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Lost You Forever Chapter 21: Embracing in Life, Following in Death — 85 Comments

  1. Fair word of warning taken!!! Thank you Unni, i have been waiting for too long, now it’s time! Hehe.
    No idea what to expect after reading the warning, so here goes. Off to read. Thanks again ckoala, love ya!!!

  2. I’m still holding my breath, pouring cold water on my face to stop my tooth from falling off,. Such intensity!! :O
    I enjoyed with all my anxious aching heart.

    Thankyou for the chapter.

  3. Those of you who has hone to read, my wish for you to come return in one piece. I barely survive. Enjoy the fight but keep your armour on, I guess we’ll be up against more and more intense scene. 🙂

  4. Thank you so much for this awesomeness! This chapter was so intense and heart-breaking. Especially jing *tears* And the lyrics for one song keep repeating in my mind ‘Say something, I’m giving up on you. And I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you. Any anywhere I would’ve followed you.’

  5. Thank You.. love this chapter.. how I love about all 3 men sensed the danger right away and did not wait to rush to found XY.. they love her. I can’t wait the next chapter..

  6. Yikes, this was INTENSE! But I love how there are more cards on the table now, and more people are starting to put things together — this event can’t but act as a catalyst for some major events, I’m sure!

  7. Honestly, this is the first time I’ve really felt for Jing, he’s just so not my ship. I wonder if his Grandmother would be willing to break the engagement if she new the disgust FFYY felt and showed towards Jing.

  8. This chapter made me cry buckets of tears but it’s really beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Jing’s love and devotion is really amazing! How can’t anyone be moved by this. I want my own Jing! hahaha!

    • Not to belittle what jing did—but I believe if the other two guys had arrived before Jing Both of them would have done the same thing

      • Yes… but I believe the other two guys will have a will to stay awake and continue living… after protecting her from the flames… Jing on the other hand… believe has no will to live on without Xiao Yao.. That made me cry for Jing…

      • You are right! However I really like the purity and simplicity of Jing’s love towards Xiao Yao. I like it that his first priority will always be the princess and all other things doesn’t matter. It sounds unpractical but it’s really romantic and touching as well. 🙂

      • @Trekkie remember Xiang Liu is connected to Xiao Yao through the bug so theoretically if she died he would too. 🙁

  9. I totally forgot last chapter came after this one. Makes me appreciate last chapter more of their fleeting happiness.

  10. Best chapter so far!!! Thanks so much!! OMG so excited for the next one!

    Xiao Yao is so lucky to have these people in her life who care about her.
    I really like Jing and I’ll be happy if she ends up with him because he truly loves her (this chapter has done it for me) but my favorite will always be Xiang Liu… now he has her for some years, apparently! What going to happen?? I bet they will bond even more. Can’t wait! 😀

    • Lol you

      Anw, thanks for the tidbits on Qi Yo/A Heng/Once Promised 😀
      I want to ask you, what is the difference between the nature and the general perceptions of Qi Yo, Xiang Liu, Ah Bi and Lie Yang? I’m kinda interested in the beast/demon probably cause there are not many of them.

      • Hi @lea kekeke.

        Not sure if I am able to answer your curiosity correctly. But here’s my humble take.

        Chi You (Qi Yo) is on another level from Xiang Liu, Ah Bi & Lie Yang. The latter are demons (clearly indicated by the author), but for Qi Yo, he is a beast born on the godly planes, so I call him a godly beast. Kinda like a unicorn, a phoenix, a dragon or Qilin and the likes, you know? He is born in a form of non-human, but he can attain the human form after enlightenment (or enough power in-take). They usually exhibit a higher level of spirituality and their existence are usually rare.

        A demon will be a serpent, a ghoul, a faun etc. Their births are not generally acceptable by the godly beings for some reason, probably because they take a longer time to attain enlightenment and are usually aggressive in nature (more animal-like with low spirituality). So generally they are of lower births in the eyes of gods. They can, however attain human-forms after enough power in-take, cue Lie Yang and Ah Bi who lived on Jade Mountain for a long long time, especially with Lie Yang spending a few good hundred of years in that powerful yet strange ‘valley of death’ (I can’t remember the name).

