Lost You Forever Epilogue: Wishing You a Lifetime of Worry Free Happiness

Might as well strike while the iron is hot, now that I got my book translating mojos back after a good 4 year hiatus. I posted the final chapter of Lost You Forever, my favorite C-romance novel of all time, but that’s not the final thing Tong Hua wrote for this story. She left an epilogue and it feels like she planned it all along this way. Of the three male leads, only Xiang Liu that Nine Headed Demon all in white never had any internal monologues so forget Xiao Yao even us readers don’t know what he is really thinking, But that’s rectified with this beautiful and much too short epilogue, like how I feel about his appearance as a fictional character in this epic story. Ephemeral but unforgettable, and of course he leaves with the same selfless conviction that made us love him. I’m sorry I neglected to post these two final chapters until such a long time has passed and probably many readers have moved on, but for those just discovering this gem now you can read an entire beautiful and stirring story in its entirety.

Epilogue: Wishing You a Lifetime of Worry Free Happiness

The mountain ridges were tightly nestled together as the forest trees undulated in layers.

At a canyon near the water source, rows and rows of tents fanned out. At this time it was near dark and normally the encampment fires were roaring and each tent would be lit by lamps. But to stay concealed, there was not a sliver of light and not one sound. Only squads of mud splattered weary soldiers patrolling.

Xiang Liu quietly walked past a row of tents, his snow white robe like a small breeze softly rustling through the camp, becoming the sole light in the heavy darkness of the moment. Every soldier who saw him unwittingly felt a tiny bit of ease and their mood a little lifted.

Many years ago, new recruits would complain to the old veteran soldiers “That Nine Headed Demon, why does he have to be flashy? We’re going to battle not to a matchmaking meeting, does he need to dress so eye-catching?”

Those who experienced life and death before their eyes and carried home the bodies of their comrades would smile with resignation “After you’ve been to a few battles, you will understand why!”

When those rookies would slowly feel the weight of those life experiences did they start to understand what the old soldiers meant. On the battlefield, when that all white figure appeared, he would capture the attention of every enemy and all the strongest attacks would be aimed at him. That would help save more of their troops as Xiang Liu took the brunt of all the enemy attacks. So at night in the camp, when the all white figure was spotted, no matter how near the enemy was, all the soldiers could still sleep soundly.

After burning one deceased comrade’s body after another, the remaining soldiers finally understood even more why Xiang Liu wore all white – perhaps he really was that brash and arrogant, wanting the enemy to see him; perhaps he was the wisest General who wanted his troops to always be able to see him no matter how dark; no matter the real reason no soldier dared to ask Xiang Liu directly so why he always wore white became a topic that was forever debated but never concluded.

Xiang Liu surveyed the camp and walked up to the top of the mountain to look down from the summit.

In the distance he could see fires burning, that was Ru So burning the entire mountain to force them to come out and battle. The final battle was about to arrive. All the soldiers knew their fate and they willingly chose this path in life. The world was at peace and the people were safe and secure, these Sheng Nong resistance army soldiers were now discarded in the passage of time and had become pointless. So death was the best release for them, and the most comforting final destination.

Xiang Liu sat down on a green rock and took out a piece of Fu Sang God Wood. He intently carved it and a round big bellied laughing doll started to take shape. All that was left was detailing on its eyes.

After Xiang Liu carefully and precisely finished carving the doll, he intently inspected it and was pleased. He turned the doll head down on his knee and opened the bottom to take out a crystal ball.

A clear crystal ball wrapped around an ocean tableau inside. The glittering waves had colorful fishes swimming, red coral, and a large white clamshell open like a resplendent flower. A beautiful mermaid rested sideways on the clamshell, her hair flowing like seawood and her entrancing fish tail resting half against the white surface and half in the water. A man stood next to her, holding the mermaid’s extended hand and smiling as he gazed down at the mermaid. In the corner of the tableau a merman floated in the ocean, he appeared close to the clamshell but his distant pose made him seem like he was actually in another world and not in the same calm and serene ocean.

Xiang Liu stared at the crystal ball for some time longer before his fingernail extended into a sharp knife and he swiftly inscribe two lines of words on the ball in very small letters. Just then the moon shone through the trees and landed on the crystal ball and the two lines of words next to the merman was legible: The ability to take care of yourself, someone to rely on, a place to go – wishing you a lifetime of worry free happiness!

