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Secret Love Affair Episode 9 Recap — 53 Comments

  1. It’s hard to watch a love story that begins in deception. It never ends well, and what is reaped is very painful and heartbreaking. This is the reason why I can only read the recaps on this drama.

  2. There is always a sense of anxiety I feel in the pit of my stomach whenever I watch these two together in a scene. And it’s that sense of unease that tells me something is wrong in the picture. No matter how sweet and achingly lovely that picture might be.

  3. Thank you for the recap and your insights into Hye Won. It’s pretty clear, she is as naive as Sun Jae in some respects. I’m amazed she stayed out all night and doesn’t have an outfit stashed at the office. Extra phone…should be a throwaway. You are right, this cannot end well, or maybe, they can go to Europe and she can be his manager. He’s a genius, doesn’t really need school. Hye Won can smooth away his rough edges and teach him English. By the way, were we told why Hye Won didn’t make it as a musician?

    • I think it was mentioned in a few episodes before that she had a problem with her hands- someone correct me if I’m wrong.

    • Yes. We learned in ep 1, as she saw Sun Jae’s problems with his hand in the YT clip, that she had the same and had to end her career because of it. That’s why she contacted him and recommended a doctor, that’s why she became his chat buddy.

      • I knew that, but I thought the doctor she recommended was her doctor. He’s got the same problem. She plays ok, so I thought she wasn’t star talent material.

      • Hyewon can’t play everyday because her hands ache. That is why she gave up her career as pianist.

  4. Hye Won’s love letter is so beautiful and yet so sad. I cried watching/listening to it. A cruel world for both of them. I wish they find happiness either being together or going separate ways in the end.

  5. Btw, I so so love the chatting scene in the practice room. Both actors are so natural and acting so flawlessly that I want them to keep talking like that forever!

  6. Thanks for a beautiful recap and thoughts koala. It is such a difficult subject as you pointed out and of course, we have been told the love story in such a beautiful manner that some of us cant help but be sympathetic to our two leads.

    I wrote this somewhere else after watching episode 9. I think the first scene with the love tect really was powerful for me.

    watching the scenes of HW going to SJ’s home and being privy to her thoughts (and even before that actually, ie pre subs) really moved me, much as it moved her. understanding how she must have felt while climbing those step, knowing that once this action has been taken, it will
    be the start of them and all that will involve and then still continuing upwards. my heart filled to the brim and spilled out of my eyes.

    at this part, I really felt that this journey is much more that of HW, than SJ. SJ will have his growth from this but this far, he has mostly acted on a force of emotion that is beyond his ability to control. he is aware of dangers but he is unable to think of consequences or potential death of that love etc.

    HW on the other hand has thought of all that and more and still has chosen to proceed. that journey of her self discovery somehow moves me deeply even though an affair is not ideally how one should be discovering oneself.

    Reading your recap on that scene, i am moved again to tears again.

    I trust the writer and director to come up with a satisfactory ending, whatever that may be.. You are right in that to be together for all times in a happy manner, they have to delay that gratification by working on his talent and her tying up the loose ends of her life.

    Thanks again. Man, this show makes me so emo.

  7. Thanks for the recap!

    They ARE messing with us big time with the back and forth between their love and the sin involved. Especially making the husband the heavy, the one who keeps coming between them. I have to keep reminding myself. Oh, yeah, he’s the husband.

    They make her love for SJ, the GOOD thing she is doing. Their relationship has been taped off from the rest of her life. She isn’t without blemish in any other area, either so it isn’t as if people would be disappointed in her if they find out she sins. She lies and triple deals, obfuscates, hedges, or avoids answering at all if she can. Why worry about that one thing? For some reason, to Hye Won, adultery IS the biggest bad you can do or at least the one she doesn’t want anyone to find out about.

    Perhaps it is her attempt at protecting Sun Jae and the beauty that he represents. The kid has already been in jail because of her, sort of.

    Perhaps whatever hell she escaped had some trauma tied in (that I don’t really want to know about) and somewhere inside she is so damaged she can’t face her true self.

