to almost drown someone and it wasn’t just tormenting her a little. He held her down in the water even though she was running out of breath. He wanted to force her to kiss him for air which she didn’t want to do. He almost considered killing her and then left her in the middle of the ocean after she almost drowned with zero powers. She hardly had enough energy to make it to show. I don’t find that sexy or intriguing and its eerily similar to domestic violence. But some do so different strokes for different folks *Kanye shrug*
        She is kooky but its because of her life experiences. She was tortured for 30 years and sought after for 20 years before that. She has zero powers and can’t fight him head-to-head. Life has taught if you can’t beat a more powerful adversary at the start you have to wait for an opening.

        I don’t hate Xiang Liu, I try to give him chances but he keeps on physically hurting Xiao Yao almost everytime they are together. I just can’t with that. She has already gone through so much already.

      • I agree with the analyses! While reading Tong Hua’s novel, I realize I alwys have to re-read some of the passages to not missed any hints or another layer of meaning. The way Xiao Yao thinks of Xiang Liu when she misses him or when she’s feeling sad. I find it amusing when some of Jing’s shippers say that Xiao Yao loved Jing first when in the earlier chapters, it was so obvious Xiang liu was in her heart long before she knew.

        In this chp, when Tong Hua mentioned Xiao Yao’s mirror, she used the word ‘precious mirror’ when describing XY looking through the images of Xiang liu. We see that there were not 1 but 2 memories of him. She didn’t use it to record Jing or anyone else at that. Her father knew when he asked her if ‘the person in the mirror is worthy of her missing him forever?’ . 🙁 It’s amazing how some readers (Jing supporters) easily dismissed Xiao Yao making poison & having only XL’s images in her mirror as merely nothing.

    • @Shiku,

      Since I’ve read all the books alrdy & have read nearly all the comments on every chapter. I can say with absolute certainty that you were interpreting Xiang Liu’s character at face value & never deeper than what Tong Hua intended. Perhaps it was Bc of your love for another character. You also didn’t seem to understand Xiao Yao’s character & see that she also enjoys provoking Xiang Liu & secretly thinks it’s thrilling to see how he reacts to certain things she says or does. The way Tong Hua writes her novel, it makes you think multiple layers of what she’s trying to convey. Maybe try to not read the novel with a modern lens when Tong Hua’s novel is a fantasy genre.

      Lastly, you don’t seem to comprehend that from Xiang Liu & Zhuan Xu’s perspective, Xiao Yao’s character was also very suspicious from the very beginning. She was clearly not who she seemed to be. She was a girl clearly dressed as a man when Xiang liu first met her. She claimed to be weak but could poison his condor. The fact that he was a general protecting the lives of many soldiers, it was alrdy against his nature not to kill her & trusted her words. With Zhuan Xu, Xiao Yao once tried to help Xiang liu kill him. Hence, in his eyes, she was untrustworthy & he didn’t think it was cruel to break her legs.

  26. I love Xiang Lu. I love the fact that his interaction with Xiao Yao always has double meaning. TQ for the translation, I think reading the Chinese words from the author must be fun and to understand all the hidden linings. Haha, I love characters like that, all of them are, but Xiang liu captures me. I like to decipher a character rather than being described to you in details and no more.

    Maybe I’m wrong but while Jing and Zhuan Xu was mesmerized by Xiao Yao’s beauty, Xiang Lu doesn’t seem surprised, he’s more concern on who she is (her background) than her looks. The fact he treats her the same whether she has a male or female body is soo…..I just love that, really love. And she keeps giving him poison. They’re both ‘dysfunctional’ towards each other haha. It’s both give and take, it’s not rational (who’d be willing to be roughly treated like XY and who wants to be poison??). Nevertheless it’s sweet as I think their relationship is not to be understood by others (logical mind), it’s enough if they understand each other. Ironically, I think they’re so carefree together, they can be who they are, but at the same time it’s also the most dreamlike/fantasy situation haha.

    Can’t wait for the next chapeter ><

    • None of them starts loving her after seeing her true form. So I don’t think they are just attracted to her beauty. At most maybe ZhuanXu but thats probably because to him… he always thought of her as a sister but that moment reminds him that she’s also a woman, and a very desirable one.

  27. I know you shouldn’t have a favourite because these men are exceptional with their own qualities. But I’m going to confess that I absolutely adore Xiang Lu.

    Personally I would marry someone like Jing in real life, and Zhuan Xu would make a great ally and business partner. As for Xiang Lu, he would scare the living daylights out of me. But for Xiao Yu – he’s just wonderful for her. Although I can’t seen them having HEA I really enjoy their interactions.

    I really love these three dimensional characters. I mean no-one is eevviilll or bad in the strictest sense. We’re complex creatures with all our human failings. We want to make the right choices but sometime our circumstances compel us to do the complete opposite.

    What a wonderful piece of work.

  28. I’m annoyed that XY didn’t get to see Jing all dressed up! Am I being too shallow? 😛

    That aside, I can totally see how each male lead can potentially be the end game for XY. The dynamics are all different, but the story can go any way. I’m on the Jing ship, though experience tells me that the easier way out (i.e., the first crush, Jing, who is willing to give up many things for XY) usually don’t get followed through. XL’s the typical bad boy option while ZX is the soulmate one. I hope I’m proven wrong here, because Jing is such a lovely character!

  29. He is way too sick for me to feel like shipping him with anyone :/ all those magic spells and 9 heads but nothing to get therapy or heal his sick mind with…

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