        In fact, the hierarchy perception will be, in the eyes of gods, humans and demons are lower beings than them; but in the eyes of demons, humans are the lower beings. We are so pathetic. LOL.

      • @Nekoi hey, thank you for answering 😀
        Yeah, it’s pretty obvious demons are seen lesser than gods in this novel. Power and family background is the key.

        Lol, human doesn’t even make significant roles. This universe is quite different, yet similar than the ones I see in some drama.

  11. What an intense chapter, like, how could she possibly die? I know that she is not dead yet but how could such a thing happen to her, when nobody is there to protect her. A part of me is wishing for her to get her powers back once she awaken. I wonder how Shang liu will survive her.

    • Yeah, i thought of that when i read the chapter, i mean she isn’t dead, bcos if she does then the story ends but XY has definitely GOT to get her powers back. With so much danger around her now, i don’t think she can remain god-powerless. These three guys love her but they won’t always be around to protect her like last time. That Tan Mu is going to get it.
      Anyway, if she does get her powers back, i hope she comes back really stong. Just wishful thinking though, book’s already written, so there ain’t no altering it.
      But can someone give a spoiler please, did she get her powers back?
      Why did Qi Yo kill so much people? Am curious!

      • Erm… Xiao Yao has no real powers to begin with, hahaha.
        And
        [SPOILER]

        she’s gonna have a sexy good time, if that’s what you wanna hear. LOL.

      • Oh nekoi, ur so freaking funny. Sexy good time? Lol. I can just imagine xiang liu letting his emotions show without thinking. He’s been such a great guy, loving her but in his own devil-may-care way. So fabulous.
        So really looking forward to the sexy good times, nekoi, so so much hahahahha,

        i think she did have powers, if i remember correctly she lost them when that nine-tailed dude stripped her of it when she was held prisoner and as a kid zhuan xu never could beat her in a fight.

      • @kimara oh yah she had power when she was young, though not much of it. Anyway once powers are stripped they are gone gone goner. 🙂

  12. Thank you so much for the new translation. Can’t wait for next chapter since it’s Ms. Koala’s personal favorite. Happy reading everyone =)

  13. Poor poor Jing, he no longer wants to live if Xiao Yao really dies. Love it Tong Hua’s world could really be intense, afterall, they live for a long long time and it could really be hard to live without your reason of living. Well, if it happened on modern times, it would be kind of corny to hear that someone no longer wants to live just because your loved one died but here on Lost You Forever world, dying with the one you love does not sound corny at all, its legit, understandable and kind of romantic. I heart for Jing in this chapter. I can’t wait to read the next chapter to see what Xiang Liu can do to stop Xiao Yan from dying.

  14. Koala, thanks a million!! The image you chose for this chapter is just perfect! I feel the sadness just by looking at the image. Jing’s back, his long hair that XY loves so much, and with XY in his arms and the blood in the white snow…

    So this is the 3rd time Jing found XY and saved her? First when she was with Xiangliu at the forest, then 2nd when she’s captured by Xuan..and this time!

    I just love how tonghua portrayed the love of her 3 leading men in this chapter in chronological order :

    1. Jing – after the accident,he pretty much find his life worth living only for XY, to the extend that He is willing to die for her.

    2.ZX – he would use all the power and connection that he has to protect XY. He cannot die for her even if he is willing to.. bcause of his loads, ambition and responsibilities.

    3. XL – he is like a strong and silent bodyguard..will show up when XY is in danger and save her, without admitting his love and just be content when XY is save and happy.

  15. This chapter is just so intense. My heart is beating so fast! Absolutely wonderful that all 3 men immediately came to her rescue with no other thoughts when they sensed something was wrong. Jing, oh Jing…such devotion!

  16. Thanks Captain K! Wow that was intense. It’s a very good thing the bug was transferred to XL.

    Squeal!!!!! Can’t wait for the next chapter! How is our superhero XL going to save our princess!