    There are so many stories, films about the whirlwind romance that comes into town and sweeps a wife or husband off their feet and she is forced to choose. Usually, as you said, children are involved. Usually, she picks the kids. I loved Meryl Streep’s performance of the conflicted wife in Bridges of Madison County. Spoiler alert. She stays. The mother in the novel by Rumer Godden, The Battle of the Villa Fiorita. She comes back.

    The longer we get into the series, the less literally I am taking everything. The pair is sexy as hell, and they would be totally good together if they could get away and start fresh like you said, but they can’t. We can’t hop on a plane and fly to Paris living off our street musician skills, or chuck the job and live in a van down by the river….Well, we could but it wouldn’t be fun.

    Even if we had a Sun Jae to adore us faults and all, after a while, we would long for Society again. Acceptance. Connection. All the rules – whether they are legislated or not keep us in line for our own good.
    It would be so easy to self-destruct if we didn’t worry about what other people think of us.

    I do have trouble looking for a downside to HW and SJ running off together, though. Hey, there’s a cute house for sale down the block from me. I would LOVE to have them as neighbors. I’d send my son down for piano lessons from either of them. Come to New York, Hye Won-ah!!

    • Yes, get a divorce , tranfer the secret bank account that I’m sure she has, and bring SJ to NY!!!! You can do it HW!! ^^

    • Great Recap that captured my growing sense of gloom that only intensified this week.

      The two adultery dramas that I have seen by this PD-writer team – Wife’s Credentials and SLA — both contextualize the adultery occuring in a soulless world where these characters find themselves. How to hold on to beauty, innocence, pleasure in a bleak world ordered only by power and money? Does love have to take an illicit form in this world since legitimate love – the kind that leads to marriage and family – is ordered by money and rational calculation and compromise?

      I do not know, watching this episode made me really forlorn.

  8. This drama makes my teeth hurt. I’ve watched many dramas but nothing, so far, with characters so complex and deftly drawn. Hye Won is just as you said, Miss Koala, not someone you can totally sympathize with, but I find myself so curious as to how she got where she is. I can see why Sun Jae is so drawn to her. Sun Jae is interesting as well. I love how direct he is, such an amalgam of man and boy, self-aware but as un-worldly as can be. I adore him!
    I am finding it hard to watch other shows now, they seem so silly!! Lol, I’m sure I need professional help!! Thanks for the great re-caps!

    • Yes, I agree with you, can t watch other dramas! I’m so tired of those weird close ups and face expressions and same plot over and over again! This drama it’s so refreshing ! Lol

  9. I have a sense that SJ’s golden boy status would place everyone in a cold war type situation if bits of their affair come to light. The only person that would do something stupid – the wild card in the situation is YW. She’s the type to destroy out of spite and pride. She’s also spoiled, irrational, arrogant and stupid – so she worries me the most. They all need SJ’s insane, extraordinary talent to keep up pretenses. Destroying him in any way before he makes it is a rather stupid move because their recognition actually depends on him excelling and winning (plus he brings legitimacy to their arts center front). The only person for which this is not the case, and who would happily see it all come crashing down is YW. Her step mom’s misery and downfall is her gain – emotionally, financially, and position-wise in the family. I hope that before the family warfare comes to a head, he will have won an international competition. It’s his (and HW’s) golden ticket (if they hope to remain together). I hope HW will have amassed enough dirty laundry to at least strike a good defense when they begin to turn on her…

    • yes YW is the biggest danger to both HW and SJ. She is a slash and burn type who reacts on emotion and doesn’t think about the consequences. Plus she already hates HW (maybe for being married to her ex) and will probably be jealous of HW and SJ’s relationship which HW didn’t have to pay for.

  10. I think HW need to come clean – break off the marriage first, regardless if her future is with or without SJ. Cut the adultery ‘sin’ altogether … take down the hurdle one by one

  11. Watching ep 9 without subs first, I thought, when Hye Won went to his apartment that she was coming home. After watching it with subs, I realized, that I had the thought, the makers intended. Further proof to me how excellent this story is told, to get the meaning without words. Just like her I love this humble home, which became the place of retreat for them. Here she is finally able to relax. Sun Jae looked for such a place all the time and unknowingly already had it.