A gold crowned white feather giant condor dove down from the sky and perched on the edge of the cliff. He had a bucket in his beak filled with thick green Fu Sang sap. The spiritual powers were so strong a green mist was bubbling around it. The white condor Furball knew the Fu Sang God Wood seemed normal but one touch and all his fur would be burned clean off. He gingerly place the bucket down next to Xiang Liu before hopping quickly away and not daring to bother him. He curiously watched Xiang Liu’s every move.

Xiang Liu placed the crystal ball back into the belly of the big bellied laughing doll, it wasn’t too big or too small, it fit perfectly. He closed the bottom up and with the crystal ball into the belly of the doll, the crystal was water essence and the Fu Sang God Wood was a fire essence so the two opposing powers contained each other. The crystal’s ice essence was no longer bone chilling and the Fu Sang God Wood would no longer burn up on contact. Now even someone without any power could touch the big bellied laughing doll.

Xiang Liu put the laughing doll into the bucket of Fu Sang sap. The doll and the base was the same piece of Fu Sang God Wood and after setting a maze and the passage of a few months, it would seal together seamless. But he didn’t have time left so he could use up some of his power to finish it.

Xiang Liu used his blood to create a maze and used ten sun stones that had accumulated tens of thousands of years of sun essence. He pushed his power through and the sap in the bucket started burbling upward like boiled water. Gradually the sap was absorbed by the doll until there was no liquid left in the bucket. When all the sap was absorbed, the big bellied laughing doll and the base was seamlessly bonded together without a shred of connection point. It was like the entire doll was made whole.

Xiang Liu used about half his power to try and pry open the doll again but even he couldn’t. He took out his weapon and tried to slash it but it made no mark on the doll. Xiang Liu finally smiled in satisfaction.

Fuball stood on one leg and cocked his head quizzically to the side and stared at Xiang Liu like he was staring at a lunatic.

Xiang Liu gazed at the big bellied doll in his hand, the smiling face with the curving eyebrows and the pouting lips looked back at him with joyful mirth. Xiang Liu’s lips curled into a smile and he started chuckling out loud.

He put the doll into a bag and tied it to Furball’s back. Furball coo’d to ask and Xiang Liu replied “Go to Jade Mountain, tell Ah Bi that this is his wedding present to Xiao Yao.”

Furball’s bird eyes widened in shock and he hooted loudly in discontent, he didn’t know why something clearly made by the Nine Headed Demon would have to be given as something made by that winged fox! Xiang Liu smacked Furball on the head and coldly chastised “Don’t grumble, just do as I say!”

Furball complained loudly a few more hoots before he spread his wings and took flight into the night headed in the direction of Jade Mountain. Xiang Liu craned his head as he watched Furball fly farther and farther into the pitch black night sky.

Remembering our first meeting in Qing Shui Town, you were all shits and giggles, a mouth full of made up crap. But the only thing you said that was true was: I have no ability to take care of myself, no one to rely on, and nowhere to go.

After over tens years of teaching you archery, you now have the ability to take care of yourself. You don’t need to use your own body to protect someone you treasure when danger is around. The right man for you, you now have someone to rely on, you don’t have to be all alone anymore with solitude as your companion. The sky is vast and oceans deep, you now have a place to go and don’t need to be chased by people and be without a place to call home.

Xiang Liu thought to himself: Xiao Yao, from now on I can no longer stand watch to protect over you, you have to take good care of yourself, wishing you a lifetime of worry free happiness.


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Lost You Forever Epilogue: Wishing You a Lifetime of Worry Free Happiness — 29 Comments

  1. This epilogue is my favourite and it brings such a swelling of feelings. Xiang Liu is such a layered character and he is my favourite. His way of handling things is purposeful and decisive, truly a general. I wish it was a longer chapter but then the bittersweet feeling may not be as strong. Thank you Koala. I read the book because you recommended it and I’m hard pressed to find another that can rival this.