  17. I can’t thank you enough Koala! You really are a goddess 🙂 really appreciate all your hardwork!!

    This chapter was definitely worth the wait. I can’t believe how strong Xiao Yao can still be when she is on the verge of death. Death itself probably doesn’t scare her as much as lonliness does. I know she can’t and won’t die since she is our protagonist so I hope Xiao Yao fight and continue on living.
    I love how this chapter shows how much each of our male leads love her. They all have their own ways of being connected to her and loving and protecting her that I just can’t. I wish Jing would have taken her out of that maze, but he was probably too worried and his only thoughts were to keep her alive so I can’t be mad at him. Xiang Liu and Zhuan Xu are so calm, but we know Xiao Yao is everything to them so they are just as worried as Jing. I am looking forward to Xiang Liu healing Xiao Yao. ~

  18. OHHHHHHHHH. MMMMMYYY, FULL PACK ACTION , my heart , my heart can’t stop it’s drum beats. XY , aaaaaaaaahhh !

    My JING , huhuhuhu!
    Why take it to literal ” Till Death Do Us Part!
    i heart u jing, your the real saviour! First Aid! 911

    aaahhhh, im soooo torn , what is this, …..aaahhhh
    save d princess xiang liu, i beg of you so my jing will also be saved.
    saved them demon, be a demon angel in our eyes. huhuhu!

  19. Omfg!!!!!! Koala you have send my excitement sky rocketing high! I wasn’t expecting this much intensity within one chapter, I mean you did give us a warning but still. I feel like I’m at a cliff hanger and my heart is going to burst out of my chest waiting for you to post up the next chapter. Lol thank you so much, I know I can always count on you cause your the best 🙂 Having the love of all 3 men for her, oh how I wish it was me 😛 don’t keep me waiting too long koala I just might just Die Lol. keep up the awesomeness work!!!! I love you lots!!!! I <3 Xiang Liu

  20. Omg omg only in writing can a man be soo perfect. Thus novel just gets better and better with every chapter. I hope they make this into a drama soon … it’ll be was say you bigger than BBJX!!

    • I totally agree that only in a novel and in drama as well can we find a perfect man! That is the reason why we read novels and watch drama. LOL!

  21. Thank you, Koala! (= And thank you for the fair warning. Everything happened so fast for Xiao Yao! I was cringing and imagining how painful it must’ve been for her. Her entire body was sliced! And Xiang Liu.. I guess he can tolerate pain really well, but the greatest pain was probably in his heart. Jing expressed his pain well. He had a few soul gutwrenching screams. Xiao Yao was the one who saved his heart at the beginning. It makes very much sense that he would want to die with her. What else does he have to live for? She was his only hope and light in this world. As for Zhuan Xu, how hard it must’ve been for him to keep calm, think, and make decisions when he is tearing up inside. Did he even cry? He would never let anyone see him cry except for Xiao Yao. )= At least I know she survives, otherwise, there will not be a story anymore, but wahhh, it hurts me to see her in pain! I guess Xiang Liu can give her one of his nine-lives. =P Heh. Since he’s always drinking her blood, maybe it’s time for him to feed her his blood, but not sure how much healing his blood might have compared to hers.

    • You made me realize about the voodoo bug, how and did XL feel XY’s pain (and do nothing about it at first) or did he can only sense that her life is slipping away

      • @lea I think that, due to restrictions of writing every time at the same time, I do believe that Xiang Liu acted once he knows the pain of the heart (or rather from the bug) was life threatening instead of the usual ‘heart pain’ that Xiao Yao gives when she looks at Jing.

      • @lea: no, I strongly believe that Xiang Liu reacted with the first sign of fear or pain because he also senses things by instinct just like Xiao Yao’s animal instinct warned her that something was wrong and she might be in danger. Jing and Zhuan Xu also acted on instinct when they felt something was wrong. And when she did get hurt, I’m sure Xiang Liu can differentiate between a warning or a life-threatening pain. How they attacked and injured her as well was meant to kill and she was fighting hard against them using up all her energy. I only meant that although he can feel Xiao Yao’s pain, he probably, like Jing, had the most pain in his heart for fear that Xiao Yao is about to die and he won’t be able to get there on time.