    Her way up the stairs is hopefully the hint for the outcome of the whole series. The way is dangerous, as already mentioned before, slippery and she wondered about the possibility of an accident. Yet she went along willingly, knowing that in the end his home would wait. But the stairs continue through his apartment and end on the roof in an open space with fresh air and the world at their feet. Anything but a happy ending after a lot of angst for those two would be a major disappointment and a contradiction to all the hints build in in those visuals.

    How is it possible to love this show more after each new episode?

    Her love letter to him, the first she ever wrote, I guess, was so beautiful. Both cried over it, as she had to redo her make-up in the taxi. The raw emotions of both, she is shaken to the core… how anyone in this world could think they are lacking chemistry is a riddle to me.

    Saying that the simple instant ramyun she ate on the roof was the best thing she ever tasted, although she has the ahjumma providing home cooked meals every day and knows several fancy restaurants, shows the liberation she feels. The rich world she thought she so desperately needed and wanted is ultimately not for her. Her senses are free elsewhere.

    What does this sweet guy do first thing after reading the letter? Change the light bulb and clean the stairs… he’s doing what he can do.

    He started typing illicit love, but deleted it again. He doesn’t want to know the details.

    Btw in my subs the ahjumma says, that she got a text message from Hye Won informing her, that she’d have breakfast with the chairman. Is it the Dramafever / Viki difference again?

    While the secretary lets Sun Jae in hubby’s office, Joon Hyung visits the dean. He mentions George Sand and Chopin but also Ivo Pogorelich (not in the subs). A famous piano player, who met his later wife, 21 years older than him, at the age of 17, when she was married and became his teacher. They were married till her death many years later. Let’s take this as another hint for a common future.

    Madam Han’s secretary picked up on Da Mi’s behavior at the beauty salon. She is clever, too, and sensed a tiny difference in her behavior. She also intensely watches Hye Won leaving the office after learning, that Sun Jae will become solely her pupil. She must be an excellent reader of body language. What a minefield all those people are walking on every single day.

    Is Hye Won aware of the fact how close Mde. Han and the dean are? He is her lapdog and does everything she says. I’ve not seen enough interaction between HW and him to be sure about her awareness of this situation. Clever as she is, she should be.

    Sun Jae asking to switch the camera off brought back the quick delivery guy not giving a discount. He firmly stood his place. I’m not worried about this guy. He’ll make himself a good place in this world. He’s young, but he knows exactly what he wants and he goes for it.

    His reaction when Hye Won said, she couldn’t buy him nice things. He was genuinely surprised. This thought never before crossed his mind. He is only interested in her, not her money or status. He is so different from all the other people around her.

    What kind of pills is the snooping rat taking? She talks to the doc and wonders aloud, that men are going through this, too. So we are to take the menopause hint for real? Men can have it, too.

    The kiss, him waiting for her to look at him, only then rushing towards her, and his urgency to bed her… they just couldn’t make it up the stairs to his bed. *le sigh*

    The preview of ep 10 shows some scenes we already know from the teasers. Those worrying about the pressure of a live shoot because of missing previews should be calmed by this. It feels like the timing is still OK. And the script thought through. *happy dance*

    • How did you catch the reference to Ivo Pogorelich? (I’m assuming you don’t know Korean and you mentioned that it wasn’t in the subs). Like you said, this could be a hint that they have a future together which I’m hoping for.

      • The longer I watch Kdrama the more I try to pick up of the language. After some time you get a feeling about the melody of the language, the structure of a sentence and how they pronounce foreign names or words. If you know the name Pogorelich you’ll hear it, too. Someone on Soompi (?) made the same observation.
        (Just like you’ll hear the word ‘Arbeit’ Koreans adopted for a part time job from German.)

        And of course I watch every episode more than once. 😀

    • Love reading your impressions.

      As far as the pills, I thought it could be simply sleeping pills. Dosage would change based on hormone levels.

      Or anti-depressants.

      • Alcohol and sleeping pills? Never a good combination.

        I’m more than curious, what her promised visit to the doctor will result in… *SPOILER* Especially after the chairman’s remark in ep 10 about her being happy having no kids. There are just too many allusion to a pregnancy and Koreans appear to have a lax attitude towards contraception.

