Sigh, how could they look so perfect together? Why does a tux and a wedding dress turn my insides into joyful jelly. At this point Big is beyond amazing to me, both in its uncertain narrative and fractured lens of viewing what we see and what we know. We see 31 old Yoon Jae, but we know he’s 19 year old Kyung Joon. What confuses us equally confounds the characters, so we understand Mari’s suspicions and we empathize with Da Ran’s dilemma. The reality is that Kyung Jae is no longer a boy but not yet a man. Even if Kyung Joon’s soul goes back to his own body, he’s already much more mature than any boy his age. Ottoke? How does a potential couple bridge an age+identity gap when faced with a twisted reality and the confusion of a heart longing for things that can’t quite be articulated clearly. “Take this sad little bait, which is only wanting to catch one fish.” Oh Kyung Jae, you already have my heart, but you took a little piece of my soul with you when you said that. Have some glorious new BTS stills of Big to soothe the anxious nerves until Monday rolls around.