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Lost You Forever Chapter 38: Armed Conflict Closer, No Hope in Sight — 64 Comments

    • After 5 years .. an added comment has arrived .. I felt the same way.. I’m like that love sick puppy waiting for it’s owner to arrive even if someone else already bought me. I can’t shake him off me.. it’s like in the end I want her happy ending with him..

  1. that beaming smile and happiness only for Xiang Liu *delulu*

    why Xiao Yao can’t take the risk like her mom did?

    happiness can’t be calculated.. fool girl *sigh*

    • Because Xiao Yao is not like her mom and that Xiang Liu isn’t happiness.
      Unlike her mom who love Qi Yo with all her life, Xiao Yao divide her love to three men, who each hold an equally important position in her heart.

      • @Annie, I’m sorry but your statement couldn’t be anymore wrong. First of all, Xiang Liu brings Xiao Yao so much happiness as FFB. That is the reason why she said she wanted Shi Qi as her husband but couldn’t answer the same when XL asked who she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. If XL told her he loved her as well & wanted to leave everything behind. There wouldn’t even be a chance for those other two.

        Although all 3 guys are important to her, and she would die for any of them. She does not love them all equally in a romantic way. She has had feelings for XL even back from Qing Shui Town. After spending 37yrs toge, the first person she wanted to see was not Jing, even though he was on the brink of death, & not Zhuan Xu. She was devastated to not be able to see Xiang Liu.

  2. Wow! Thanks Ms K!! You are awesome! I hope our enthusiasm for this novel has given you more motivation to continue. Thank you so much for your effort!

  3. Dear Ms Koala, thank you for a new chapter so soon! Each and every chapter is so beautifully written, I just read everything quickly like a sponge. THAT beautiful smile, the happiness lighting up her eyes, the words of concern she kept in her heart and couldn’t say out before departing… Sigh.. Now I understand why you wrote that she was intentionally not using her brain to look at her relationship with XL. J must be really worried as he knows after Gaoxing is down, ZX will go after XL.. Does XY realise that? Will XL be able to forever block out the pain he goes through from her? Even at the point of death? I feel it’s sure to be a tragic end for our long suffering General. :-((((

  4. This is one of those chapters when I wish I had read Once Promised so that I would understand the events that Zhuan Xu was describing to Xiao Yao. Did the Grand Emperor send his best friend to undermine Qi Yo?

  5. Xiao Yao completely ignoring the reality of Xiang Liu’s life being tied to hers.

    Jing only thinking of what it means because he know Zhou Xu will kill Xiang Liu.

    Xiao Yao…please look beyong the jealousy you think Jing has to the perilous situation you are in

  6. Great chapter! For once, I do feel sympathetic towards Zhuan Xu. Hoping that Xiang Liu appears a bit more in the later chapters. There’s too little of him here.

  7. Ms. Koala, THANK YOU soooo much for the quick updates. You have no idea how happy I am!!! 🙂

    Zhuan Xu really shines in this chapter as we all get to see his narrative.

    I love playful Jing, I’m glad that we get to see that side of him more now.

    Not enough of Xiang Liu. 🙁

    Love all the men, Xiao Yao is so lucky!

  8. Koala Unni
    Thank you so much. You just made my day. Oh my poor nine headed demon. I kind of just wish that he would tell Xiao Yao the truth, or for her to at least speak with the Voodoo King again and get her facts straight.

  9. Thank u so much for new update. 🙂 XY should have a happy ending after the tradegy of all her relatives. Why suddently XZ allows XY and jing? What does he have in his sleeve? That time he was thinking about XY doing ran away bride from FL. From some paragraphs from this chapter, I guess XY likes XL so she can plant voodoo bug on him.But she may not love him so she cann’t feel his feeling.But poor XL definitely likes her and he devotedly loves her. He surely hurts when Jing and XY are holding hand in hand so bid farewell quickly and left. But XY did not know at all. May be ‘hearts cannot be counted as one’ case.