    • The pills are sleeping pills. She and the doc talk about premenopause syndrome that man actually suffers too. One of male menopause symptoms is imsomnia.

    • Ivo Pogorelić – yes I’m hoping that is the writer hinting at a happy ending where HW leaves her husband and SJ becomes an internationally famous pianist

      SJ turning the camera off – I hope they don’t get too comfortable in that room with the idea that the camera is off, this is evidence against them and adultery is illegal

  12. Just a few things to clarify: when HW was climbing up the stairs, she does not want to fall and break her legs because then she might have to make up lies to tell other people, so she walks up the stairs very carefully. Also, the live in maid said she didn’t see HW leave except the text that said HW left early not to disturb her, which makes JH’s suspicion grow.

    And thank you Koala for another insightful recap. I’m sad to see more viewers are being turned off by the show as it gets darker. Thanks for hanging in there with us!

    • Don’t worry~ people come and go. But as I observed in Soompi (I’m a silent lurker there), the SLA thread is growing so fast with new members who just tuned in the drama. I really enjoy their opinions and insights. I presume as the story progresses, more people watching than leaving it 🙂

  13. I have a question , if a husband committed adultery does the same law apply to him as the woman in korean be it south or north. And if so why did all the drama that show men who committed adultery not charge with it . Please can some one enlighten me on it .

    • It is a crime either way, but women still have less power, so maybe her lawyer and the judges won’t take her as seriously.

      Laws may be black and white, but the people who enforce them or prosecute based on them are all different shades of grey.

    • EXACTLY!! You’ve said what’s been bothering me for the longest, especially since the “decriminalization” of adultery in SK. Because if men practiced adultery “de facto” with little or no consequences, moreso if they have money, then who actually benefits from the “decriminalization” of adultery in SK?

  14. I’ve been refreshing your site so many times eversince this episode aired as I was curious as how every body else feel about the drama. Thank you Ms Koala for the recap, and on what you said “this drama is really beautiful to watch but also hurts me so much to think about, pushing my own views against wanting two lovely people to be happy but knowing they will have to pay a steep steep price for it” that’s like taking the words right out of my mouth. I feel the same way.
    Glad I decide to watch this drama, great delivery so far. Now, waiting patiently for the recap for episode 10, another great episode.

  15. Thanks for the recap miss koala, i pretty much felt the same way when watching but could not cleverly put it in words. That’s why it is such a pleasure to read your recaps and others’ comments too. And i love that HW is as you say neither black or white but beautiful shades of grey. The depth and complexity of this affair made me as viewer (who is against adultery) reconsider my stance. I believe it’s because I could empathize w HW. Don’t you agree that as a white collared professional, at times we catch ourselves being a little jaded. I can’t help but cheer them on! I agree w melleit, that i can’t watch any other dramas now. It seemed so petty next to this secret love affair. P/s – this is my first time commenting. Compelled to now that it is a full on affair!!

    • Glad you commented! I think it is OK to cheer them on because we like them as people, but we still want them to come clean before anyone gets hurt by them, even the Rat has feelings.

      • I think the “Rat” has feelings, I just don’t think they are for Hye Won. I think his jealousy is truly for the status that Sun Jae might bring to Hye Won instead of him. The actor playing Hyung Joon is such a good actor, I can almost see the wheels in his head turning. Such a quandary he’s in!! Masterful writing!!

  16. Thanks so much for the recap, between here and the forums, this drama has invoked so many feelings among viewers and the discussions are thoughtful and deep for once. So grateful that there’s a group of people who can see beyond the topic matter and explore all the facets and layers of this story.

    Thanks!

  17. it’s so entertaining on my part to not only watch the SLA itself but also read the intelligent thoughts of the comments here. thanks Ms Koala for your link’s recap and to the brilliant minded owners of these comments ahead mine 🙂

  18. This drama is breathtakingly beautiful, the directing and the camera angles are so mesmerizing. SJ and HW’s acting are so natural we feel like they’re talking casually, not only memorizing and spitting out what’s written on script. I think the story is not about adultery, because it’s so narrow. It’s about how HW empowers herself and breaks free from the chains. SJ is her tool, and to SJ she’s his muse. They need each other. I want to see HW to take a major step for her own future for the first time in her life.