      • @nekoi yeah. @xiaoyi I know 😀
        I’m interested in knowing XL’s treshold of pain lol probably because he is a powerful demon with nine-lives, and he always hide it well so it’s ‘easy’ to think he’s not hurt of/by anything. Although I think we will see in future if this is true :p

    • Okay so everyone talking about this voodoo bug..Xiang Liu always threatens about wanting to test the theory if Xiao died he would too right? So maybe the instant she was hurt and her heartbeat/rate was starting to decrease he could feel himself starting to slip away too? Idk. I’m not so well articulate lol so hopefully y’all get my point? xD Jing may choose to die and follow Xiao Yao, but being connected to Xiao Yao (if the theory is true) then Xiang Liu would inevitably die too. 🙁

      • If XY dies, XL’d probably live as he still has 8-lives, but if XL dies with the voodoo still in both of them, XY will die.
        Is it painful for him to lose his life? Is it the same as losing one’s power? Curious curious 😀

      • No, I don’t think XL will die. I don’t really think their life force is linked in such a way. If so, I sincerely doubt XL would want to risk XY dying if he dies since he is after all the number one wanted person in the world (unless he has a way to remove the bug from himself when he’s close to death?) Also, if XL was slipping away while XY was dying then I don’t think he’ll have the strength to be able to pass all of Zhuan Xu’s guard and use his power to speak only to Zhuan Xu when he arrived at Sheng Nong Mtn. Maybe it’ll be that both bugs will die but not the person? However this is just my theory. After all XL is not your normal kind of demon. Also so far, whenever XL is really injured, XY can’t feel that. But it could be that he keeps the bug under control really well so she doesn’t know?

      • Yeah I did think of the nine lives, but was just taking into considerstion of Xiang Liu’s testing theory lol but I don’t think Xiao Yao will die if Xiang Liu does though ? I mean only he can feel her pain, but she can’t feel him…right? I know she can sense him since their heart and soul is literally one, but I still don’t think she would die if he did.

      • @gemini93 don’t think you’ve finished the books correct? But anyways, Xiang Liu wouldn’t do the things he will be doing if he and Xiao Yao weren’t linked by their live lines. The bugs are the real deal.

        His testing theory speech to Xiao Yao carries more of a teasing and flirting connotation, don’t you think? He knows what is in store, and doesn’t want Xiao Yao to risk to find out.

      • @nekoi haha yes I know it is more of him teasing, but I would assume that it holds some truth too that if she did he could possibly die too. However, since he is nine lives Xiang Liu he would probably only lose one life as opposed to dying completely.
        & I agree that the bug is the reason for their interactions and whatnot, but each of the male lead has their own sort of connection too as to why they do what they do for Xiao Yao. 🙂 Oh and I have not finished since I can’t read a lick of Chinese xD

  22. Thank you Koala 😀

    What happened to Xiao Yao is so so bad but I can’t help being sorry to her as I’m more interested in how the 3 male leads handled this situation. This chapter also made me realize the things I like about Zhuan Xu are the things I disliked about him.
    I love that confrontation (or convo lol) scene between Xiang Liu and ZX. They’re so attractive at that point where they can remain calm after such devastating event, but again XL proves a point to me <3. I know little bits but still wonder to what extent he experienced that his thoughts are like that. When he said "So this is why everyone wants power", I'm ladened with profound sadness.
    I adore Jing as XY's Ye Shi Qi, and very much attracted to ZX and XL as character/person. Ok, maybe XL a lot more :p

  23. Thanks for the awesome awesome translation, Ms Koala! Appreciate your amazing effort and share this lovely story with us..

    My heart goes out to Jing… I hope Jing’s grandmother will approve to end his engagement with YY. He is a perfect husband material!! Now that XY will spend more time with XL in the next chapters, I believe I would feel guilty to have a change of heart…

  24. This chapter really is intense! Can’t wait for the next chapter to come! Xiao Yao you can’t die! :'( You too Shi Yi!

  25. The picture you put up fit this chapter SOOO well!~ Except the umbrella. I don’t know why but the New Year’s Eve seem to be a symbolic meaning for a new change is going to happen and now we know! Will this assassination reveal Xiao Yao’s real birth!? Please don’t let anyone come kill her anymore! D: The description of Qi Yo’s victims killing Xiao Yao is too gruesome!

  26. Such a beautiful story…the relationship conflicts iobligated and caused by their love ones. But evryone is charging forward aiming for their goals and not willing to undo the knots. So much love, lost and pain.