  10. Ok, can anybody please explain the back story with Feng Bo and Yu Shi/ Yi He Nuo Nai? Why were they Gao Xing people but fought for Xuan Yuan? I think it might have been explained in Once Promised.

    • That was one of the sadder secondary romances in Once Promised.

      Way back when the Grand Emperor was just Prince Shao Hao, he was already working towards becoming the next ruler AND making sure Gao Xing was not conquered or caught up in the fight between Xuan Yuan and Sheng Nong.

      His best friend was the Xuan Yuan Eldest Prince Qing Yang, who was engaged to the Sheng Nong Eldest Princess Yun Sang. But his childhood best friend was Yi He Nuo Nai, who randomly met Princess Yun Sang and they fell in love. But he couldn’t do anything to pursue her since she was already engaged so felt really bad about it.

      Shao Hao played on best friend’s guilt and longing for Yun Sang, and also patriotism for Gao Xing, and devised a plan for him to go undercover in the Sheng Nong army as Yu Shi (Teacher Rain). Nuo Nai actually destroyed his own handsome face to make the undercover assignment believable and became this hideous strategist commander in Qi Yo’s army. Shao Hao ostensibly told Nuo Nai to do so to “help” Sheng Nong from being conquered by Xuan Yuan, which would be protecting Princess Yun Sang. But really Shao Hao’s goal was for the two sides Sheng Nong and Xuan Yuan to destroy each other leaving Gao Xing the only one standing.

      In the end Nuo Nai chose to die on the battlefield with his Sheng Nong army buddies that he fought with for tens of years rather than go back to Gao Xing after the war was over. Princess Yun Sang, who knew all along that Nuo Nai was the deformed Yu Shi, heard that he died on the battlefield and that Sheng Nong lost the war, and chose to kill herself. With her kingdom fallen and the man she loved dead, she set fire to herself using a mulberry tree and her spirit ascended to heaven with Nuo Nai, leaving them finally together in death. That’s why the mulberry tree in Chinese also has another name of the Princess Tree.

      Shao Hao felt really shitty about what he did, but he didn’t screw over Nuo Nai and Yun Sang as much as he screwed over Qing Yang, Ah Heng, and Chang Yi, hence overall he probably feels the most guilt towards Zhuan Xu and Xiao Yao for contributing to them to grow up as orphans.

      • Ohhh no, dang it really sucks to be born into the royal family. But on the other side it might have been nice seeing as the Sheng Nong Princess was the daughter of the Xuan Yuan Express best friend.
        General Yu Jiang is he also related to Yi Shi?

        Sorry for all the questions, but thanks so much Koala Unni for translating this beautiful story to those of us that otherwise would be unable to enjoy it!

      • Thanks for the back story. Appreciate so much. Tong Hua’s pen just flows with one epic romance and story after another!

  11. Thank you for translating. Each chapter builds on the previous so perfectly and unexpectedly. And every character is endearing…thoroughly enjoying this!

  12. I am so happy that you are back on the track Ms. Koala. I enjoyed so so much of reading new chapters. I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  13. This is one of my favorite chapter of Lost You Forever. I know Zhuan Xu is the least deserving of Xiao Yao out of the 3 suitors, but I cannot help but pity him for his regrets. However, I dont doubt that given a second chance, Zhuan Xu would not choose differently. Unlike the other three: Xiao Yao, Jing, and Xiang Liu, who I believed are matured adults who had worked out whatever emotional entanglements they have had in the past and currently living in the present, Zhuan Xu is still living in that moment when his dad died, his mom committed suicide and his little sister was lost. Everything he does, think and feel operated from that conjuncture and he never escaped that nightmare.

  14. Thank you Koala for the translation! Beautiful as usual.

    I am heartbreakingly sad for Zhuan Xu, and I do not doubt his love for Xiao Yao. However he chose the path of becoming emperor and must live with his choice. Very few can happily get both the beauty and the empire. And Xiang Liu… There are no words. At the end of the day, I still believe that Jing is the right man for Xiao Yao. He is also the one I am rooting for.

    Seriously though… I need three endings, one for each of them getting Xiao Yao!