    • Just finish rereading 51 chapters.
      Even though it is my second time, I can’t stop my reading until the wee hours, my eyes hurt, i laugh, I cry, what a wonderful translation by koala. Thank you so much.
      Among the three men, I will stil choose Jing. No woman wanted not to be prioritized. Jing in many occasions give and just give. Xiang Liu, he gives but most of the time in exchange of something. Zhuan Xu, he is a user and selfish. He’s stuck in the childhood memories.
      But among the three emperors, Zhuan Xu is the best.

  2. Thank you to each and every reader who accompanied this blog, and a shout out to the fans of Lost You Forever! I’m so so sorry I didn’t finish this during the heyday when everyone was still hooked. Please let folks know it’s done so they can come back and finish if they are still interested. 🙂

    • Hi Ms. Koala,
      This is my first time commenting to this blog. I always stalking your blog every day, my apologize. I can’t thank you enough for introducing & translating this epic novel. My mother in law (non Asian) also love “LYF” so much. I reread this novel translation many times already, in fact I was reading chapter 6 when suddenly “LYF chapter 51 showed up. I was so shocked, exited & couldn’t believe it!
      Ms. Koala, by any chance, could you sell your translation of LYF to Amazon? I will buy for sure. I know you don’t need money but I’m really hoping that more readers will know this masterpiece novel. Again, thank you so much!

    • No, I’m not crying…😭😭😭

      Beautiful final chapter and epilogue. It’s a testament to how deep a mark XL left on my heart that even after all these years, I am so moved by this ending. A wonderful novel from start to finish. I’ve reread it, probably 3x now, will need to schedule in another reread soon.

      Thank you so much Koala for your labor of love! Also, my favorite c-novel to date! I’m so glad I caught your tweet, otherwise I might have missed it! Piggybacking off of Ellie, I honestly wish there was a way to get your entire translation as a printed book. Would buy and read all the time! Although I know that must be legally difficult (although we have a lawyer in the house, right? 😜) Again thank you for sharing this story and journey with us!

    • Koala, while reading Lost You Forever I loved reading your interpretations and thoughts in the comments section because it helped my understanding of the novel when I couldn’t read between the lines xD I know you mentioned before you tried to not comment too much because you want us to form our own interpretations, now that the novel is complete will you be doing a post about your thoughts/analysis of the novel? As well as which guy she loves the most, who loves her the most, etc

    • Go to my drama/book recaps link on the bottom of the header, you’ll find the entire translated novel towards the bottom of the page.

  3. Thank you so much for translating this beautiful story and thank you for your beautiful translation.

    I can’t read the original version but your translation has moved me with the story and sparked the thirst to read more on Chinese novels.

    Xiang Lu remains my favorite protagonist until the end of the story, a reflection of an unsung and altruistic hero we really need in this chaotic world.

  4. Thank you so much! Like some of the commentors here, it was your translations that got me interested in reading Chinese novels, and I’ve loved all of your translations. I was so desperate to find out how this ended I used Google translate on the original text, but this is so much better. Much appreciation for all your hard work over the years!

    My heart breaks for Xiang Liu, but, in the end, this is how he wanted to go. Sniff.

  5. And its come full circle! I have been following these translations since 2014 when they were initially posted and fell in love with it and of course Xiang Lu. Unfortunately someone spoiled it and Xiang Lu’s fate broke my heart. No matter how hard I tried, I simply couldn’t get back to it. He is my favourite fictional character of all time and believe me I have read tons of books. I’m a book blogger.
    Koala instills melancholy, sorrow and deep connection even via translations so well that I have to keep telling myself that this is fiction. I have been feeling down all day and wondering what was the matter with me untill I realised that I read Xiang Lu’s epilogue.
    Thanks Koala for introducing me to a different genre of fiction and Chinese fantasy literature.

  6. Many first loves are coming full circle this Valentine!
    Cannot believe that BBJX was so long ago or that it lead to the beautiful entrapment of Tong Hua’s other works, shared so passionately on this blog.