  27. Omo, omo… such an intensive chapter… from the innocent lazy days into assassination… I couldn’t believe that they would manage to kill Xiao Yao, I was convinced that she would beat them with her wit and survival insticts… or that somebody would come to rescue her IN TIME… but this… I was shocked… so hard… My heart bled for Xiao Yao…

    Though… I have this pervert joy that now she will spend days or years or even tens of years with darling Xiang Liu… ;–)

  28. Why did Qi Yo kill so many people.

    My memories are actually jumbled up, as I’m not as obsessed with Once Promised as much as Lost You Forever.

    I think he started to kill so many people especially because of Ah Heng’s 1st death, and the fact that he had promised to help the new Flame Emperor with his empire, overturning old rules to welcome the new age, which was not really acceptable with many of the nobles in Sheng Nong. It’s like a piece of stick with two ends, with one end having frayed & split, so there were actually many gangs standing on different ends. If the Flame Emperor (on the perfect end of the stick) wanted to unite the kingdom, he had no choice but to kill all those who oppose him, and Qi Yo had the honor of carrying this out (i.e by chopping off the frayed end).

    Correct?

  29. So after all my heart breaking outburts here are some of things im wandering.
    Huo is jing’s half brother, meaning they share the same father’s blood , so how come only jing has the nine tailed fox 6th sense power.

    it reads that the xy realized the creator of the maze is powerful and not just one persons doing, a group of gods who wanted her dead. i was suspecting xing yue coz of her cold demeanor when she said ” XY IS DEAD”

    there was at least a lighthearted scene when the grandmadam realize everything that she wanted to SMACK jing. hehehehe

    • How come only Jing has the 6th sense power. Laws of nature/magic or heaven’s will I reckon. If everyone has that special power, who will be the leader?

      • Does that mean ZX also born a leader and hence he has 6th sense too? How about XL? If he does not have the voodoo bug, will he be able to sense too?.. Just some nonsense thinking here…

      • @trekkie Zhan Xu’s sense is heightened because of the family connection during such troubled times. If his family members are in danger, he can sort of feel it. Since he is a God, the sensing should be more accurate. This also can happen to some of us mere humans, especially twins for example, who can actually feel or sense each other in times of danger. Therefore not so much of because he is born a leader.

        As for Xiang Liu, one reason he wanted Xiao Yao to transfer the bug into him must be because he wanted to remain close to her. So technically, without the bug, he won’t be able to sense her being in danger so immediately.

    • That’s why Jing is the clan leader. Be it by nature’s choice or people’s choice. (ironically..or should I say luckily Jing himself doesn’t want to be a clan leader)

  30. My guess would be jing’s parents are both powerful godly beings while hou’s mother is a maid, therefore her spiritual powers are lower, thus hou has lesser spiritual powers.
    I wonder what took XL so long to get to zhi yin court. He shld be able to sense xy is in danger the minute xy got spiked on the soles of her feet.

  31. All 3 male leads are amazing. I started with a favourite but came to realize Xiao Yao can only lead a happy life with Jing’s love, Xiang Liu’s life force and Zhuan Xu’s protection. The love of these 3 men for Xiao Yao is admirable in each of their ways.

  32. Can’t wait for the next chapter. What’s Xiang Liu gonna do to heal XY? Is he gonna give up one of his nine lives to save her? And what exactly does that entail? Thinking of Nekoi’s interesting description now! What a giggle!

  33. Something’s been bothering me–when Jing first arrived in the Canyon, he heard a man wailing sorrowfully. Who was it, or is not important?

    This chapter seriously made me wish I could understand Chinese so I don’t have to wait for the next chapter…let’s see, if I can find the novel in Chinese, then I can look up each word one at a time in a Chinese/English dictionary…

    • Man wailing. Not really important. But the way I see it, that must be the enemy’s cries. Cries that they have finally had their revenge.

  34. This chapter was full of angst and sacrifice. The three men who all love her so deeply need to protect her and all have their own strengths.

  35. This was a powerful episode in the drama version, but your translation was even more powerful!!! My heart is still rapidly beating 💓 💙 ♥ Thank you for your unwavering patience and ability to translate these words.

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