  15. Thank you very much Koala! What a wonderful chapter – I am so glad you are continuing to translate LYF. I was sorely missing it and was sad because I thought you had gone on permanent hiatus with it.

    XL is so perfecttt ugh

  16. Jing and Xiao Yao are so cute!!! I love their interactions! I hp we they live happily ever after with each other and their kids.

    At the same time I feel sorry for Zhuan Xu but he made his choice. Power is such an ugly thing and it has destroyed so many people.

  17. What I really want to know is what XL will ask of XY in exchange for accepting the voodoo bug – the request that she cannot refuse. I have a strong suspicion it will be for her to do something to preserve her own life even if XL were to die. And it will be painful for her to do it as she loves him deep down. Just me speculating…

    • Umm I thought he already claimed his one wish by asking her to leave her wedding with Feng Long in his guise as Fang Feng Bei? He couldn’t see her getting into a loveless marriage, though he claimed it was on behalf of Jing in return for favours.

  18. What a happy surprise to have updates start reappearing after so long…it’s like Christmas in February – thank you Koala!

    I remember at the very beginning of reading these stories, I wasn’t dating yet….so my initial reaction was for wanting XY to end up with XL – blame it on the bad boy syndrome. I thought how lucky and fortunate XY was to have so many awesome guys (in their own way) in love with her so deeply.

    After the break and so many changes in life (and maybe a little more maturity), I now think that all the guys in the world that “love you”…mean nothing compared to the one that will actually act on those words and be there for you. Jing struggled a little in the beginning, but at least all his affairs are settled (for now) and he’s been able to be there beside XY. He’s also the only one that has openly confessed his feelings and moved forward on them. XY is a smart smart girl for having chosen him out of the three (for now :)).

    Though honestly, I agree with the commentor above, I wish that there could be 3 endings…one where each guy can get their XY. Hihihi…what? Can’t you have your cake, eat it and have some more to take home too? 😉

  19. Somehow I wish this novel flollowed the current K-drama trend and was about a hero suffering from DID with these 3 awesome personalities…
    (For KMHM watchers… Jing as Do Hyun, Xiang Liu as Se Gi and Zhuan Xu?? Mysterious Mr.X?)

    Thanks for the translation. Hard work. Bringing so much joy to us non-Chinese speaking readers.

  20. Am I the only one totally swooning over Jing’s proposal? It is super corny and super cheesy but I just love it. I really love Jing’s earnestness and sincerity.

    I am excited for Lost Your Forever to move on to the next stage which is Zhuan Xu’s world domination. I think it was a long way coming since that night Jing, Zhuan Xu, and Feng Long met in Xuan Yuan to discuss that “abandon Xuan Yuan for Sheng Nong” strategy. I wonder how the war will end and what will happen to the Grand Emperor. He won’t die will he? I know he did pretty awful things as Shao Hao in Once Promised. But I am kind of like Xiao Yao in Lost You Forever. I just see how much he loves her and dotes on his daughters. I want a good ending for him. Well as good as any ending can be for an emperor who lost his empire.

  21. P.S. Do you happen to know what Jing might have offered Xiang Liu? I was curious. I think it has to be more than money as Jing has already promised 37 years of rations for the Sheng Nong army. Any guesses?

  22. Thank you Captain K! You are awesome. XL can you please let yourself go for just a little and let XY feel how you feel.

    Captain K can you please tell me how the 3 male names are written in Chinese?

  23. Hey kind of random, but anybody else think that just maybe that crazy Sheng Nong Empress might try something stupid to get rid of Xiao Yao? I don’t know but I get a fishy feel from her/

  24. I have been rooting for Jing since day one but he lost my vote when he went ahead to marry YY. But now Im glad Jing and XY are back together. Hope they will be safely married cos I think they both deserved it.

    Ive never been a Xian Liu shipper tho I know he did a lot for XY and he strike me as someone who can do without love and would not die for love unlike Jing who went into a coma and didnt want to wake up when he thought XY has perished in the fire.