    • Xie xie ni Koala.. after the loong paused you decide to continue finishing this novel. Such beautiful story that left me hollow full of grief and sadness. The ony one person/character that vanished from in the ending was Xiang Lu. His nobility to love xiao yao was one ultimate great actions to show his selfless and profound love in silence. Everything concerning xiao yao happiness was provided by this great selfless Demon, from the ability to protect herself ( him giving her the magical bow n teaching her archery), place to stay ( him giving his blood essence during those 37 yrs he was curing her so she can also survive undef water), and the last ultimate gesture of his love was rescuing Jing ( i remember the last time he saw her, he asked for a plentifull of blood from her that made her angry and mad at him) this blood he condensed and gave to a mermaid to feed it to Jing so he can survive after jing got lost in d ocean. Jing surviving was meant for Xiao Yao to have a live accompaniment by her side.Such an enigmatic character invented by Tong Hua that will always stays ni my heart as my favourite great chracter. Kudos to Tong hua..

  7. This epilogue brings all those feels I’ve buried deep in my heart from this novel a long time ago. Such a bittersweet, painful but also beautiful nostalgia.
    LYF was my first C-Novel. My very first introduction to many amazing Chinese novels. Thanks to you Koala.

  8. This is such a unexpected gift – thank you so much Koala! I found this novel after watching Scarlet Heart (BuBuJingXin) and I’ve been hunting for novels ever since! It’s still my ultimate favourite and I’m eager and scared for a live adaptation! Thank you again!

  9. Thank you so much for your translation! I actually discovered this site through LYF and have remained a loyal visitor since. Love this novel to bits and am anxiously awaiting for news about the drama adaption…

  10. Glad to read the end. This definitely supports what I wrote before: XL protected XY but had other priorities and since he knew he couldn’t put her first he supported the one who would, Jing.

  11. Thank you for completing this Koala! This was such a wonderful book and your translation was great to read. I’ve read LYF several times now and each time I still manage to cry buckets. Thanks for this experience!

  12. Hi Koala!

    I just want to say thank you so much for the translations! I’m one of the new readers who saw your chapter 51 post and was curious enough with the book to go start reading from chapter 1. And boy it was a journey!!!! I’m currently in the middle of the hospital cafeteria trying not to bawl my eyes out with this epilogue. The ending was amazing XL is my ultimate bae, ZX chose his path but is also still my bae and Jing really deserved being with XY. And most of all XY is one of the strongest female protagonist that I have read in a long time, it’s amazing to see intelligence, playfulness and strength.

    Thank you so much for the translation! It was an absolute pleasure to read! ❤️

  13. Thank you very much! A bittersweet ending indeed. All of the characters even the minor characters, were able to reach/ satisfied their goals but lost something on the way. They all had faults and I felt serious angst but realized even gods aren’t perfect. I still think back to Qing town and to me that seems like the best times of their lives being care free before politics/ family drama interfered.

    It is a pity Xiao Yao will never know how much XL did for her or how he felt about her. He disguised it as transactions so she will be not too hinged on him and saved Jing bc Jing will always place her first since his grandmother and brother/deceased wife are no longer in the way.

    Personally the first third of the book I felt Jing was best in his devotion but his timidity caused XY to suffer. XY is already emotionally abused since young so of course it is harder for her to initiate. ZY is living in regrets but also missed his chance to confess earlier on. I pity XL the most. In another world like xiao yao referenced to if she met XL first before general gong gong how different it would be. I believe XL was XY ultimate bae but both knew that XL cannot give up his loyalty. XL is a relic of the past generation like ZY’S dad, dying for one’s conviction with their brethren.

    Moving along, ZY will forever be in a conundrum as the emperor to please the clans/ tribes as the case of Xing Yue empress and Feng long’s death so even if feelings are there, he can’t give xiao yao the best happiness. I do pity that he wont get true happiness. I agree with Ms koala that this book is of two leads, XY and ZY, because of such depths given to ZY.

    This book definitely tugged on the heart bc XY finally get her happy ending after everything she has been through. Sometimes she can be dense but that is because the Male leads hid it so well. I wish there was an epilogue of XY’S kids with jing! After so much angst of them uniting that spanned over centuries i want to see a bit more intimate fluff between the two! Lol

  14. Btw i thought XIAO YAO lost the ability to transform faces when the white emperor removed that peach blossom artifact? How come at the end he mentioned she still could transform and with jing, they can forever live away from the politics?

  15. Such a gem! I’m lucky I discovered it this March so I didn’t wait for long. But wow, such perseverance in translating! I admire you. Thank you so much! ❤️😘😍

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