  19. I am thinking if I should watch epi 9 onwards knowing that for all the dramas to climaxed is for the people around them to find our about this wonderful but painful love between HW and SJ. SJ face of happiness is still stuck in my heart. Am very much afraid of might happen to them after epi 8. so, here i am thanking koala for doing such a great recap.as for now i will enjoy watching epi 9.

  20. SJ brings a book that he shows to HW in the practice room. He says the book is titled “Aimez-vous Brahms”. It has been filmed with title “Goodbye Again”, and the story is about a woman leaving her husband to live together with her young lover. So I think SJ is trying to suggest HW to leave her marriage and be with him. But HW just dismisses it. She doesn’t seem she’s ready to leave her lavish world or think about their future yet. Because perhaps she doesn’t think they have a future.

  21. Well, this is my opinion but I find fascinating the love story but I dont care the seconary roles they are void and cold except the girlfriend and the stupid husband…
    Sometimes is so slow that I wanted cry of BOREDOM its a lot of touch of Blade and Petal.
    If you compare with Credential,s wife the result is obvious pretty filmed great performance of Yoo ah in but the ambience surround them lack of depth to be believable.

  22. I have had a strong stance against adultery and SLA completely challenged it. As much as I find adultery wrong (more the mistrust and lies than the act itself), I saw myself rooting for them to make it. I feared that something bad was going to happened to either one of them and I truly wanted them to come out of it unscathed

  23. Thanks all, for the recaps and comments. Very insightful.

    HW’s long text to SJ brought tears to my eyes also. And the visuals in this drama are soooo telling. Like in HITTG (which finally brought me to SLA) the shots are taken behind or through other objects so that the viewer sometimes cannot see things clearly or in its entirety. Just as we cannot judge others’ circumstances because we don’t know all the facts; we only know what we see or are allowed to see.

    I’m particularly struck by the contrast between her posh, modern, living/work surroundings and the dark, dirty, garbage-strewn, feral- cats-screaming, rat-infested Tower where she at last finds freedom.

    And how that idyll’s destroyed instantly by VISITING FRIENDS! Yeah, I’m ready for a dose of reality.

  24. Hye Won’s love letter to Seon Jae is the first time she shares her inner thoughts with him. In a text from a private number that she does not tell him to delete. And she tells him she loves him – in a roundabout way – but for someone who keeps her thoughts well hidden this is a big deal. She has to keep her secrets close so no one will try to use or hurt her, so for her to trust someone is huge. His emotional reading of it, he knows this too, and hurts for her.

    I loved Seon Jae’s effort to hide his smile when he next sees her in the practice room! They are so much more comfortable and open with each other here, having released the sexual tension they’ve both been carrying and now openly admitting to their feelings for each other. His request for no cameras made me really anxious and I was surprised at how Hye Won allowed it, her self preservation radar is turned off when it comes to SJ. Their conversation on the sofa was so natural. Excellent acting! Though sad too for his realization of the limitations on their relationship. 

    Their happy smiles on the motorbike. And one of my favorite scenes in the whole drama was the few short moments in his home where he rushes toward her and they kiss and then he leads her to the other bed off camera. It looked like a choreographed dance. Yoo Ah In – anyone who has read my previous posts already knows I am smitten by this man – how he kisses with his whole body makes me squee and sigh. Another commenter somewhere called them his attack kisses which is funny but true in how he goes in with such passion with his entire body. Then their cuddled conversation on the rooftop when she tells him she believes he will become a habit for her. 

    A couple of parallels in this episode. Hye Won peeking out at Seon Jae’s place from behind the tarp similar to Seon Jae peeking at her in “her” place in the first episode. And secondly the fact that Hye Won is not the first person whom angel Seon Jae has rescued. Da Mi left her gang life because he would not give up on her and walk away when she told him to. SJ has an innate understanding of people and stays determinedly near those he knows to be good people who need saving. Despite all of the unkind (to put it mildly) words and actions HW has thrown his way, he stands by her and eventually wins her. 

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