    • SOME Jing shippers like yourself, alwys makes me feel like we’re not reading the same book. XL doesn’t strike you as someone who is not willing to die for love? YEA?? Is that why when XL’s heart was calling out to Xiao Yao back when she was in Gao Xing as Xiao Liu. He came to her rescue & told her that if she wanted to, they could escape under the sea?? When XY was weighing the pros & cons, she knew that XL could escape by himself but it was a suicide mission if she was with him. LYF is such a beautiful book. I suggest you re-read it again bc it’s obvious you are missing out on A LOT of subtle hints from TH.

      • And SOME XL shipper like yourself, always creating unnecesary counter attack about xl & xy. Everybody have different opinion about what she/he reads in the novel and there is no right or wrong about that

  25. I just started reading the translated chapters you have so far and it’s been an engrossing story. Thank you for your hard work! Looking forward to the next chapters 🙂

  26. This is a bit random… but don’t you think Yuan Hong would make a good Xiang Liu/ Fang Feng Bei? Or, if it’s Once Promised, the General Qi Yo?

  27. Koala! I just realized that the 相 (Xiang) in Xiang Liu is the same as the 相 in Chang Xiang Si. I just love how Xiang Liu’s name is in the title; it’s almost like ‘Missing Xiang Forever.” I know it is not grammatically correct (the correct verse would be Chang Si Xiang?) but it is sooo close! There’s no way that Tong Hua did not notice Xiang Liu’s name in Chang Xiang Si; it would not surprise me if she did that deliberately. While I can see the thoughts and care she has for all three male leads, I think she loves Xiang Liu’s character the most.

  28. Ms. Koala, Please don’t abandon us, your hardcore fans for LYF. I wish you don’t lose interest in translating this project. Thanks so much for all your hard work. If you can’t translate the chapters in details, I would really appreciate the summary and how’s the ending goes for this amazing novel.

  29. Koala,
    Will xiao yao realised that zhuan xu & xiang liu actually in love with her?
    I wonder until how long zhuan xu able to hold his love for xiao yao & keep it as a secret?will he someday snapped & try to posses her?looking fwd for ur next update..tq 4 d hard work!!

  30. I love, love this book so much. Looking forward to the next chapter. Thank you so much for sharing this awesome book with the rest of us. You are amazingly talented!

  31. Can’t wait for the next chapters, thank you so much…. for some reason I rooting for Xiang Liu instead… can’t some one give me spoiler on who she will end up with??? Plzzzz I don’t have the patience anymore lol

  32. pls pls continue translating this book. I am anxiously waiting to get to the end. Thank you so much for all your hard work you put in.

  33. Ms Koala, when will you pick up the story again? We’ve been waiting for a long time..please, please continue…..or do a spoiler on Xiang Liu’s side story…

  34. I’m so sad everyone missed the fact that although XY was alrdy engaged to Jing. It has been 8yrs since she had last seen Xiang liu on the boat, when she wanted to jump into the ocean to chase after him. The moment she senses Xiang liu’s presence. The words Tong Hua uses to describe her every action & though process was just heartbreaking. Aimlessly roaming, waiting endlessly, frantically looking, holding onto him like a squid & unknowingly holding his arm tightly through out their conversation, like she didn’t want to lose him 🙁 until she was made aware of it. The beaming smile & forgotten words when he finally revealed himself to her. The visceral & raw honest reaction screams she loves & misses him so deeply.

  35. Thank you translating this chapter! I finally get the roller coaster of emotions from ZX. Jing stepping up to be with XY. Of course, XL constantly on XY mind.
    There is so much that XY is overlooking and so much going on that when everything gets revealed XY will be devastated but happy in the end.

  36. Xiao Yao tem uma ligação com XL q eu nunca vou entender… não eh um amor romântico nem tão pouco se parece com amizade… eh como se ao ver ele.. ou sentir q ele está por ali .. ela se esqueça até de si próprio… como uma criança que está atrás de um doce. Tá difícil de entender esses dois… ainda sou Team Jing.. Ms a relação entre ela e a cobra 🐍 eh muito peculiar.

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